No looking back

Hey stace

Just found the diaries on here!! 

We can do it this time...let's keep talking and supporting each other on here.

Gambling tries to destroy people but we are stronger that that parasite 

Xxxx

Hi Sally, thanks for your kind words. Still early days for me, but I'm stronger mentally , so im stronger to deal with any gambling urges i might get, think I can do this now ?

Hi lastchance , ah so you've been here a while, maybe I know you under your old username, but won't ask what it was as your probably wanting a fresh start ? we can do this, will more than likely see you in chat again. Take care.

Diary....

First day of summer holidays , kids have kept me busy, put there pool up this morning,  took 2 and a half hours to fill ? kids were so impatient.! Had such a nice day with them,  they've been playing in pool all afternoon whilst I sunbathed and watched them. Of to a bbq later at my mums, used to say no to getting together with family , was just too low and constantly gambling so hiding away. I'm actually really looking forward to it and the kids are excited as all there cousins will be there too. It feels so nice to be in a better place to be able to do this.  I'm feeling really hopeful about my future. I know it won't be plain sailing, life isn't, but I do feel stronger to be able to resist any gambling urges and if I do struggle  , I will reach out. 

I've met some wonderful people on here old and new , and everyone on the same journey. Some will fall and get back up, some will fall and struggle to get back up and some will be able to keep walking without falling , they may trip up now and then but don't hit the ground but in the end were all aiming for that carefree walk (and if you understand all that , then I give you a medal ??). Stay strong all 

Stace

So 3 weeks gamble free tomorrow,  it feels good. Theres a determination in me this time that I've not felt this strongly before. Still alot going on in my family and its hard, but I'm making sure I don't make things harder by gambling..

I've had a lovely weekend with my children and family..?

Stace

I've reached 3 weeks gamble free. Actually really proud of myself. When I've reached any kind of milestone in past , I wasn't really happy or proud as deep down I knew I would gamble again, its how I coped. Its different this time. Each day my mental health is improving and with that the need to gamble is disappearing. I just want to be happy ? 

Hi Stace,

Well done on achieving 3 weeks gamble free. You have got this ?? 

Hi Stace 

Super to read 3 weeks is fantastic
Really pleased for you 

Holly xx 

Thankyou holly. Hope your well ?

Well done Stace. I have read some of your posts in the past on previous diaries. I can tell from how you write and express yourself now on your diary and on chat that you are in a much better place. Great work.

Captain 

Thankyou captain. I have a long way to go in both personal stuff and gambling but I'm working hard on all of it as I don't want to just exist anymore , I want to live..I've missed out on enough and so have my children.  I know things will happen and il be tested  , that's life and it can be so d**n hard but I'm fighting this time. Depression ,ptsd and gambling has taken enough from me, not letting it take anymore 

Stace

Really happy for you and the kids Stace! Onwards and upwards now ??

You're improving yourself as a person at the same time and that's kind of amazing!

Keep going you've got this!

Matt ❤

Matt that was so lovely to read. Thankyou. Hope your well

Stace x

???HOPE???

HOPE is the place were you want to go

HOPE is the person who you want to know

HOPE is the feeling that carries you through

AND HOPE is the future for ME and for YOU

Were theres life , there is hope, keep fighting, be STRONG...have HOPE ?

See your at 25 days well done you. I find your story inspiring , similar to me you have had numerous attempt previously. But youve not given in and reading diary have a ultra positive outlook , which can only applaud you for based on what sure been through. Can only hope get to your positive outlook in time and the dark thoughts and outlook subside more. Love your quotes too and actually copy and pasted them and saved to read . Thanks and well done keep it going stace .

Hi last, I've just replied on your diary. Those quotes are helping me in a way, I write them at home too on a sticky and put it on my wardrobe, won't be able to see my wardrobe soon ?? 

Keep strong, your not alone 

Stace

Thanks stace ive replied to you on my diary too , thank again like the wardrobe idea.