No looking back

@stace hey how u feeling now xx 

Just thought id check in stace xx

Keep taking the meds, stay in with ur family, and things will get better mentally.

Beleive me the thoughts will go back to normal everyday thinking once the meds take control.....

I am now used to the voices and just get bored with them once they come and go the next morning when i wake up.

Try to think of everything that you can see as being the reality and the thoughts that are intrusive as non reality.

Your family and friends are real they love you and will get you thru it.

All the best see you tomo.

Try to relax....

I find if i dont sleep i listen to music and make a hot drink.... just dont go anywhere stay at home till youre well.

Adam xxx

Thanks for the posts. I'm not really up to talking at the moment, but just want you all to know, I really appreciate the support I receive, it really does mean alot to me, so thankyou ❤ 

RESETTING MY GF CLOCK.!!

Relasped badly. Spent a fortune. Made mistakes. I've finally admitted I'm very unwell mentally,  taken a while to get my head around it, didn't believe my diagnosis. But now I do. And I'm terrified. I feel so lost. I'm hurting so bad. I came clean to my partner. Hes upset. The mess I caused , all because I needed to escape whats going on. I can't keep doing this no more. Its not a life and I'm hurting everyone I love. 

Tomorrow will be....... day 1

Time to try again. 

Either that or give up completely. But I love my kids , and wantt to be here for them. Wish this pain would stop. 

Good Evening Stace, 

I am sorry to hear that you have relapsed. We appreciate how this can feel like a set back but it is important to try and draw out the positives from what has happened also. 

Well done for opening up and talking to your partner, whilst they are upset now it is important that you keep that communication going so that at times when you are finding things particularly difficult, you will find it a bit easier to talk to them, it will help to build trust. Also acknowledging how you are feeling is a big step forward, use this to gain some momentum in accessing any further support that you feel you may need. 

Wishing you all the best, 

Ricki

Forum Admin

Thankyou @forumadmin

Heading for a bath then bed so guess I can say day 1 gf done. Its been a tough day. Struggling with mental health badly and I've missed the escape gambling gives me. Tomorrow's another day.

Thoughts with you all Stace x

Thankyou bal. Hope your well x

Nearly 4am and I've not been able to sleep. Been in bed since 9.30 ?? 

Wide awake with only my thoughts for company. Tried coping techniques,  tried a warm drink, listened to relaxing sounds, even got up and tidied up abit. Still wide awake.! Kids will have me up in just over 3 hours ?

Its been so so hard not to gamble tonight, urges bad.

I absolutely hate how gamblings taken over years of my life. I hate how I use it to escape. I hate the person it turns me into. I don't get a buzz from gambling, I don't enjoy it, I don't do it to win...thats pointless anyway because anything won would just be gambled away. Its purely for escape, surely there's something out there that I haven't tried yet that will give me the same escape. Il keep searching. ???

Had a bad week and an absolutely terrible day, don't know whats next...cant even think straight

Hi

Sorry to hear you had a bad week the important thing is you did not gamble.

Being in the recovery program I understood that by gambling I use to make things much worse for myself and my family.

Having a terrible day you are being tested.

If you cant even think straight have a connection with alike minded person who is in the recovery program.

The very last thing I wanted to do was gamble.

When I got stressed out at work I woud just take a break even if it was for five or ten minutes it helped.

Love and peace to everyone.

Dave L

AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK

So 2 weeks gf, not sure how I've done it, with everything going on but I have. 

Today I managed to take the kids on a train to the shops 20 minutes away, and bought them all new trainers and socks (5 pairs of trainers??), also treated them to mcdonalds. They were really good and it was nice to be able to go shopping without having to constantly check bank balance or worse not having the money to get them the things they need. So its been a nice day.

I've not been on here much, as there's qlot going on in my life at the moment and I've not felt in the right heads pace but I'm doing OK gambling wise, I learn something from each relapse and it makes me just that bit stronger when I start again.

Take care all ?

Cracking stace, well done xxx

Hi

Good thing that is 2 weeks gambling free, who knows what more you can achieve if you set your mind to it.

You took the kids on a train to the shops 20 minutes away, that sounds like fun and a expedition.

It probably meant so much to them you being so connected.

You bought them all new trainers and socks 5 pairs of trainers they must have been very excited.

When do you get your new trainers. 

You treated them to mcdonalds, where is mine then.

It was nice to be able to go shopping without having fear makes you stress out.

Its been a nice day, who is responsible fro that then..

It is healthy to learn something from each relapse reduces the chances of you going back.

It makes you just that bit stronger also halthier and kinder to your self.

Just for today only I do not want or need to gamble and hurt myself once more. 

Love and peace to every one

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham UK