Am new to this only just signed up couple days as I realised my gambling problem was out of control. This is my 4th time I have relapsed the first 3 times I thought I could fix it my self I was so naive and stubborn.
So I have put gamstop in place now, which I’ve read plenty people saying it’s worked for them but we all no this is the start of a long journey.
Things are still raw of the damage I’ve caused so gambling is not on my mind yet but we all no it creeps back in, so I need keep my head busy and start this journey.
hopefully this diary will help, reading other people’s post gives me hope and also shows me that we are not alone in this battle.
We are pleased that you are reaching out for support on our forum. It sounds as though you are taking some positive actions already. Relapse can feel tough, this time may feel different now that you are getting more help. Feel free to also contact us on our helpline or netline for a one to one chat with an adviser. There are many things we can guide you on and we also offer free treatment should you need it.
Better day today had good conversation with my partner last night so woke up this morning feeling some form of weight was lifted off my shoulders . Move on with the rest of my day now work and kids tonight so I’ll be kept busy. One day at a time it’s a slow process but will rewarded in the end stay strong.
Not best of days today but even tho it’s pay day I haven’t gambled even tho it’s crossed m mind, hard thing is gambling was a stress reliever for me as mad as it sounds even tho when u lost it made stress so when ur dealing with problems it does make things harder. Even so am plodding thru m days one day at a times keep telling mself .
Pay day's are always tough days but once you get through it you will feel a great achievement, I imagine you cant remember the last pay day you didn't gamble. just to break it down for you i always look at it like its just about avoiding the first bet. If you don't place that first one you can never place the 2nd 3rd 4th etc.
I know that makes it sound really simple and easy and it most definitely isn't but just remember you will never win because as a compulsive gambler you cant stop
That is so true. Wel got weekend out the way and no relapses, just spent time with the family which kept me more than busy so all in all was a good weekend, don’t get me wrong there was thoughts but thats all they were. As my missus would say actions speak louder than words and my actions definitely shown this week. So 2nd week start again head down keep busy carry on what am doing. Hope everyone in good place.
Woke up this morning feeling s*** didn’t sleep at all last night my mind was in overdrive, if I wasn’t thinking of gambling I was thinking the damage it’s caused which am still trying to fix.
so after about 2 hours sleep am in work hoping it keeps me occupied through out the day and my head calms down a bit.
This is hard Ano I’m doing right thing but this is gona be a battle.
So been off for m diary for day or so had bit of a emotional rollercoaster but I came through it
Now it’s came bk around it’s pay day the temptation is ridiculous, I even think now again wel just a little bit each week won’t do no harm but we all no thts the devil inside trying to tempt us. I’ve been good tho started new hobby n used the money for the equipment I needed, so m heads still in the right place it’s just trying to silent those little voices u get every now n again. Stay strong move forward.
So I got through weekend felt like a week tho.
into my second week nw gf feel so numb like something is missing out my life, the fact I wasn’t even good at it just shows what sort of hold it has on you it’s such a ruthless habit to have but I still got on with day to day routine stuck to my plan so I am winning in tht sense.
still hard tho but new week *** on with what I’ve been doing. hope U all best
So got myself to Friday paid m bills so that’s a positive. Has been a hard week mentally. Something I learnt this week for the first time and I understood Was what my trigger was This was a massive thing for me Understanding what it is that makes me gamble. Hours feel like days n days feel like weeks at the moment but guess it’s all baby steps we take and just push on.
hope u all best everyone we can do this.
Been away for few days so haven’t been posting. I have been keeping my self busy one more day and I have been a full month without betting, in truth it feels like 4 months but even so am still on right path, been reading some of the post and hearing people say about being a secret gambler, the best thing I ever done was tel my closest ones as carrying the guilt on u own took me to places I dnt want to go back to. Opening up to people don’t instantly fix the problem but it does take that burden of u shoulders and gives u someone to turn to and from there u take small steps to recovery.