New me? Right?

I didn’t know about sense.  I’ll look it up xxxxx

Hi BOO 

If you go to the self help section at the top of the page , click on and scroll down to self exclusion ,then onto the self exclusion for casino's there's a link to take you to their website . 

All the best :)) 

Thank you very much x

Well done ?

Hi

The recovery program is about healing and our recovery, for me it is non religious.

Sadly healing and my recovery could not occur if I was not admitting my pains and my fears to myself.

Just for today I will not Gamble is a healthy boundary that means I no longer want to hurt myself any more.

Just for today I will not Gamble and will not smoke means I am exchanging another unhealthy habit, yet just for today I will means my dedication towards being more productive today.

My wording I used I have to indicated that my thinking was obsessive, I then worked out what were my needs, what were my wants, what were my goals, and writing them down and making my lists made me more accountable to myself.

In time my motives changed to healthy motives.

I also became more selfish about my recovery, not doing things resentfully or reluctantly, also doing things unconditionally, to do things and not expecting in return, that reduced my frustrations and my disappointments.

For me counselling was the time when deep seated emotional trauma came to surface and I started to cry when exposing the pains of my past.

There was one memory that was very painful, it was of a time when I was abandoned and sent on a train to a place where emotional pain and physical pains were very regular.

During this time of exposing myself fully other suppressed memories came out and I so traumatized that it took me over 11 days to process every emotion and feeling that came out.

During this healing time I felt very sluggish, I felt very disconnected, but after the 11 days I was very much more aware and had a much faster response time.

I often talk to my wife about dreams on first waking up and find it is helpful.

Please keep going to meetings, you will benefit from it in so many ways.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham

Wow boo 

that takes some control and you should absolutely  feel so proud of walking away. This is the first step to realising you can do this. Like others have said go in and exclude from being allowed in, this is going to stop you if the urge ever comes back and you can’t turn around. 

Keep that feeling of what it felt like to go home with nothin lost and hold onto it. There will so many days like this to rejoice whilst not gambling 

go you ?

So,

my first post was one of misery like everyone else.  You’ve had enough of loosing or winning a little then loosing ALOT! Ten years of abusing my finances, my self worth and my sanity.  Enough was enough! 

In 15 days I’ve gone from miserable to less miserable! I’ve gone to walk to casino and turned round half way. Thanks to users on here who directed me to sense who I’m now registered with and gamstop.  

15 days feels like 15 years.  I’d rather have something and be skint than have nothing and be skint.

gambling almost ruined my life.

xx

join sense exclusion from all UK casinos!!! I have makes it easier

I have 🙂 I’m in such a good place mentally.  I never thought quitting would give me such a boost.  I know it’s only been two weeks and it’s a long road but those two weeks have been the best out of 10 years of misery!

Keep going Boo!

you've done amazingly well! I have decided when I reach my one month mark in 8 days I’m going to celebrate ? and then keep focused and holding onto my one day at time. 

I have had an awful come down from stopping gambling, but feel a little now that I am rising up again. 

The name of the game is never be complacent, keep focused, and keep surrounding yourself with invaluable support and wise words on here. 

I don’t know what I would have done without gamcare and Gamstop.

heres to another 15 days for you GF! Well done ??

Well done dude. I had a beer and broke yesterday. Fruit machine followed by online session. Im very annoyed with myself. Back on day 1 again. 

So.... emotional trigger at work and I can feel it building to point I'm gonna explode.  24 days in and trying to not obliterate my bank balance 

Stay strong Boo, it's hard but you can do this

X

Stay strong Boo, it's hard but you can do this

X

Hi

There was a time I use to say to myself that people life and situations use to stress me out.

I had lost confidence and self esteem a long time before my addictions and obsessions.

Any time I was asked in to the office I was to instantly react feeling like I had done some thing wrong, that I was guilty.

I was even asked by my bosses why did I always assume that I had done some thing wrong.

In time I would question my motives and did I enjoy my work.

I was even going to leave my job and did a full inventory of every aspect of my job.

Then I understood that my unhealthy reaction to my job was that I felt like I was being controlled and regulated by my work place.

It was my reaction to my work place, then once I understood that I enjoyed nearly every thing about my job.

My unhealthy reaction to people life and situations was my responsibility.

My unhealthy reaction to people life and situations of people life and situations was not very healthy for me.

Over time my reluctance to work changed, my motivation improved.

One thing was also changed my unreasonable expectations of people life and situations so I stopped causing my self pains due to my own frustrations.

I would not be at peace with the world until I was at peace with with myself.

In time I would understand my emotional triggers and stopped reacting in such unhealthy ways.

Please keep going to meetings, you will benefit from it in so many ways.

Love and peace to every one.

Dave L

AKA Dave of Beckenham