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(@missp)
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173 days - fantastic achievement!!! 

Stay strong 

 
Posted : 29th August 2019 2:23 pm
holycrosser
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Thank you all above.the support always helps.

Day 174 and the end of a tricky week,today I'm going for a long walk then lunch with OH and a bit of housework.

Not going near betting shops

 
Posted : 30th August 2019 4:31 am
(@lowsx100)
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Ive read all 25 pages. Please dont use willpower... Im a bit harsh please excuse me.... But when using this it feels like something precious is taken away from you! It isnt, its escaping black hell! People who use willpower will unfortunately break or at rare cases, fight their whole life. Its miserable! Gamblers are WILLFULL! They gamble even if they have to stay awake 24 hours straight. That takes a strong will. Its not a conflict of will, but an addiction! You need to make your desire to gamble vanquish. You need to truly see gambling as it is. This really does not have to be a fight, provided you dont use willpower. I have since october been on and off. 3 months absence every attempt. But this time I have finally figured my triggers and am fully prepared this time. I have no desire to gamble, but when it last came I got caught and trapped because I forgot what I have learned. Im now taking actions to reming myself every 3 months(or when I start getting forgetful)

Ive seen you struggle multiple times by your posts. Its dangerous. Thats why using willpower is so scary.

Cheers

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Posted : 30th August 2019 11:56 pm
holycrosser
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Posted by: Lowsx100

Ive read all 25 pages. Please dont use willpower... Im a bit harsh please excuse me.... But when using this it feels like something precious is taken away from you! It isnt, its escaping black hell! People who use willpower will unfortunately break or at rare cases, fight their whole life. Its miserable! Gamblers are WILLFULL! They gamble even if they have to stay awake 24 hours straight. That takes a strong will. Its not a conflict of will, but an addiction! You need to make your desire to gamble vanquish. You need to truly see gambling as it is. This really does not have to be a fight, provided you dont use willpower. I have since october been on and off. 3 months absence every attempt. But this time I have finally figured my triggers and am fully prepared this time. I have no desire to gamble, but when it last came I got caught and trapped because I forgot what I have learned. Im now taking actions to reming myself every 3 months(or when I start getting forgetful)

Ive seen you struggle multiple times by your posts. Its dangerous. Thats why using willpower is so scary.

Cheers

Blocks are in place online, so not a chance that can happen, as long as I keep calm  I will refrain from gambling.Willpower can win, I want this , everyone is different and if I fail I will be my biggest critic.

For now I’m GF , it’s a start, I’m in no position to change the way I do things so on I go.

 

cheers

 
Posted : 1st September 2019 8:09 am
holycrosser
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Day 176 begins, good day at the football yesterday, had a lot of temptations around me, being with a non gambler helped.

going out for lunch today with friends, something 6 months ago I’d never do.

 
Posted : 1st September 2019 8:11 am
holycrosser
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Day 177

Start of a new week,loads to do.Payday came n went,all bills paid another month chalked off the debt.The months go slow in debt terms but one day it will end.

Another day to get thru, urges have gone now.

 
Posted : 2nd September 2019 4:48 am
holycrosser
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Day 178,woke early but went to bed early.

The days tick by,calm at the minute today I approach 6 months away from gambling but it seems like last week.

Pretty sure I can do this.

 
Posted : 3rd September 2019 3:45 am
holycrosser
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Day 179

Regular day ahead.no gambling for me today.it ruins lives 

 
Posted : 4th September 2019 5:06 am
holycrosser
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Day 179

Regular day ahead.no gambling for me today.it ruins lives 

 
Posted : 4th September 2019 5:07 am
holycrosser
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Day 180

Another day , no drama, eating like a pig so need to exercise a big more 

Here's to another GF day

 
Posted : 5th September 2019 1:06 pm
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 Aum
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Congratulations Holycrosser on 180 days GF 

I wish you every happiness as you continue on your journey.

Stephen 

 
Posted : 5th September 2019 8:31 pm
holycrosser
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Posted by: Stalwart Stephen

Congratulations Holycrosser on 180 days GF 

I wish you every happiness as you continue on your journey.

Stephen 

Thanks pal, one hurdle to get over in 8 weeks time and then I'm on a road to managing this.

Day 181 begins, me and the wife are away this weekend starting pm today a nice trip to a lush hotel in Scotland , cant wait.Be good all and dont gamble, simple as that. 

 
Posted : 6th September 2019 4:40 am
(@missp)
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Well done on not giving in to temptation.  Hope you have a lovely break 

 
Posted : 6th September 2019 11:32 am
holycrosser
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Gamstop saves me again, why on earth did I try , rrrr

blocks work thankfully 

 
Posted : 6th September 2019 6:07 pm
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Day 183 Scotland. Lush

 

Still gf

 
Posted : 8th September 2019 1:17 am
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