My recovery diary

Lou, you have nothing to apologise for. ❤️
I don’t know why someone behaved the way they did in chat tonight. But, to be honest, I was surprised the CM did not intervene and tell the same person to either stop or leave. 
You were merely sticking up for someone who was looking for support and comfort. 
Anyway, I really wish you well Lou, if you need an ear, I’m here. 
Take care T xx

Thankyou Tizzy,

And i agree and thats why i got frustrated

Thankyou appreciate that

Just feeling like ive hit the bottom tonight the footballs also not helping, works gone wrong just in pieces and feeling hard to reach out 

Lou x

Just feeling sad, feel when i do try reach out i then just feel people get annoyed or fed up of you constantly going round in circles. Tried to reach out but you just know people fed up of you, then you try to cope alone and it feels more unbearable

Just started to feel like everyone would be better off without me.

The football and feeling like this isnt helping with recovery but also am i even recovering ? being like this

:'( 

Sorry to anyone reading this annd also feeling fed up of me as i am of me.

Lou x

Also I Wish everyone on here a happier and healthy future in recovering and rebuilding their lives,

I never wish emotional pain on anyone

Lou x 

Thankyou for your very kind words Tom,i do hope whilst being on the site i have helped at least one person in their path on recovery especially in the chatroom

This week ive struggled, The only relief i have had is watching a couple of football matches im not normally a football fan but its been a distraction although the adrenaline side can mess with me, i havent gambled or bet on it but its the only time i can feel some sort of escape from other stresses i just need a break. 

The Chatroom was a very supportive place tonight so thankyou

Lou x

Lou I don’t come on very much now has I have had lot of problems but you have been so supportive and always give good advice take care Lou                          
    Scotty??  

Last week and a half ive been struggling was suppose to have an appt today for support but thats needed to be rescheduled, feelinf very low, struggling with work feeling stressed and tired. Only break i seem to get is watching the football and doing fantasy football not been much of a football fan but ive got into this maybe for the wrong reasons. I havent bet on it.

Im just feeling bad, feel unable  phone and speak to anyone because i just feel everyones just fed up of me, instead im just struggling more with not having anyone to speak to about it. I feel low

Lou 

Hi Lou, I can’t imagine how it must have felt having your counselling session cancelled. 
I saw you in chat tonight but you were very quiet. 
I hope when you do get to speak to someone they can help you on your journey forward. You are doing so well. 
sending some virtual hugs T xxx

Hi Lou,

Sorry to hear your having a bit of a hard time. Please don't feel like anyone is fed up of you. We just want to help and support you.

Your doing amazing. Still gf even after all the stress and struggles your having so be proud of yourself.

Love Kate 

Yet again another appointment cancelled i know it cant be helped but im struggling so badly..someone from gp surgery is gonna try get hold mh team tomorrow..they said someone will phone me but its not the same as having a face to face appt ive pleaded for some one to see me tomorrow but its not looking likely. Im tired of asking for help and battling each day.

Tried to distract with the football tonight to just get by

Lou x

Hi Lou, I'm really sad to hear that your counselling was cancelled.  You will get Lou so better times ahead when you do 🙂 keep strong Lou 🙂

Thanks its not counselling though its my just appointments regarding my mental health in general..its not the gambling counselling thats been cancelled

Lou

Ahh Lou thats a shame its been cancelled yet again. I'll keep my fingers crossed that you get to speak to someone soon. I know they are back taking apps face to face in my area for mental health so hopefully once they get someone to call you then you may get a face to face app then.

Stay strong  x

I was still having face to face ones anyway just understandable reasons cancelled just the last couple of weeks ive been struggling. There suppose to be ringing me today so im hoping i can see someone today. 

So tired..also stupidly decided to enter few raffles last night affordable only few £s but guess that was still careless and to replace urge to gamble

Lou x

Hi Lou,

Its been a while since we last chatted properly. I really hope your okay, and to let you know I've been thinking about you. I know you said you was in hospital, so I hope your feeling better now and hopefully home resting easy.

Take care

Kate x