Today was another good day ,
Each day is a small step but my small steps are starting to really add up now, I’m still in baby steps territory but definitely going in the right direction!
I haven’t posted in here for over a month even though I told myself I would write a lot I found myself posting for the sake of posting and not having anything really to say, that said I have still been looking on the forums and reading on the site sill over the last month but again not as much as I would have hoped....
since I have last posted it’s all gone Pete tong ...l
I knew football season starting would be my biggest hurdle and yes it has been. I have let myself , Amanda and bailey down. I’m not gonna beat myself up about it too much though in total I have put about £40 into football bets in store. I can’t do anything online anymore thanks to all the blockers because even though I know I can’t I still tried to log in online once the bug got me again but thankfully I can’t do that, but I don’t know why but I just got drawn like a magnet into the stupid shop, I’ve never self excluded from shops because Im scared of going in and saying to them to be honest.
i didn’t go out intending to go into one I was doing something completely different not even thinking about going to one until I walked by one and thought ‘football starts tomorrow’ and like a robot I walked in and did a accumulator then and a couple more since until a couple days ago now.
Feel more embarrassed and ashamed but more than anything though I just feel incredibly frustrated and disappointed with myself. I was on course for getting over 100 days gamble free but now I’m at the starting blocks again.
it is what it is though, I will make it to where I wanna be but right now just gotta stop getting so far and then getting complacent with myself.
as they say .....
we go again!!
DAY 81!
Now I haven’t posted here for a long time since my post above about giving in last time, since then I have held strong and not given in even of times of being tempted , I am blocked on everything absolutely everything which has helped big time
I have been on the site regularly but just reading mainly and posting not often but just reading posts helps me.
since the last blip our house decoration has come a long way and my bank is actually looking healthy come the end of the month.
going to keep this going and going, on this post I AM proud of me for a change 🙂
Day 96
im now feeling extremely anxious as 100 days is coming up and it’s around here I’ve messed up before , this whole process is extremely tough since being GF I am extremely argumentative and snappy . Some days are perfect and others are horrendous .. I was all the days GF were easy but don’t we all ...
Again it’s been a long time since my last post and a lot has happened in life but importantly now 157 days gamble free and each day feels better and better!!
@holycrosser it’s a few years later and I have been clean of gambling for over 2 years. Unbelievable really
It’s a few years later unbelievably and I’ve now been clean of gambling for over 2 years.
This was only possible thanks to the help of hypnotherapy combined with gam ban blocking app gamcare and determination to not completely mess up my life.
If someone said to me in 2019 I’d be here where I am now I’d of not believed them.
if your reading this and you are struggling believe me the longer you go without gambling it gets easier and easier.
Take care.
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