Having introduced myself on new member forum decided to enter diary world. The regrets are the worst feelings ever but have to put them on the back burner and focus. Busy day organised today and monies transferred to savings account which I don't touch.. Cinema and light lunch today which will take me psdt my trigger points to gamble in the day.. Never online.. Just the local casino which opens 24 hrs... Strength of character has to be the boss.. Take it easy all today.
Once I was able to abstain only then could I get motivated in healthy ways.
It was important to exchange unhealthy habits in to healthy habits.
Writing down my needs, writing down my wants, and writing down my goals.
Writing down was making me more focused on my life today, writing down things was being accountable to myself.
I was white knuckling my recovery just by abstaining only, once I got my a*s in to gear and got motivated recovery was both easier and less painful.
I am a non religious person yet now understand how unhealthy I was before my recovery.
I use to give up on myself so easily in the old days.
Having serenity means I am not able to change other people, yet I am able to change my unhealthy reactions to people life and situations.
Keep living for today and letting go of the past.
Love and peace to every one.
AKA Dave of Beckenham