Just why???

Brilliant Stephen, thanks sosad I will have a look and try x

I can’t find diaries, I get on here via forums! I must be thick, or is it because it’s an iPad?

We are all doing great indeed! I had a lovely feeling today and feel proud. I was refunded some money in my bank- I did not even contemplate doing the “usual” and I paid my car insurance with it instead. Felt amazing! I was worried whether I was all talk and that when I had money available, I might succumb. Now I know that’s not the case and I didn’t do it. I know I still have a long way to go and won’t let my guard down- but today, I did good and wanted to share it with the fabulous and amazing mop possy :)))

Ps Mary- you’re not thick. I think the diaries are actually included under the main forums heading. Can you see the search thing- look in there for diaries

Mrs airwick I am so proud of you!! Major major achievement today. Just wow!!! Maryp you’re not thick I still don’t know if this is my diary or just a thread:)). Carol we have all hit rock bottom and we are all on the up and we’ll keep heading that way. Lil you’re not gonna screw up you’ve come to far. You’re a tough cookie and you’ll beat this. Mankini- not even going there:)))). Mops at the ready!

Awww thanks Hun- and I second all that you said to the others too. So proud of us all I really am. I’m on such a high that I didn’t try to bypass the systems and play. I’ve spent hours doing that in the past like it’s some sort of achievement- nope... just me being a mug. No more mop gang!! Big step for me that was and I know I can do this. Sosad- thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing this diary and for welcoming me in with such support. It’s changed everything it really has. Love our little group of crazy , funny gf mop heads 🙂 I know 100% that if I hadn’t joined this group I would’ve been back to square one today and that’s pretty amazing.

I have a diary yayyyy

Yaaaah go maryp!! Tracy if you and all the other doo lollies hadn’t joined this I would never have got this far so it goes both ways;). Am so dammed proud of you for today’s achievement and your positive attitude towards it. Go mops!!

Sosad your right when you said we all hit rock bottom. It feels good to believe that’s in the rear window. Still need to keep our guard up but moving forward, one step at a time.

No more feeding the slots for me

Tracyd what a test you had today and look at you. You held on to that money. So proud of you.

Lil30 I believe pay day is gonna be a good day for you. How proud will you fell the day after payday and you kept your hard earned money. Maryp glad you started your diary , need to start mine too

Mary! Yessss! You have a diary. Thanks for the lovely supportive comments mops- you’re lovely.

Mary of the mop club has had a manicure

With captivating cuticles and nails opaque and pure

She really is quite stunning our glampuss without mop

Its good to see her gamble free and that's the way she'll stop ... Stephen x

Well done TraceyD - so proud!! and yeah, the diaries are just threads in the forum!

Thanks Lil- hope all is good with you today and the other members of mop club 🙂

Oh my Lordy lord the irony of the following!! Last week my dads brother died, the Will was read yesterday and he left my dad a lot of money so my dad rings me today and says guess what? I say “what dad”? He says I’m taking you to Vegas ! I say WHAT DAD?????!!!! Oh my oh my!! I’m happy being gf I really am but Vegas? It’s vegas baby!!! So what on earth do I do?? Bearing in mind my dad is dying of cancer and only has a year left maybe. Dilemmas dilemmas!! How ironic this is. Could life be any crueller than this?? So mop club what do ya think I should do?

Firstly I am so so sad for you that your dad is so ill. It’s a fabulous gift but sosad, if I am truly honest, I think Vegas would be a huge strain. I couldn’t do it I really couldn’t. It would be like throwing myself in to a lions den and I know that I would find the justification to have a play- be that within limits, with this addiction I think it’s only abstinence that can get us through. Saying that, there is a flip side, this is your dad, your life. Is there any way at all that you could be honest with your dad and say that a trip somewhere else would be just as amazing? I feel for you I really really do but you have come so far and you don’t seem like the same person you were in your original post- and I think that’s because you are so proud of being gf after 40 years. What does your gut instinct tell you to do? There are no judgements here so this is a space you can really hammer it out I think 🙂 What advice would you give to me if I had made the post?

Mmm it’s so hard Tracy, my gut tells me to go because of my dad but my head says no no no. That’s a good question asking me what I would advise you. I think I would tell you that life is short and go with your instincts but be prepared to fail when you come back. If my dad wasn’t so ill I wouldn’t go but time is very precious now and the only interest he has is gambling (can’t think where I get it from!:). He would have the time of his life I know that for a fact. I think you’ve made me just answer my own question. I think I’ve got to go but I’ve got to remember how good I have felt in the last few weeks and how utterly desperate I was feeling last year. I want to stay like i am now, I’m supermum again and I don’t ever want to lose that but I’ve also got to enjoy every last second with my dad. How ironic this situation is. Thanks Tracy:).