I have to stop this!!

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Out last evening with old mates, previously probably couldn’t afford and resented the cost of the food and wine, and then sneak off to Casino or online! Losing more and more!

Last night all good fun and although can’t afford I enjoyed the quality and I deserve the treat! No thoughts back in taxi and all good in morning - a bit of a thick head and a little tired now! 

Here is to another day as a non gambler

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Posted : 10th August 2019 7:49 pm
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Just checked in to 2019 challenge for the week I think it the fifth time I have the pleasure to do it! It is a highlight of my week as another week as a non gambler goes by!! I have added to my list of target/treat greeting to 2020 challenge! So a new year treat!

it helps me!

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Posted : 11th August 2019 6:52 am
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Day 35 - a day of travelling and meetings I used to sneak here and there, today I am planning to be straight to meeting and off, coffee shop for working and then off to next one. Another day as a non gambler 

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Posted : 13th August 2019 6:39 am
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Been out and about today and feeling a little distracted! No issues but I think it’s because I’m out of the “safe” zone of the shops excluded! Also didn’t sleep well last night so feeling a little tired.  Another day as a non gambler so can have early night and go again tomorrow.

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Posted : 13th August 2019 7:30 pm
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Up and at them early! On travels today but in area of self exclusion. Continue to try and think as a non gambler and so we can start tomorrow gf.

 
Posted : 14th August 2019 6:23 am
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Home today, watching the cricket, golf and other sports on tele! Maybe golf later, it’s all good, decisions made on some financials which if I keep adding to my days I can start to see a debt free future long term! 

Here to another day as a non gambler

 
Posted : 15th August 2019 2:23 pm
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Have had a bit of a hang over today so this pm been on the settee watching cricket, footy results and it’s good just watching rather than cursing that late goal or lack of goal to defeat another bet. Then get annoyed and off to the fobt then another load of cash and time disappears. Today just enjoy quality sport. Look forward to 2019 challenge sign in - highlight of week!

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Posted : 17th August 2019 6:42 pm
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You're doing great!

 
Posted : 18th August 2019 2:00 am
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Signed in for another week! 40 days! Always enjoy my Sunday post! Bit of travelling this week, but to places where I am self excluded, hopefully no thoughts but good to know that barriers are there to support.

heres to another day as a non gambler

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Posted : 18th August 2019 2:20 pm
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Day 43 - been v busy in the north and away from home - work done really well, with the planned work completed and no g so all good. This is important I can work without thoughts all good

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Posted : 20th August 2019 6:37 pm
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I am feeling uneasy about things at work at moment and I am laid wide awake reading the posts on this website getting frustrated thinking about work, I think I would be thinking gambling if not for the blockages - it is that what is probably bringing me to this site! No gambling and reading a number of posts reminded me when in denial which lied to big losses. Losing was a slippage, not gambling! Here’s to another day gf on day 44

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Posted : 22nd August 2019 12:14 am
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Day 44 was better doing same work I concentrated on the facts and delivered a supported argument of the position. Identifying the fact! This provided me with satisfaction as against the previous day frustration. My calmer was better, had a couple of drinks post work! In the pub a gambling acquaintance was on the slots while his son sat on his own. I am so glad I am a non gambler now. After 45 mins ish he came back to table and said - wow that was lucky won the £100 jackpot to get back to £40 down!! - no further comment needed to see how warped a gambling mind gets!

he is to another day gf

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Posted : 23rd August 2019 4:56 am
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Day 49 I have been on a weekend away in the sun, beautiful weather and no fears or worries. A number of years ago I was on the same trip plying roulette on my phone on the evening instead of participating with friends. This year all peace and tranquillity and no additional debt. 

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Posted : 27th August 2019 6:43 am
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Day 50 a nice achievement in gf! I have been looking to sort finances and plan for future where gambling notpart of life. There is a repayment plan so long as I stick to non gambling! So here to the next day gf!

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Posted : 28th August 2019 7:50 am
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Today is pay day! Another small step to being debt free alongside gf! A very small step but a good feeling that it is repaid by not gambling and will not increase unless I buy something “nice”

 
Posted : 29th August 2019 7:42 pm
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