Today I have been in a important meeting with a client having spent four hours playing slots lost £’sssss and today I said no slots, just a bet on horses after meeting! Guess what 4 hours later missed train another pay day loan and £30 in bank owing mum and dad a fair bit!
This must stop I have a good job, a pension that will give a nice lump sum but the way I am going in 15 years I will owe all of it and my life will be a waste! I have a house and a car but lost two partners though gambling and it’s getting worse. Today I have put computer blocks on mobile and lap top and self excluded from local bookies and casino! I need some headspace or a new brain - rewire would be good.
i am alone and afraid of the future!
Here is to the future not the past
3.22am 10/7 ian wide awake head thinking about debt and gambling /schemes to get debt free other things I can’t do anything about! Also todo list at work massive! Can’t face that at moment either! So I thought blog! I have had 5 hrs sleep so not too bad for me.
anyway today is day 1 so I will look to be productive / busy / and most of all gambling free
Today thurs 11/7 busy day, and mind beginning to clear, I had a good morning some todo cleared, I have done golf this pm which was good, but underneath I am frustrated so patience not the best! Tomorrow I am out and about so planning not to carry cash so barriers in place. Another day gf and it is a good day!
Day 4 - a full day of golf, and weekend of sport! My mind needs to be concentrated on this, I will have a chance as I won’t be looking at bets on phone, getting annoyed because x or y is not happening. I have been very intolerant recently so let’s set the level to as high as possible and being gf for a number of days can help. Here’s to another gf day!
Ok good start.
things I’ve learned.....sort the debt out into a structure, it needs dealing with.
having debt keeps me focused.
you MUST never gamble again, zero tolerance to anything, anything!
plan ahead, make yourself busy, re invent yourself.
you must accept this is for life mate, no comeback, the debt is done don’t dwell on losses as it’s not going to help, focus solely on not gambling, the key to everything is that.keep posting , keep busy and never ever think you have beaten this as you never ever will....but you can stop gambling.(there’s a difference)
good luck, it’s very hard, but worth it.