So woke up to day 19 of no gambling.. Luckily got stuff to do but my brain is still in re. Programming mode so gambling thoughts still dominate to a degree.. Come the early afternoon they vanish until they vacate my brain will just have to tackle the thoughts. It's easier to cave in energy wise than to find the energy to stave off the urge. I suppose that's when we become more vulnerable again to the addiction.. But I want to. Pop into chat later and say day 19 gf.. So that's what I choose.. Happy Halloween all
It’s like a drug and creates the same need. Well done 19 days. Keep it up ? happy Halloween ?
18 Days here ...... Paid More Bills , Loads of work coming in [ for a change ] . and My Tub in the Kitchen is overflowing [ well slight exaggeration ] with Pound coins and loose change about £15 to be exact ;-]
. Bought a new Jumper TK Maxx , a Microphone , and A limbo Pole .... !!!
I know its a bit different, but i needed them all . worked around six times in Places with Gaming Machines , and bar once [ which i quickly snubbed out the thought ] not given any thought to giving up and returning to the inevitable losses and self loathing My initial plan is till my Birthday 1 Month Nov 13th , then New Years Day . Then every Landmark i can think on If there is an Icelandic National day that will be another milestone to aim for .
. This works for me , but i will also carry cash on my person . i was going to restrict myself , but i will not allow my illness to effect my way of life . cash is on its way out, I'm not talking 100's just say £40 .
If you are walking and you feel the urge to gamble Buy an ice cream , really Physically find somewhere that sells them , and buy one . Honestly i love playing with my inner mind , I'm having fun I'm winning . and I'm mocking this person inside as well . they are getting weaker , and i am growing , and I'm enjoying laughing at this person and . i will make it suffer .
That is how i am going on .... and I've really happy atm back in control , but one false step so i will not get complacent .
18 Days here ...... Paid More Bills , Loads of work coming in [ for a change ] . and My Tub in the Kitchen is overflowing [ well slight exaggeration ] with Pound coins and loose change about £15 to be exact ;-]
. Bought a new Jumper TK Maxx , a Microphone , and A limbo Pole .... !!!
I know its a bit different, but i needed them all . worked around six times in Places with Gaming Machines , and bar once [ which i quickly snubbed out the thought ] not given any thought to giving up and returning to the inevitable losses and self loathing My initial plan is till my Birthday 1 Month Nov 13th , then New Years Day . Then every Landmark i can think on If there is an Icelandic National day that will be another milestone to aim for .
. This works for me , but i will also carry cash on my person . i was going to restrict myself , but i will not allow my illness to effect my way of life . cash is on its way out, I'm not talking 100's just say £40 .
If you are walking and you feel the urge to gamble Buy an ice cream , really Physically find somewhere that sells them , and buy one . Honestly i love playing with my inner mind , I'm having fun I'm winning . and I'm mocking this person inside as well . they are getting weaker , and i am growing , and I'm enjoying laughing at this person and . i will make it suffer .
That is how i am going on .... and I've really happy atm back in control , but one false step so i will not get complacent .
18 Days here ...... Paid More Bills , Loads of work coming in [ for a change ] . and My Tub in the Kitchen is overflowing [ well slight exaggeration ] with Pound coins and loose change about £15 to be exact ;-]
. Bought a new Jumper TK Maxx , a Microphone , and A limbo Pole .... !!!
I know its a bit different, but i needed them all . worked around six times in Places with Gaming Machines , and bar once [ which i quickly snubbed out the thought ] not given any thought to giving up and returning to the inevitable losses and self loathing My initial plan is till my Birthday 1 Month Nov 13th , then New Years Day . Then every Landmark i can think on If there is an Icelandic National day that will be another milestone to aim for .
. This works for me , but i will also carry cash on my person . i was going to restrict myself , but i will not allow my illness to effect my way of life . cash is on its way out, I'm not talking 100's just say £40 .
If you are walking and you feel the urge to gamble Buy an ice cream , really Physically find somewhere that sells them , and buy one . Honestly i love playing with my inner mind , I'm having fun I'm winning . and I'm mocking this person inside as well . they are getting weaker , and i am growing , and I'm enjoying laughing at this person and . i will make it suffer .
That is how i am going on .... and I've really happy atm back in control , but one false step so i will not get complacent .
18 Days here ...... Paid More Bills , Loads of work coming in [ for a change ] . and My Tub in the Kitchen is overflowing [ well slight exaggeration ] with Pound coins and loose change about £15 to be exact ;-]
. Bought a new Jumper TK Maxx , a Microphone , and A limbo Pole .... !!!
I know its a bit different, but i needed them all . worked around six times in Places with Gaming Machines , and bar once [ which i quickly snubbed out the thought ] not given any thought to giving up and returning to the inevitable losses and self loathing My initial plan is till my Birthday 1 Month Nov 13th , then New Years Day . Then every Landmark i can think on If there is an Icelandic National day that will be another milestone to aim for .
. This works for me , but i will also carry cash on my person . i was going to restrict myself , but i will not allow my illness to effect my way of life . cash is on its way out, I'm not talking 100's just say £40 .
If you are walking and you feel the urge to gamble Buy an ice cream , really Physically find somewhere that sells them , and buy one . Honestly i love playing with my inner mind , I'm having fun I'm winning . and I'm mocking this person inside as well . they are getting weaker , and i am growing , and I'm enjoying laughing at this person and . i will make it suffer .
That is how i am going on .... and I've really happy atm back in control , but one false step so i will not get complacent .
Hello 18 gf good.. Yes I carry cash.. I am an adult and don't want to Dec humanise myself completely.. Yes birthday month and milestone for me also.. Ending this year gf..
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