Little bit about myself 4 years ago I was very ill had a stroke I’m only 45 that’s when my gambling really kicked in I used to do a bit of betting on horses nothing serious but as I was home all the time by myself it just got worse I found The dreaded slots and And that’s when it started to get out of hand I never wanted any sympathy for it it’s my fault I got A huge debt credit cards totalling over 35k Two months since I last Gambled but I had to restart my account as I never told my family brothers so they came over to my house to watch the gold cup and said are you not putting a bet on I I made some excuse about not having my debit card so he lent me a tenor so So now it’s been 22 days Some days are good Some are bad not being able to work has been a big problem for me because I was herdsman worked on a farm ever since I left school at 15 someone told me about gamcare It’s the best thing done was coming on here putting the blocks on I put blocks now on my wife’s phone and my iPad got very close to going on the slots on Friday tried to put the blocks are in place and then felt guilty because it’s my fault I hate feeling like this but it’s me who has to change this My wife’s been off work because of the coronavirus and it’s been brilliant because she’s been home had things to do, gamcare really helps a lot I’m just waiting for ARA to some counselling as I’ve had a lot of problems with my suicidal thoughts and then I look at my kids think things are going to get better thanks for reading this sorry it’s long
Thank you for visiting my diary Scotty.
Would like to wish you every success in stopping gambling. Your brothers might not understand that you really need to stop gambling or maybe they were just been mischievous!
Some people don't understand but sometimes we can be surprised by others owning up to their own problems which may have been caused by gambling, alcohol or whatever else.
Was surprised at getting a yellow card in the chatroom. I checked and it is definitely not on my bucket list. Lol. However, I do enjoy meeting up with friends in the chatroom so will return but if I get any more strife than I will just disappear.
Well done on 23 days. I’m glad you’re starting to find the urges decreasing as the days go by. I think writing on your diary is a really good thing and I will keep coming back to read your updates.
Chat was really nice this evening full of good vibes. I hope you enjoy your afternoon of baking and time with your family.
Continue with all your hard work and effort and here’s to another day gf.
Day 24 and had some great chat today went for nice walk with my wife and dogs and we made bread and dug a boarder for some plants think I over did it so now got rest for a bit now. we made some lovely bread and had Homemade soup still worrying about are daughter as she has gone to work she a children’s nurse but I am feeling a lot better about my self it’s been hard not working but with every thing going on I feel lucky to be here with help of the gamcare family I think I will be ok boo vinnie lively and Stephen and Russ to name a few you don’t know how your advice has really help me just in this short time thank very much stay safe and thanks for the laughs .
Not sure why but feeling a bit down today nothing I seem to do is giving me a lift hope it’s just one of those days and struggling with the exercises today went on the chat today Wasn’t on there long but I came off feeling a lot happier thanks boo livery Vinnie Lou Debbie and Russ and deg chatting to you reading your diaries has helped me so much thank you I just got remember I am getting better
Just googled Scottie Dog which is described as follows:
"The breed is known to be independent, self-assured, playful and intelligent."
That is you my friend.
Having been a herdsman all your life you would have been required to tend to your flock with loving care and attention.
Now you are that lonely sheep lost on the hillside thinking to itself "Where in the flock am I and what in the flock am I doing."
Wishing you every happiness dear friend and i sincerely hope that you find your way home.
Glad you enjoyed chat and it cheered up your day. Speaking of bananas - I have an idea! If you really want to conceal some snacks you could eat the banana, then conceal the goodies in the skin and stick it back together 😂 Noone’s going to pay attention to a banana lol. It may sound extreme but sometimes extreme situations like being on a diet, call for extreme measures 😂🤣🤣.
Hope you have a good Sunday and catch you in chat tomorrow.