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aliwonton1
(@aliwonton1)

It’s taken myself 2 days to come on and comment. After 20 years of gambling and nearly losing everything I have worked for. It’s no time to grow up. From payday loans, credit cards and loans to chase the loses. Get the money back and want to go again. I am a compulsive gambler and cannot stop in anyway. I actually fear for my life if I don’t stop. It’s mentally instead you to keep going no matter what I win till I have nothing left. I can’t life like this any longer the stress and all the lies to hind my gambling problem. I am on day 2 GF. Small steps and deal with all the urges as they come. Thanks for listening folks, I will keep posting and updating my recovery. This is not the end, it’s a new beginning and new start. 

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Posted : 20th January 2020 11:21 am
aliwonton1
(@aliwonton1)

When gambling we lose track of life. The only thing that is important is what the next winner will be and the next after that. My wife is the most amazing person in the world and I still do this to myself and us. I am a far more happy and relaxing person when not gambling. I am ok once I stop gambling it’s when I start again and it’s that first bet that kills it. In a bad place with it all just now and need to clear my head.

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Posted : 20th January 2020 11:32 am
Forum admin
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Admin

Dear aliwonton1,

Thank you for your post to the Gam Care Forum and well done on this your first few days in to recovery. It sounds like you are struggling at the moment, and we understand that this is a journey that is difficult to begin. Gambling has been a part of your life for a long time and even though you are giving up something that you know has been causing you such despair, it has been a constant in your life so to let it go will not be without difficulty. 

If you feel like you might need any additional support you are very welcome to contact us on the netline or on our helpline both of which are available 7 days a week, 24 hours a day. We can look at gambling blocks and refer you to free, confidential treatment support which will allow you to address the bigger picture of your gambling, so any underlying issues, contributing factors, triggers and so on. 

Wishing you all the very best,

Forum Admin

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Posted : 20th January 2020 10:01 pm
aliwonton1
(@aliwonton1)

On day 7 GF. What a crazy world spin gambling takes you. When a compulsive gambler it doesn’t matter you will end up broke. I don’t know when to stop even when things are good. No more chasing my life away. Far to many good things in my life and too much to lose. I just don’t think me and gambling agrees. Not sure why I gamble but one thing for sure I don’t know when to stop. Never thought in my life gambling could push you to the limit and break you. 

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Posted : 25th January 2020 2:46 am
aliwonton1
(@aliwonton1)

GF 13 days now. Life is so much clearer when not gambling. It’s true as people say gambling is for mugs. In life things are happening to people and they have no control over. I am a compulsive gambler and have a choice to gambler and have put myself through the stress and pain of a gambling life that has took me to breaking point. Life is to short to be chasing my life away. Here is to another GF week and keep busy and strong. I am a compulsive gambler and must not gamble in anyway. 

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Posted : 30th January 2020 6:57 pm
aliwonton1
(@aliwonton1)

15 days GF and another Saturday goin that I am not sitting nervous for the results to come through. It all makes me realise how stressful it was for me putting the stress on myself and getting angry cause no way should they be getting beat bottom beating top in the football. I sit back now and realise how gambling messes with your head. I am compulsive gambler and must not gamble in anyway. 

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Posted : 2nd February 2020 2:12 am
Mark Powell
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15 days GF and another Saturday goin that I am not sitting nervous for the results to come through. It all makes me realise how stressful it was for me putting the stress on myself and getting angry cause no way should they be getting beat bottom beating top in the football. I sit back now and realise how gambling messes with your head. I am compulsive gambler and must not gamble in anyway. 

Well done!!

it really is lovely when you got that point of realisation isn’t it? Gambling dramas you in and then bolts the door behind you, it takes a lot to break free, but once you see the benefits, you never wish to be there again.

Kram

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Posted : 2nd February 2020 11:18 am
Ptown
(@ptown)

I agree with all the comments here and can relate to them very well, If I could say anything to help anyone out there is to put measures in place such as blocks like GamStop and open bank accounts which restrict gambling. Aditionally you can ask the bank to reduce your ability to withdraw cash in excess of £100 a day. These blocks do act as a safety net on those difficult days. Im 290 days GF and I hit my rock bottom which aided me stop. If I hadnt stopped Im not sure I could continue like I was. Im much happier now and find that stopping gambling increases your confidence and has a real positive effect on your wellbeing. Dont give up all.. its not always a straight walk out of this devestating addiction, it does take will power and you have to be ready to stop. I have an app on my phone which counts the days since I last gambled. If your a gambler and you stop, you must stop any kind of gambling no matter how small or insignificant, its the only way you must cut free 100 percent. You can all do it just relax and stay focussed and have a strong awareness around you.

Bless you all. 

You can do it, take one day at a time.

 

Ptown

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Posted : 4th February 2020 11:08 pm
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