Back after a relapse no matter how much I try to make gambling fun. I always go off the rails and chase my life away. It’s scary. I need to *** it this time. It’s affecting my health in such a big way. I honestly think gambling will kill me if I don’t stop. No matter if I win, I always keep going till I have nothing left. I never thought this demon would affect me this way. I have realised it’s not how much you lose it’s the first bet when you are a compulsive gambler you will never win. Absolutely gutted right now I am back where I belong GF
On the same path my friend, get gamstop in place to take care of online , then sense form to take care of casino's then form for bingo's and finally self exclusions from local arcades. There is also a scheme to exclude from all local bookies I suggest doing this to. Turn the energy you put into gambling into energy you use putting restrictions in place.
Some other tips, limit bank card withdrawal limits and leave card at home only carry small amount of cash and use s credit card you cannot withdraw money on our deposit on gambling sites.
All the best
Day 3 GF really struggling to come to terms with what I have done with my life. I really feel so down that I have been so stupid again. This cannot get any harder. I have injured my neck with the anger of my last relapse after thumping a table by a horse getting beat a neck and in agony. I hate myself right now. 3 days in and I thought I would feel better. I need to give this up for ever cause I know I will end up back here. I would be really well off instead of being £6,000 in debt through gambling.
In the same boat mate. If I didn’t gamble I’d be so much happier because I spend every last penny then end up have to borrow money. I have 2 loans out and I am £2000 overdrawn all through gambling. It messes my head up big time and puts me in a mood for days. I only gamble when I’ve had a drink. When I’m soba the thought of it makes me sick. Im our for drinks this Saturday. I feel if I can get through that it’s a step in the right direction. I’ve only recently joined GamCare and feel its the right move to help me as can speak to people who won’t look down at me in disgust. Your the first person I’ve spoke to. We will get there
Celse 1987 thanks for your reply. I have been here so many times but this time I think I have hit the end of the road. Due to a few bad loses I am getting angry and start shouting and smashing things. I have injured my neck due to smashing a table on Sunday afternoon due a a horse defeat by a neck. It’s mead me realise that’s it for me. If I don’t give up I and going to do something I regret. Stay strong mate you will get there with the support of the website
Day 5 GF. I am feeling dreadful today. I have had urges. Just need to get these thoughts out my head. I know I am a far better person GF. When gambling I am happy when winning and grumpy when losing. I honest think this demon is trying it’s best to break me. I must not gamble ever again in any way. I am a compulsive gambler and cannot gamble in anyway.
Day 6 GF. Installed Gamban today and gamstop in place. I had a good chat last night with someone on here and was on chat with a few last night. Makes you realise your not alone. I need to fix my mess it’s my mess. I h e put myself here. As I have been told it’s only money. I will put everything into my debt to get me clear again. I can never bet again. I have too much good in my life to lose it all over a bet. Stay strong folks