I wanted to share my story on here, in the hope it will help others and also keep my mind focused.
I stopped gambling, and have not had a bet since, 4th July 2013. I mainly bet on roulette (bookies and online) but also would bet on sports.
I remember the day that my gambling all came out. I was living off payday loans, I had sold my car and 2 days after payday, before any bills were paid, my bank balance was next to nothing (this included an overdraft). I was walking to the train station, knowing I had no money for a ticket so I opened another payday loan website. I got all the way through to being accepted, I just had to click on agree and the funds would have been there. For some reason, I couldn't click that button. I broke down, sat at a bus stop in tears. I decided to call my mum and once I started talking, I couldn't stop. I told her everything. I also asked for money to be able to cover rent and bills for the month. She said she would call me back. 5 minutes later, she called back after speaking to my Dad. They had agreed to lend me the money but they would only transfer it to my fiancГ©s account. At the time, this was the worst thing possible but in hindsight, was the best thing for me. I have absolutely no doubt that I would have continued to gamble had they sent that money straight to me.
When I got home, I told my partner. She burst in to tears, shouted some obscenities and crashed around for a bit. Then she sat down next to me, looked me in the eye and said 'WE will get through this' I was shocked. I was certain that she would have kicked me out, and I would have deserved that.
She got straight on the internet and found the closest GA meeting. It happened to be that night and 5 minutes from my house. She drove me up there and I froze. I couldn't get out the car. She forced me in to that room and it is possibly the best thing she has done for me.
I attend the meetings every week I can (possibly missed half a dozen in 16 months) and they have been a massive help.
Shortly after starting the meetings, I was sacked from my job. I deserved it, I was a useless employee for the 18 months I'd been there. 2 hour lunch breaks in the bookies, always on my phone gambling and never got work done on time. I got another job within a few weeks and the complete change in my attitude has lead to a 10% pay rise, employee of the month, I've passed exams and progressed in my career. None of which would have been a possibility if I was still gambling.
As I've waffled on for long enough, I'll stop there for now. However, will go further in to any detail if anyone would like.
Thanks for reading