Today Sunday 20th October 2019 will be the last day I gamble, play the slot machines.
Having previously gone 11 weeks without gambling, last weekend I succumbed to the urges and have spent the last 9 days visiting various arcades/gaming centres.
The financial loss as been minimal, but the hours of the days I have lost have not, so it's time to cut out the rot and say enough is enough.
Worked out a quick estimate of the time I have wasted in the last 9 days playing the slots, probably around the 26+ hours range, having been on a slots spree 6 days out of the nine.
When you work put the most I was in front by was probably a couple of ton, it's stupid I would have been up by at least a couple of monkey's and 15 pony's if I'd gone to work.
In the end I was probably down a few pony's, 26+ hours of my life wasted playing the slots, time I'll never get back and could have done so much that needed to be done or if you look on the other side of the coin 26+ hours entertainment for the price of a couple of pony's
Yep we’ve all been there. I can remember those days of spending the entire weekend in front of the screen gambling, being up by large amounts and withdrawing, then reversing the funds back into my account and losing it, putting more in and repeating the circle until 48 hours have gone and I’ve ended up breaking even or losing. I’d then kid myself and pretend I could get it back next time! What a joke, I certainly don’t miss those days Wasting all that time.
stay strong and keep posting!
Well the day after begins and I feel like utter c**P, heads all over, cannot think straight and didn't get out of bed this morning till 7.45 and only then because the dog wouldn't leave me alone. Usually I'm up and about at 5.30, Cancelled work today but still got loads to sort out and all I want to do is curl up on sofa and go to sleep.
I truly despise this addiction, on the good side though I probably won't have any real urges to play the slots for the foreseeable future.
Going to come up with an action plan to sort out my life & finances till new year & work on one for next year as well.
1 week has passed since the last binge on the slots, had a few thoughts/urges when I went into town yesterday morning to do a bit of shopping, thought of going back into the arcade where I lost my money last week and trying to win it back or part of it.
Luckily I was able to see sense and just walk on bye to where I was going.
Apart from this, I've not had any urge's at all but I'm keeping myself busy with work and a few projects at home. can't really afford to gamble at all now as these projects are going to consume all y spare time & cash over the next few years and will hopefully be a distraction from the slot machines.
Need to start to self exclude from these arcades that I frequent, will also do the bookmakers, casino's and bingo halls, although it's been something I'm sceptical about doing as there are plenty of other places with an abundance of slot machines that you can't exclude from, like pubs, clubs, motorway service stations and arcades outside my local area.
Thought about hypnosis but not sure if it will work and I don't like the idea of people messing with my brain, which is pretty messed up anyway after years of abuse with drink and recreational drugs, although I've been drink and drug free for 2 years now.
Today will be 2 weeks since the last splurge on the slots, not really had any urges or thoughts of going back this week apart from yesterday afternoon when I woke after my siesta and had a few thoughts enter my head out of no where.
Luckily the thoughts never converted to actually playing the machines.
Got another busy week ahead of me, so no real prospects of playing the slots this week.
Well three weeks in and not succumbed to any urges or thoughts of playing the slots. It's weird how little thoughts of a sneaky £20 just come out of no where.
Been a busy week again with work, going to put on a pan of stew for tea tonight and left overs for tomorrow night.
Going to then take dog a walk around the local country park, in fact it's a old spoil heap from the day's of coal mining which has been reclaimed, but the path's are good and she enjoy's it there.
Then it will be time to close the curtains, put the Tv on, get caught up with a few hours of doing invoice's & quotes.
Could do with tidying the van out, but that can wait for another day.
4 Weeks free of gambling although I've had loads of thoughts about it, but luckily I was able to change my thought train pretty quickly & for the time been I need all the cash I get get my hands on for some other projects, as I'm spending it quicker than I earn it.
Christmas is creeping up as well, just over 5 weeks.
Here's to another busy week & a week free of gambling.
Seven weeks have now passed since my last session on the slot machines and although I am keeping away from them, the random thoughts of just a quick punt, it will be ok keep popping into my head at random times. Thankfully I have not given into them, and keep reminding myself of the bad times that I have gone through.
It's strange really, how you can be so against something that is bad for you, yet your mind/brain is telling you it's fine & painting a rosy picture of it and how it feels so appealing and welcoming, yet in the back of your mind you know in reality you will just be stood there in a trance feeding £20 notes into a machine that has been designed to strip you of all your available cash & more.
I just hope they are never allowed to put chip & pin terminals on the machines so the you can just swipe your bank card to top up the credits for then it would be game over as you could loose everything, although I suppose that's what happening with people who play online slots, luckily they have never really bothered me although I have resorted to playing them on occasions where I have put all my available cash in slot machines and still needed to gamble to try & win back my loses, although it never worked.
Well another busy week ahead of me, so I'll have little opportunity to gamble.
Hopefully will be another week notched up gamble free