Diary of boo radley

Goodmorning. Dark n gloomy. But no frost. 

Early start to work. Feeling tired and wintery today with thoughts of the 101 things I should be getting on with around the house. There's always tomorrow ?

Chat will be to nite and until then hope the day goes well.. Bye for now boo x 

Morning Boo, go gently today x

You and all on here also.. It will be a slow steady one for sure.. Just about getting into 2nd gear ?

Quiet sort of day at work. Few changes on the technology front to *** but given time will *** it.

Still cold here thin frosty ice tonight on cars. 

Got a sore heel but hot physio this week for my back so will ask about that .. Its a different body part each week as I reach bigger numbers.. Oh woe. ?

Free day until 2p.m Wednesday. Then it's a foot rub and nails.. 

Gambling sprung into my mind once today.. But only in reference to a big win so I could retire not the want to sit actively gambling if that makes sense. 

Anyway its up the wooden hills... Am truly jaded.. Been thinking on my feet too many hours today ?

Nite all. Sweet dreams. Boo x

Goodmorning. 

Restless sleep thinking about nothing much interesting so made a brew and it settled me a bit. So this afternoon will hit the deck. 

Foot less painful. Think the culprit could be some running shoes.. Mmmm sports shop it is today.

To be truthful feeling frivolous. I  think it's to do with extra free cash flow from not gambling. I know where its not going that's for sure.. 

Will go marks and Spencer for a nice coffee and eye up a couple of treats. It's a long time since I have felt so relaxed about money. I think I'm so use to being in panic mode about it my brain is in shock mode. And I think this is what I am adjusting to. This financial freedom. Also this freedom of guilt of not planning to secretly go the casino. Clock watching and hood winking everyone.I'm going to treat my children well with extra cash December 25th. 

Having nothing to hide almost makes me suspicious of myself ?

Chat was useful last   night. I do hope new ones return. So many over the last 7 weeks haven't and I do wonder how they are. Especially with the most wonderful time of the year as the song goes. But must concentrate equally on myself also.

So if any new folk do happen to fall on my diary. Pop back in. Say hello. 

All for now folks.. Enjoy Wednesday.

Boo x

Another day nearly done..twice on chat today. Seems this month is a toughie for some. 

Oh the pain this addiction inflicts. Its heart rendering. Thank ful for gamcare and chat. I sometimes think how can something virtual last for. The easy answer for me is as long as it works is as long as it will last. 

Presently watching an 80s drama. Widows. Perhaps I'm going back in time working my way forward as I can't really face the last few years of gambling... Going back apparently and working forward is a way of coping with   for want of a better way of saying it a grief process if that makes sense. Its working which is what matters. 

Im happy on thewhole. Just collecting my thoughts at the end of the day I suppose. But I am happier. 

I'm still fixed on not gambling... Full of loathing for it if I have to be honest.gambling venues are not going to go away..  They will always be there as a test and a teaser. And there are those out there who have self control so it would be selfish to expect a complete ban of it.

Anyway more rewarding things in life going on as my break from gambling has re introduced me to. Next couple days busy and some social aspects involved too..

The jigsaw awaits.. 

Nite n bless all.. 

Boo x

I am pleased to hear that you are feeling happy and thankful. They are both great things! 

G'nite Godbless Angel. 

Love from Drama 

xoxoxo

Thank you.. Xxxx and nite n bless also. Boo x

I love reading your diary Boo. You just keep doing the right things simply. I know it's still very very hard for us all but writing it down does help a lot. You keep going the way you are Going and keep writing your diary. All the best to you and everyone off us. 

Thank you all for taking the time to pop into diary. 

Todsy. Cold and crisp with that lovely red in the sky. 

Physio for my sciatica today. Well it's maintenance every 4 to 5 weeks.. Its something that won't ever say goodbye but that's the way the mop flops. 

A bit of shopping. Have to get new runners as I think my others are the culprit to my foot soreness. My friend says stick to the same brand but there are so many designs and bargains in the sports shop. But I need more padding in the heel. 

Hair do today.. That'll take me through to late afternoon.. Tea. Jigsaw. And pm chat.. Sorted.

Bye for now.. Have a productive morning all 

Boo x

I hope your physio goes well boo. Enjoy your busy day ?

Boo, thank you so much for your beautiful words, they mean a lot x

One more day done. 

A very sad tinge to the day earlier but murlo knows ourthoughts and hearts are with her.

Hair done.. Pleased with new coppery tint. 

Not going works Christmas do but have a lunch do next week with running club ladies so that's manageable.. Allpaid for now. All I have to do is enjoy. 

Having kitchen floor done tomorrow. So another job off the to do list. Also gets rid of money so cannot spend on gambling. 

Trying to distract my thoughts with TV. But it's dreadful tonight. So it's jigsaw. 

Was glad to pop into chat today.. It works for me so long may it reign. 

Nipped to local earlier with Mr. B. R. It was very quiet. Perhaps time of year... Everyone either in the land of panto or skinto. 

Had a decent tea tonight. Meatballs n pasta. Very filling. 

Hope everyone can get through these next few seasonal weeks unscathed without too many pressures and stresses which may trigger gambling.. I shall keep returning here.. I shall keep trying and stay determined and keep busy doing all the right things 

All for now. 

Nite n bless all 

Boo x 

You are one of life's gems Boo x

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