So starting a diary thread today.. Entering day 21 gf. My downfall of 7 years casino slots.. Not online for me. For me it was social at first.. Liked an evening out. Entertainment. Meal. Ooooof soon got hooked... Savings taking a nose dive.. But it made me happy.. Or did it!!!! You know the rest.. Chasing loss.. Finding time go casino even in the day began. I stopped the evening visiting. Money wise not so bad.. Paid off a small overdraft.. And credit card bill. But frittering time and money was getting to me.. Anxious.. Guilt.. It wasn't a pleasure. It became a burden.. An unhealthy past time.. Anyway here I came after waking up and smelling the coffee. Finding some inner values and strength. Savings plan in action.. Goal to be achieved is birthday end month andManchester Christmas Market with daughter and boyfriend with cash.. Had last week payday and its been used wisely or put out of sight.. Feelings of fatigue some times.. Not going allow self pity as it saps too much positive energy and affects my ying and yang as they say.. Will enter chat later which reinforces efforts. Not saying no to counselling But know its there is a comfort indeed as all the positive replies.. So Let the day begin. Day 21 ready. Steady. Go.. Take care all
well done for starting your diary, for taking action and for being 21 days gamble free.
It sounds like your recovery is going well and I am particularly pleased to read that you are planning forward for fun and making memories with loved ones and also that you are pampering yourself. Much better way to spend money.
This is very much the key to sustainable recovery- being kind to yourself and creating a positive lifestyle change.
Keep the diary going and keep attending Chat, it sounds like it is really helping in your journey.
Wishing you all the very best,
There's that much to tempt now out there.. Its everywhere. Even in your own home if you allow it on TV. Or online.. Yes my downfall was the actual casino.. My mind became transfixed. I just want it all to be in the past now where it belongs.. Room 101. I will visit chat later. Today has been a good day. I am at home now in a comfort zone. And my trigger times anywhere mid morning to 2ish are gone too. Tomorrow..another day to forge ahead.. Take it easy all. Thanks for reading
Entering day 22.. Woke up early hours.. Brew and hot water bottle to rescue to help eradicate all the niggles going on in my head.. Some about gambling. But inevitably this weaning off time will torture and torment but the one consistent is that relapse will mean going through all these feelings and emotions. So it's a no thank you and close the lid on that one and throw out the key. I have disposable cash thisinth which means I can pursue leisure and company time with others. Today is going to be an easy one in terms of things to do. Nothing hectic.. Will try to nip into chat later which was lively ladt night. I was reading an article the other day by someone who said that this site had helped but not cured but it had helped to reduce his spending on gambling.. I can see the point I suppose but why keep putting yourself on the front line also. I wish the person well and wish that whatever works for anyone long may it continue..
So going to fill my head with right thoughts thus leaving no space for the wrong ones... Have a comfy day all
Hello.. Beginning day 23 gf. Keeping busy.. Nipping out for a bit of walk weather permitting. Feeling OK today on waking.. Rational.. Gambling thoughts aren't pulling me there way. Thinking of routine stuff.. Washing. Cleaning and what to do for tea later.. Some e. Mails to send. Work for work at home and pop into mums.. Pretty much sorted. I will pop into chat later.. Its always good to say hello.. I was sitting by a fruit machine in local last night and message on kept flashing national gamble responsible week 7 to 13th October...casinos were my vice. Not online and not pub fruit machines. Just thank life that I've found this site.. Steer clear all today
Wakey Wakey rise and shine.. Step into day 24 gf. .. Had an exchange of words last night with friend.. Long overdue and humbly accept and apologised because yes it was very much my attitude.. Too much time spent gambling. Not enough time with a friend.. Its a kick up the you know what I needed.. If we are going to succeed at this abstinence then we have to look at our flaws... But let's not dwell.. Row resolved.. All on the back burner now.. Now today's challenge.. Well none really.. Just getting sorted chores wise.. Transferred habitual cash out of bank.. I do what they call skimming each day.. It soon adds and weekly a bigger chunk.. Actually had some cash go into account today.. Not one thought of it to go on casino as it is disposable income. Going to meet friends for coffee.. Then it's afternoon cinema.. Call in mums. Just doing her washing now. And then home for tea.. Which need to get thinking of.hope the actual November 5th festivities of fireworks don't upset too many of our furry friends and folks too. I always think of the extra work for our firefighters and hospitals that this event causes... Have an easy time of it all today.. Hopeful to nip into chat today to receive some reinforcement and hear about people's day.. Byeee for now
Just been reading some diary threads... Ooooof I can so relate to most..thus resulting in me having a self volatile. Loathing moment within.. Gambling is one aspect of my personality.. I will come through this and show my many facets just like a shining diamond.. Sitting In Costa.. Cappuccino.. Calm breathing. Watching the world go bye... Life is good....