3rd counselling session today, still fairly straightforward, although had friends round this weekend and there was a fair bit of gambling talk. I've mentioned casually to friends I'm not gambling any more, and I think most of them probably know I had/have a problem.
Anyways, onwards and upwards, day 50 next big milestone.
Not much to report. In the process of setting up my own business and now have access to a joint account with my business partner, which makes me somewhat nervous as both of our funds will be in there.
I'm setting up what needs to be done and then deleting the details and the app to minimise exposure. He will also get a notification every time it is used, which is a further deterrent, but I know I have to remain totally vigilant!
5 weeks gamble free. Thursday is my favourite recovery day, as I get to mark another week off my sheet.
Have now saved about 1% of the money i’ve lost, which might sound scary but i actually quite like the fact that i have to do this another 99 times just to break even. Feels like it focuses me.
Anyway, onwards and upwards.
Still finding it pretty straight forward thankfully. Arranging to go and live in Lisbon for a few weeks with my GF, which should in theory make it easier as no bookies etc out there.
Next Friday marks 50 days, so my journey is about 0.5% complete!
Onwards and upwards!
Fortunate to secure some additional work next week which will mean some extra cash, around £2,000
It’s a bit bittersweet as it should be going towards a holiday or savings but instead is going to cover a mistake I made, which hurts a bit. Good news is it means I can have a bit extra this month which is needed, as I’m planning to head out to Lisbon next month to work remotely.
Revising my debt plan and going to try and pay £2,500 a month back for the next 6 months before moving to something far more manageable (£500) for the next 5 years.
Onwards and upwards.
Had a slip up last week, a family member of mine was fighting in a televised event and they backed themselves for the knockout in a family group despite being a huge underdog. Friday night me and my two housemates got excited and put £50 each down.
It was done on a friends account. Didn't come in which long term will be good and it's only a small slip. But never again does need to mean never again, and I do need to remember that!
Anyway, onwards and upwards we go.
Still going but it definitely feels different now.
The strong dislike of gambling and that raw pain is starting to subside a little bit. Makes me realise I'm not cured and I'm going to be battling this thing for life, which is a bit scary and a bit upsetting tbh.
Inadvertently read my first post on this thread today and it actually really helped remember what I felt and why I'm here, so that in itself feels good.
Credit rating is also recovering after years of credit abuse, so I'll soon be able to restructure my debt and have more in my pocket, which I look forward to.
Onwards and upwards.
@got2bdone If it helps one of the GA books talks about just for todays. Just for today do something for 12 hours that would appal you if you had to do it for a lifetime. Basically, although abstaince from compulsive gambling is a lifetime fight, just do it for today, don't worry about tomorrow. I now just look at it as two hours a week between GA meetings. Two hours out of 168 a week isn't a big price to pay for a week of peace.
I do have a question though, are you not counting your bet on the boxing for your days from a bet or is the number of days how long you've been on here for?
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