Bad urges this evening, first day of work in a longtime as been keeping busy. Boredom talking. I Will go to bed soon ..staying gf
Keep safe Katie, a good early night is wayyyy more positive than gambling, just think how great you'll feel tomorrow if you don't. We have got this, one day at a time x
Keep up the good work Katiecoo. Well done !
Just checking in gf. Hard couple of months, lots of external stress and terrible anxiety. I do feel better for staying of the slots, the demon still lurks though
Sorry to hear you've had a rough trot, but fab that you're still GF. I guess odaat is still the approach, take care S:)
My vice has always been online. Tonight I was invited out to bingo,an offer that I declined. I would of had a share of 4K if I'd had gone. What a trigger but can't gamble online as ive excluded everywhere. I almost feel like its a punishment for all the money I've thrown away. Why must gambling rule my thoughts. I'm a winner for not gambling but tonight I hurt
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Fair play, the thought of winning X amount to clear debts sounds good but getting back into the cycle would probably mean using those winnings to gamble more etc.I know that would be my theory hence gotta be100% GF.Sorry if this sounds bossy! Hope your ok and the hurt passes, take care S:)
Hi Katiecoo, long time no speak, I'm so sorry I've been away for so long. Thank you for your post a little earlier and I really look forward to catching up with you again. I'm all for pallying up and trying again - I'm on Day 2 - and seeing if we can do it this time. Maybe we will - we've got to keep going and find the holy grail which is out there somewhere. Thank you for such a welcoming return message 🙂 !
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I feel strangely at peace
Hi Katie , I've just caught upon your last few post's and I'm so sorry to hear about your Father and Mother in law , I know first hand how that feels as I lost my Dad to cancer when he was just 47 and I waas just out of my teen's , so it must be a really tough time for you and my thought's are with you .
I think it kinda put's thing's in perspective for us really , there we are fighting something that's of our own doing which is in our control to stop and then we have loved ones in ill health which is not of their choosing nor something they have any control over. .
Maybe the peacefull feeling's you have are a new found understanding of the precious gift's we have all around us on a daily basis but the one's we take for granted while in the grip of addiction ?.
Sending my best wishes to you and your family , stay strong and stay positive :))
Alan x
Thank you Alan for your kind words. I wish you peace and courage in your journey
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