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Aston
(@aston)
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Well done, your doing so well, really glad to read how far you have got GF, keep going, stay strong and the future will be bright.

 
Posted : 29th November 2021 10:22 pm
(@gazza8888)
Posts: 49
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Cheers aston aye doing ok hope everything good with you

 
Posted : 30th November 2021 8:21 pm
(@gazza8888)
Posts: 49
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Well guys was off ga6gor over 200 days then bang messed it all up think have to accept will ever beat it

 
Posted : 22nd April 2022 8:17 pm
(@gazza8888)
Posts: 49
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Day 224 guys then mess up back to square one again deep down I know I will never beat it

 
Posted : 22nd April 2022 8:32 pm
gadaveuk
(@gadaveuk)
Posts: 1719
 

Hi

Having 224 clean days was very powerful.

You only lost one day, clean days can not be lost you lived them.

Think that having 224 clean days with out causing your self and others pain is very powerful.

Understand your last emtional trigger and deal with things in healthier ways.

Please do not give up on your self NOT now.

Love and peace to every one

Dave L

 
Posted : 24th April 2022 1:52 am
(@gazza8888)
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Cheers for you reply dave aye was brilliant not gambling for such a long time just disappointed in myself but will definitely just be a blip

 
Posted : 24th April 2022 7:38 am
lids19635
(@lids19635)
Posts: 189
 

I  so agree with gadaveuk above.

You really need to look at this from a different angle, praise yourself for doing so well. The lack of stress  and all round peace you will have felt for 224 days will have helped you so much towards healing mentally. 

The blip you just had, get it down on paper and try to work out why it happened in a constructive analytical  and positive way to help you in the future.

Get back on the horse and continue the good that you have achieved so far and look forward, then watch yourself keep on improving.

Victories are great, but its the forward momentum and general continued improvement that should be measured just as much as the g/f days.

You have still got this, learn from it and don`t be so hard on yourself.

 
Posted : 24th April 2022 9:15 am
(@gazza8888)
Posts: 49
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@lids19635 Cheers lids not sure why I gambled probably had a couple of beers after work didn't help still I do that every Friday after work and been ok still it is what it is trying not to beat myself up to much nobody forced to do it need to look myself in the mirror work hard and move on

 
Posted : 24th April 2022 4:31 pm
gadaveuk
(@gadaveuk)
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@gazza8888

Hi

Gambling and gambling were als my ways of escaping facing myself and my feelings.

In those days I was nt able to heal my pains hence the escape.

With my gambling while in action I caused myself more and more pains.

When I came out of gambling establishments I was emotionally traumatized yet after a nights sleep I would bury those pains.

I use to sat that work stressed me out, that people stressed me out.

Sadly my unhealthy reactions was often anger and fear based issues.

People di dnot hurt me I hurt myself and was unable to heal my pains.

By not getting drunk helped me deal with my emotional issues.

No one made me gamble, I chose to do that.

Recognize my unhealthy emotional reaction reactions and calm myself down

Often talking to some one would help me heal and help me make healthier choices.

Looking at myself in the mirror I would see that vulnerable hurt child.

Love and peace to every one 

Dave L

AKA Dave Of Beckenham UK

 
Posted : 24th April 2022 5:12 pm
(@gazza8888)
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Just got up for work just want to put down on record how I've got that gut wrenching feeling after gambling on Friday honestly guys n gals don't ever do it again 

 
Posted : 25th April 2022 6:19 am
(@haystack0915)
Posts: 106
 

@gazza8888 - hey, read your story! Well done on 224 days gamble free, that’s incredible. I agree with the above, that’s amazing and you should focus on that! 
Of course you feel mixed after your lapse, but try not to let it beat you up. Leave it in the past & start a fresh again, you’ve got this! 
all the best & take care x

 
Posted : 27th April 2022 6:35 pm
(@gazza8888)
Posts: 49
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@haystack0915 hi hope your doing good thanks for reading story really helps that people are reading and taking to time to comment and give encouragement through time I've realised that everyone needs a bit if help along the way thank you x

 
Posted : 27th April 2022 6:47 pm
(@haystack0915)
Posts: 106
 

@gazza8888 - I’m doing okay thanks! Today marks two weeks, but I’ve such a long way to go and to be honest I’ve been feeling abit down in the dumps the past few days but I’ll get there!

of course, having someone to talk to makes a huge difference and I’m only ever a comment mention away if you need a chat! 
take care & stick with it, you can do it. We all can x 

 
Posted : 27th April 2022 6:53 pm
(@gazza8888)
Posts: 49
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@haystack0915 hi 2 weeks is brilliant honestly the first few weeks are the hardest it does get a bit easier but always be on your guard as I've just found out to my cost keep your chin up and always here aswell if you need a chat keep up the good work take care x

 
Posted : 27th April 2022 6:59 pm
(@gazza8888)
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Been gamble free 140 days......yip you know it until tonight had a few bets absolutely gutted 

 
Posted : 10th September 2022 7:05 pm
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