Back again and just posting to keep myself on my toes. 85 days gamble free, the longest I’ve gone in over 14 years. Yesterday, I strangely had an urge for the first time in weeks. No idea why but it subsided and passed. Life is so much better sleazy and feel in control every day. Keep strong everyone
Well done on 85 days and and for identifying and acknowledging the urge and not acting on it.
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Well done, last night I made the first move and finally self excluded to all sites. I am just now looking forward to not being able to waste our money. My husband still doesn't know after all these years how bad I am he think I play for free like I tell him oh its bonus game and won money. I can sit there and deposit £30 and lose and then redeposit and before I know it I'm £100 down and trying to win it back which I generally do not but still carry on.
I logged into my bank last night and tried see if there is a service I can do online to abort gambling transactions but hopefully being signed up to the website with my details and self exclusion I can overcome this.
I feel so embarrassed and ashamed how much money I spend gambling a month and looking at the transaction on my online account in one lump summary it made me feel sick to the core. I could be paying for a holiday every month for our family of 4. It stops today and I will give my family what I should of done years ago.
In 2014 our joint account was closed because I had been gambling and the site I was using they had messed up the pay and all my pending transactions had cancelled and starting dropping back in my account totally £700. Once the payment provider realised this issue they took the money and I was -700 other drawn and couldn't even afford to pay any bills. I had to open a single account quickly so my husbands wages could be paid in there as I couldnt afford that amount to be take out his monthly pay. I was not working at the time because my son was only 3 at the time. And still to this day ive not added him on the new account do he doesn't have access so I could hide how bad it was. He suffers with his mental health and depression from his type 1 diabetic diagnosis so I really don't want to burden him with all this. I want to get myself clean from this horrible addiction and start to get money saved in my account once and for all and to be able to enjoy life again without worrying ive spent our money... sorry for rambling but I to hope I can say same as you in 80days time
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