I thought I could only sum up my pain in a poem. I can’t get to physical meetings because of work and the meetings available at weekends are shut due to COVID. I am lucky enough to have gone so long. So I will be much more active on this website because that’s all I have right now. I hope you can relate to my poem.
"Gambling is a sure bet to death"
"Rolling the dice of life on the emotional edge"
"No hope, no help and no regrets"
"Once we give are hands last breath"
"Trading is just another gamblers onset"
"A life a soul of hurt traded for a quick death"
"The pain is gone once we look up"
"Caught in the fire of disrepair with no luck"
"The hand of a higher power we await"
"But we must do it ourselves to live life"
"Financial suicide is what we have done"
"Keep it together life is not to be won"
It is good that you are using the forum. Thanks for sharing your powerful poem about gambling as 'Financial suicide'. As some of our forum members can experience suicidal feelings, I should flag up the Samaritans freephone 116 123 in case you or others want to talk about these feelings https://www.samaritans.org/how-we-can-help/contact-samaritan/
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You lived 7 month fighting back against gambling because you thought there is more worthwhile to do or to offer the World by not doing it. You need to tap back into that sense of meaning to find the strength to do so again. The main target is to beat 7 months but setting regular targets and coming on here regular is something I've added to what I do - a sensible idea! Ps nice poem
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