I had mentioned in previous posts about my concern of the next payday. Usually leading up to payday I would have two options I had come in with. Some months it was that I was going to put £100 in my account and see what I could build it to with £20 stakes and some trixies, other months it was that I was going to start with a bang. I would know for the days leading up to payday which sports game I was going to place £100 bet on to try and ‘get ahead’. As I have said before the result was irrelevant, sometimes I would be up big early doors but it made no difference because at some point during the month I would have lost all of my wages.
So, for all the positive feeling I had always had this thing in the back of my mind that payday would be a massive teat for me to not gamble. Although, I did find myself flicking through flashscore to see what sports were on that day I didn’t ever really contemplate placing a bet.
I can honestly say for anyone on day 1, day 2 etc. That if even by the point I am at now the difference is incredible. I planned out money for the month with my wife but we decided that as it is summer holidays and I can’t just do nothing as that may have a negative effect we would be sensible but spend if it was worthwhile. Although we have probably spent more than I planned for this first week I don’t care because every penny is going to something other than gambling. A meal, petrol for a day out, a bar of chocolate that we fancy from the corner shop spare of the moment. To most they would seem silly but these things in the past were all ruined by gambling, either because I would look for ways out of them or I wouldn’t be enjoying the moment.
I heard a radio advert today for the first time, it was to about gambling and the focus was to do with not being there, even when you are and it made me smile because that was me in a nutshell and since stopping I am realising that more and more everyday because of how much I am enjoying spending time with people now compared to before!
I hope people early in their journey read this and the positivity comes through my writing. It will get better with a spell of being gamble free and you will want to keep that feeling going. 25 days gamble free and counting!