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Posted on:
Mon, 08/01/2018 - 00:02

Self Sufficient...

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2017-05-10

Massive Congratulations Bal on 1000 days gamble free. That is so good and very inspiring.

Posted on:
Mon, 08/01/2018 - 04:14

Little miss lost

Joined:
2016-05-24

Wow - 1000 days. Thanks for continuing to post. These types of milestones give us with a lower gf day count hope and proves it can be done.
Congratulations and all good wishes x

Posted on:
Mon, 08/01/2018 - 08:57

Loxxie

Joined:
2016-01-15

Hey. ..sorry I missed this special day balvooooo ....
Spose it's a tad chilly to go fishing to celebrate....
So drink tea and eat cake..
Xxxx

Posted on:
Mon, 08/01/2018 - 21:52

degenerate

Joined:
2013-05-10

1000 days is freaking awesome. Very well done.

Posted on:
Mon, 08/01/2018 - 22:03

volcano

Joined:
2010-07-05

 

Good on you Bal. 

We’ve only reqlly had the very odd exchange, but shoot there’s some dedication there in them amount of days you’ve accumulated. It’s also quite admirable that you realise that despite the amount of days since your last bet that you still realise that your only a minute from a next bet. Your standing tall, you’ve done it for you and the results have filtered down to your family. 

Your a fine chap and I wish you strength and honour 

Posted on:
Tue, 09/01/2018 - 21:26

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Many thanks to you all for your kind words and my FB messages (you know who you are........lol)

Onwards and upwards. Off to Birmingham for work tomorrow. A trip which in the past would mean a fobt blowout before and after the meeting allowing me a full train journey home to make up and implement my excuses in advance. Now its have a coffee and watch the world go by

Best wishes

Posted on:
Tue, 09/01/2018 - 21:32

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Hi Bal,

May I belatedly wish you all the best. I write because I'm on the train tomorrow from Euston .... to Brummy too!

On a two day course so not tremendusly exciting. The Wetherspoons across the road, one of the biggest in the country, perhaps more so!

Again, congrats on your quadruple day GF. May there be many more; you're an inspiration.

Posted on:
Fri, 12/01/2018 - 21:20

sjw

Joined:
2017-10-27

Super late (as usual) but had to say massive congrats on 1,000days! Amazing. I've read a good deal of your diary and that coupled with your advice around the boards is a big motivation for members like myself.

Posted on:
Fri, 12/01/2018 - 22:34

Forum admin

Joined:
2010-11-01

Hi Bal,

Congratulations from us as well on being 1005 days gambling free. Keep up the dedication and the good work.

All the best,

Eva

Posted on:
Sat, 13/01/2018 - 13:23

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Hi Bal belated happy 1000th day, all the best for a GF 2018 and beyond :)

Posted on:
Sat, 10/02/2018 - 21:01

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Evening,

Life goes on with its ups and downs. Mother in law diagnosed with cancer and i attend hospital monday to have a mole removed and checked for anything untoward.

Where does all this put me in the gambling circle of life.

Not even a dam thought. I find the time g/f has made me stronger. In the past my FOBT looked after me but after another loss any issues were still there.

This week i celebrated another birthday (i can now get my free pen from Parky for enquiring...lol)

My family were fab and made me feel very special. That is something money cant buy or gambling can cure

Best wishes

Posted on:
Wed, 21/03/2018 - 16:41

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Afternoon diary.

Life slowly meanders along with its ups and downs as i head towards 3 years gamble free next month.

The debts accrued are being paid off monthly with the help of Stepchange.

The circle of gambling has been truly broken however we are all one punt from disaster. The relationship i had with the FOBT has been kicked into touch and the secrecy and lies i told myself, others and family no longer exist in my current world.

Life will always bring problems. Life and being a gambling addict bring double trouble.

Am i happy?

What do you think!!!!!!!

Best wishes

Posted on:
Wed, 21/03/2018 - 21:01

sjw

Joined:
2017-10-27

Hello Bal,

Good to see you checking in on your diary again. Always great to hear from someone thats such a good advert to how things can be in our future if we work through recovery. Take care buddy.

All the best.

Posted on:
Thu, 22/03/2018 - 15:37

Loxxie

Joined:
2016-01-15

Yo balvo. ..time sure does fly when we're having fun doesn't it
Is it fishing season yet ? :-)

Posted on:
Thu, 12/04/2018 - 07:19

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Morning all,

Cant quite put my finger on it but little seeds of doubt re gambling have appeared over the last few days.

Things like a tenner wouldnt hurt really.

It appears my addiction wants to raise its head again. Not sure why.

Have increased my blocks recently as a safeguard. So much going on in my personal life at the mo and my addiction has found a chink of light again.

I will keep it at arms bay and look to extinguish again.

Best wishes

Posted on:
Thu, 12/04/2018 - 12:58

breakfree

Joined:
2011-01-01

Stay strong Bal.

Posted on:
Thu, 12/04/2018 - 20:37

Lethe

Joined:
2016-12-10

Hi Bal

You know where a tenner leads. Play it through to the end when you get tempted. 

All the best

Posted on:
Fri, 13/04/2018 - 16:46

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Afternoon,

Another busy day over and looking forward to a weekend watching footie and having a few beers.

Breakfree and Lethe - many thanks for taking time to post on my diary. Your words mean a lot.

Lots of thinking yesterday and some things keep re appearing.

Be proud of how far i have come.

Appreciate what you have - not what u havent got.

Stay safe this weekend people.

Best wishes

Posted on:
Fri, 13/04/2018 - 22:02

Julie_36

Joined:
2017-10-23

Bal, was only thinking of you the other day. Glad all us well...all good my end too.

​have a great weekend.Juliexx

Posted on:
Sat, 14/04/2018 - 07:39

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Morning all,

Julie thank you for your kind words and am so pleased your recovery is going well x

Sitting on the train early heading towards London. Will meet with young Bal and have brekkie, beer and head for footie this avo. He will have a bet on the National so i will wait outside the bookies. Horses were never my thing anyway just those FOBT's

3 years ago today i fell through the trap door and my dirty addiction was exposed for all to see. At first i was angry and frustrated with everyone else but in all essence kidding myself that i could stop whenever. What i wanted to do was stay in the game.

Recovery had been slow and painful at times. Having to accept what happened has been painful at times. Turning my life around has been a joy. Becoming a better person has been a joy. I am one punt from disaster and always will be. The choice of whether i make that punt is mine. Today i dont think i will bother. Tomorrow is to far away to worry about and yesterday has gone forever.

Today i will enjoy myself in the company of people who have stood by me in times of trouble. For that i am grateful.

Best wishes

Posted on:
Sun, 06/05/2018 - 19:52

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Evening diary,

The footie season is over and a 2nd place gained for my beloved Hatters. Fixtures out next month. More grounds to visit. Bring it on.

Footie betting used to happen as an excuse to go on the bookies FOBT when out with Mrs Bal. Quick 40 on auto spins whilst appearing to put a quid on an acca. Who was I kidding. By the time she came in the bookies it was probably down to a fiver on the fobt kidding her and myself i didnt have a problem. If i won i would be jack the lad buying nice things when shopping.

Today as a family we have tidied up inside and out. Cutting the grass brought back a memory from several years back. Then as a family we were doing the same but an argument ensued allowing me to throw teddy away and storm off for a fobt session.

Today i felt slightly ashamed by that but also proud to acknowledge how far i have come. For that there is no price to put on that and i can settle back with a cold one and be grateful for what i have - not what i want.

Best wishes

Posted on:
Tue, 15/05/2018 - 12:09

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Afternoon all,

Work have decided that a trip to Newmarket Races is to take place next month. Told the boss i wouldnt be attending as i am a recovering gambling addict.

He was slightly shocked however i am so pleased i fronted this issue up

Best wishes

Posted on:
Wed, 16/05/2018 - 00:17

Loxxie

Joined:
2016-01-15

High five balvo..I'm happy to talk about my addiction now I'm comfortable with it myself ....spose it's just cose we're in a better place now.....feels good doesn't it....
Ps....did i tell you im undertaking diy jobs at home again...
Stand by...diy sos ! Lol
Miss all our old nonsense on here...
Some didn't agree with our style did they....
But ....it helped us on our journey ..didn't it ....
Take care ...tight lines...
Think thats fisherman talk ! x

Posted on:
Fri, 18/05/2018 - 10:47

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Morning,

As a former FOBT gambler i cant really get excited about the reduction in the minimum stake.

I have gambled anything from £100 a spin (just after pay day) to 25p a spin (waiting for pay day). For me it was staying in the game. It was playing the slot. It was a win. Didnt matter how much as long as it gave me another spin.

Getting rid of the FOBT altogether from the bookies. That would be radical.

Best wishes

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 19:45

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Evening,

A lovely fathers day. Lunch at the coast with stepkids and inlaws. A walk along the front and an ice cream and a present of a nice bottle of single malt.

Feel humbled

Best wishes.

Oh by the way - no gambling

Posted on:
Mon, 25/06/2018 - 11:01

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Morning,

Glorious day to be sitting by the banks of the fishing lake and reading some GC posts.

A little bit of financial good fortune came our way recently (not gambling related!!) allowing mrs bal and i the chance to replace some household items we have had for to long.

The last time some good fortune came our way it allowed me to gamble harder and take more risks. In hindsight this was a good thing as when the monies were gone my addiction surfaced and i had to confess my gambling sins.

Today is so different. A little trip booked overseas in December to visit the xmas markets and the bank account balance better. This time i prefer to treat my family than feed the FOBT.

Best wishes

Posted on:
Thu, 26/07/2018 - 20:36

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Evening diary,

A check in shows my counter today at 1200 days.

Life goes on one day at a time and tomorrow will hopefully be 1201 days.

Best wishes

Posted on:
Mon, 08/10/2018 - 09:30

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Morning - thought it was time for a check in. Life moves on at a nice pace which is now being dictated by me and not my FOBT gambling.

Debts being paid off slowly but more importantly are being paid off.

To all on here - stay safe

Best wishes

Posted on:
Mon, 08/10/2018 - 11:37

Loxxie

Joined:
2016-01-15

Morning balvo. ...glad to hear all's well ....
Xx

Posted on:
Tue, 09/10/2018 - 20:51

Loxxie

Joined:
2016-01-15

Hey balvo. ..thanks for popping over to say helloooo...
The Baker done a brill job....
I've saved you some. ...it's in the chiller ....with the fizz...
Tight lines ....xx

Posted on:
Wed, 10/10/2018 - 16:29

A 9

Joined:
2018-08-31

Baaaaaaal :)) 

I was counting the second's until the response came , LOL .

Good to hear from you my old friend and glad to see your doing so well , I'm a bit annoyed at the size of Loxxie's cake to be honest , the cakemaster surpassed himself on that one and it madethe one he did for me look like a Muffin                                    ( nothing rude meant ) :)) .

Wishing you and your's well Bal  and talk to you soon :)) 

Tight Line's / pant's x 

Posted on:
Wed, 10/10/2018 - 16:52

Loxxie

Joined:
2016-01-15

That als defo loosing the plot...
What has tight pants got to do with tight lines ?
He obviously knows nothing about catching fish....just how to batter them :-)

Posted on:
Wed, 17/10/2018 - 21:06

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Tight pants Loxxie......lol.

Evening diary.

Was pondering around on the interweb looking at ways to improve the credit rating. The best way is to take out credit....baffling.

However was looking at some T&C's. This particular bank stated no gambling transactions would be tolerated including the lottery.

Perhaps some banks are looking at duty of care matters.

Best wishes

PS - Anyone heard from that brickie Dddeeaaannnnoooo or is he using another alias. Or was he gambler toad.......lol x

Posted on:
Wed, 17/10/2018 - 22:42

ODAAT

Joined:
2014-11-10

Evening Bal, I had the same bizarre experience where I was advised to keep my credit card in order to improve my credit rating...Only in this mad world could borrowing be considered a sign of wealth!?! 

Metro bank recently did an account & I know of some others inc my Nationwide Visa that blocks gambling transactions so deffo a step in the right direction for people needing help with barriers!

I saw the brickie pop up recently but I have no other cyber contact with any of the clan so big shout out to you all on here!  Hope you are all keeping safe & sane...Big love to everyone - ODAAT 

Posted on:
Wed, 17/10/2018 - 23:01

A 9

Joined:
2018-08-31

Apparently you can improve your credit rating by just using a credit card and paying it off in full at the end of the month ?, not tried it yet as still have debt on mine :(( .

The free credit score companies also offer tips too so maybe check out some sites ? .

And YES I did get put on the naughty step again as Loxxies now shortened post from me will testify , thank's for noticing BAL :((

Hugs ((( )))) ooooh sorry I couldn't quite get my arms around ya :))  xx

 

Posted on:
Wed, 17/10/2018 - 23:02

A 9

Joined:
2018-08-31

Ps . Jason popped up the other day and it's the most work he's done in ages ................Apparently ?  :)) 

Posted on:
Thu, 18/10/2018 - 07:42

Loxxie

Joined:
2016-01-15

How strange you mentioned toad.
Was thinking about him the other day.....Sat on a Lilly pad somewhere....
Jason's maybe on tour with kylie..
Or he built the bricks up from the inside. ....and now can't get out...
He may well be stuck in the middle of a brick house somewhere !
Martyns probs with his mate Barry....so distracted at the moment...
Least we are all still around.....
Tight lines.....not pants. ...! x

Posted on:
Fri, 19/10/2018 - 22:44

Bal

Joined:
2015-04-18

Evening all,

I find myself coming back to the GC forum over the last few days and i ask why.

Do i need it.

Did i miss it.

Is it my comfort. Probably yes. 25 years of trying to destroy myself, considering taking my own life but i found peace and solace here amongst like minded people.

In my early days it was suzanne, kelly, duncs, dan, tri who told it exactly how it was. To those people I thank you.

A facebook group was set up. Jigsaw. Tizzy. Deano. Martin. Loxxie, Jacqueline. Star and Brownie. We helped each other. I thank you so much.

Perhaps i am still learning about my addiction. I dont know.

Am i scared letting go of this group. Probably.

All i know is that my blocks remain high and i dont intend to gamble tomorrow.

Sunday is to far away yet. One day at a time.

Best wishes

Bal x

Posted on:
Sat, 20/10/2018 - 12:52

A 9

Joined:
2018-08-31

I mirror your feeling's regard's the above post Bal , I aslo find it comfort to have around at times :)).

Like your good self I have a fair amount of time under my belt now but it's good to come here to read , reflect and ponder so if it work's for us then why change it eh :))>.

Have a good weekend Bal .

Bye the way , I've reported your last post ( and you ) to admin for being " Fattest "  "Deep fried Mar's anyone "  :))   Hug's x

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