feel so incredibly sad. I’m stuck in a vicious cycle.
i know my triggers for gambling are when I can’t cope with life and want to paper the proverbial cracks. I still play anyway.
may as well just leave the money at the desk and go or tip it down the drain!
has anyone got any tips? When the craving takes over that bad it consumes every little ounce of energy not to play? Or should I say guarantee loose
why am I addicted to loosing I’m sick of it. I want to stop so bad. Today is day dot. A long weekend coming up and I’m gonna struggle to get to Monday!
i feel like I don’t know what activities to replace gambling with.
We all know the cycle, one thing is for sure, every day gamble free will be free of those feeling of utter madness.
We will replay our gambling over and over to try and give it a rational explaination, however this is not going to help as there isn't one, it's a frenzy and we lose our minds.
Forgive yourself and look forward, no matter how hard the battle, looking forward is important not back.
Be proud you have found this and set your aim of one Saturday gamble free today
By abstaining we are no longer causing our self self abuse.
By abstaining we are able to start the healing process and expose more of our emotional vulnerability.
Once I put a lot of time and effort in to my recovery and handed over all of my finances and started to abstain my recovery was going to become much easier.
The money was just the fuel for my addiction.
I did not respect myself and I did not respect money.
No matter how sincere I thought my promises were now I understand I could not do it on my own.
Each time I went back to my addictions I needed to understand what was my last emotional trigger.
The recovery program helped me understand that I was like a rat in a wheel going faster and faster getting no where healthy.
I am a non religious person and have been able to find a healthy spiritual life with out being religious.
Every action has consequences, every healthy action has healthy consequences, every unhealthy action has unhealthy consequences.
The recovery program works for any one who is fully committed towards healthy living.
The recovery program helped me understand that abstaining from unhealthy habits was not a fight but in fact a complete surrender, the person I was fighting was myself, the person I feared facing the most was myself.
Only once I surrender completely and live one day at a time, just for today I will not gamble. It is a boundary I set for myself to no longer live in fear and escape.
I found out that time off my addictions did not mean that my inner child was healed.
Being in the recovery program I mix with people who are dedicated towards being healthy and people who are willing to work as a team.
As I attended meetings my fears reduced, as my fears reduced my trust grew very slowly.
Love and peace to every one.
AKA Dave of Beckenham