"Doro" singing "Walking With The Angels."
Excellent song, inspiring lyrics and great music...stephen
Downbeat music definitely hits home. Here's my contribution
Beyonce
runnin
listen to the lyrics
Today i spoke to my dad. We do speak more frequently now since some massive changes hit me hard (the reality of their fragile state) ...and today was extremely emotional conversation. Few reasons...one - he said hearing my voice lifts the weight off his shoulders and heart...second - he shared experience on his last night shift....he works in challenging environment and what I heard almost broke my heart. On a good note, i feel a lot deeper connection with dad following the chat, i feel so much appreciation for everything he does and I am ever so much closer to him in my heart and soul.
Dad - I'm glad I had a chance to tell you "i love you" once again.
Deep song, deep lyrics but so so relatable it's unreal
Hi
I was in the recovery some time and then I understood why my father and mother were unable to say that they loved me.
The fact that they were hurt as children and that they lived in fear of emotional intimacy.
To say to some one they loved them meant they left them self feeling emotionally vulnerable.
I was at a hotel in Anderson in the early hours of the morning.
A man sat sat on his own looked very burdened with worries.
I made a comment and then we sat and chatted for some time.
On conclusion of our chat I stood up to leave him and the man said to me you know what I am going to do today.
I asked what is that would be, he told me that he was going to tell his son how much he loved him.
I was blasted out of the water, that the man was destined to tel his son how much he loved him, that was very powerful for me.
Was it destined to happen, our paths crossed over and the chance of us ever meeting again is very unlikely.
Yet because I told my parents that I loved them changed my life, and I would like to think that it also changed my relationship with my parents.
Just before my mother died I was with her, she was unable to talk and she felt very vulnerable.
I had already made a decision to have a healthy closure with my mothers passing.
I told her that in the past times things were said and done which were very unhealthy.
I said that the past is no loner of any importance to us today, that the most important thing today was that I loved my mother very much and that she meant so much to me in every way.
Her eyes watered and she put out her hand on mine and showed me so much affection in that touch, I knew she was at peace with her self and her past and at peace with her self.
There was some thing else my mother told me which was very powerful before she passed away when she was able to talk.
She was very much embarressed by the fact she was unable to nurse me as a baby.
I said to my mother I already knew that fact, she could not or would not believe me, her eyes opened up wide looking at me.
Sadly she had been carrying that guilt and shame since I was a little baby, she was no longer riddled with carrying that guilt and shame any more she was free.
There was a song which I had many times in my life.
Just before going to see my father after not seeing him I was seven years of age a person in recovery asked me to listen to the track to in the living years.
I was in Calgary down town in the record shop, I asked the lady if I could hear the track in the living years.
She left me listening and then came back in a while to find me crying, she was very surprised and walked away from me.
In that instant in the living years words hit home with me.
And that pain and my fears were a part of my healing process and also aided me in seeing him with more awareness than before.
With out taking the recovery program seriously I found out that I would never found out that I was not able to love or be loved living in my fear of emotional intimacy.
That I was unable to respect other people if I did not respect myself.
That I was unable to value other people if I did not value myself.
That the pains of my past not healed caused fears in that I would not understand fully till much later in my life.
Can my inner child come out to play today.
Is my inner child free of fear today.
Is my inner child free to live a full healthy life today?
Love and peace to every one
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
Hi Dave L,
Thank you for the share...hit a soft spot for sure.
I am very pleased to read about the amends you and your mum made, it actually brought a tear out in me..
Again, thank you for inspiration.
Is this the song you are on about?....if it is - I hope you can find peace listening to it.
Blessings ?❤
Hi
It was my pleasure.
It is nice to be healed and at peace with your past
Thank you for coming back to me.
Love and peace to every one
Dave L
AKA Dave of Beckenham
Loved reading through this thread, I think the power of music is sometimes overlooked for a lot of reasons.
it got me thinking on what song best sums up how I am feeling about the journey to recovery I’m on, and a song called ‘frank’ by a band called easy life really struck a chord with me. This song will be on every playlist I have for when I need reminding of where I’ve been, where I am now, and where I never need to go back to, have put a link and the lyrics below, who knows it might strike a chord with someone else
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Z10Nl_lQmBo
I'm sorry that I'm such a showoff
Sometimes I need to let it out
Put it on my chest and blow it off
Sometimes I just needed a minute
Other times I needed you to let me off
But we could build a bridge and get it over it
But you still seem to have it in your head
That the world isn't in your palm
And too many people
They can't even handle the truth
They need to know now
Cause I just spoke to Frank
He told me why I'm confused
I need to slow down
But there's too much weight in your decisions
It's affecting your condition
But if all your satin silk don't keep the devil at bay
Then you should dress down
And we're driving to the edge with the city lights on
I know you're wondering why nobody
stickin' around and why nothing lasts long
But with this pink sky blazing on the
west side baby don't you feel wholesome
If you fall short of your potential, baby this'll be a problem
I'm sorry that I'm such a showoff
I get you're going through some s**t
Raise a glass to your mother
We can sip it off
Don't look the other way
When I ask if you're okay
No need to shrug me off
But we just really need to get over it
But you still seem to have it in your head,
That the world, it isn't in your palm
And too many people
They can't even handle the truth
They need to know now
That sending messages through your cracked screen
Should be the only time you look down
But these demons are clouding up your vision
And crippling your ambition
So take your own advice
And keep on doing yourself
Don't ever calm down
And we're driving to the edge with the city lights on
I know you're wondering why nobody
stickin' around and why nothing lasts long
But with this pink sky blazing on the
west side baby don't you feel wholesome
If you fall short of your potential, baby this'll be a problem
But baby it's a strange world
But I'll keep it strange for you
And I'll rearrange for you
Such a strange world
But baby it's a strange world
But I'll keep it strange for you
I'll rearrange for you
It's a strange world
"Mercy On Me" by Christina Aguilera
"A Change Is Gonna Come" by Sam Cook.
Dire Straits - Sultans of swing
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