Today I stepped back from the abyss.
Last night after a month of out of control drinking and gambling I decided to try again and stop this madness which is killing me. I have seriously considered the end but I know how that impacts on your family. I don't want to leave behind a trail of misery which no one deserves. After making the decision to stop I do feel a huge burden has been lifted from my shoulders. This morning, tail between my legs, I walked into c****s and self-excluded. No more FOBTS at least in this city. I also ordered the excellent 'overcoming problem gambling' book online and that will be coming through my door in the next few days. The last time I read that I didn't gamble for 5 months. I'll just keep buying gambling and addiction books to constantly remind me how futile gambling is and how it impacts your life. I'll start using the group chat on here, maybe that will help me? I've already registered with Gamban and self-excluded from other shops where I live.
So it's day 1 again.
Stuart
Well done.
Walking in there and self-excluding was very brave and extremely wise, so it's already a triple win for you - for your decision-making, for your courage and for your financial future.
I am so very glad you are staying on here, you give such good support to others and you are an asset to the site.
Onwards and upwards now!
Dear canterbury100,
Thank you for your post and welcome back to the GamCare Forum.
It sounds like you have been through some extremely challenging times but you are determined to look forward and get support around your gambling.
You've made some really positive first steps; if there is any further advice and support we can offer, including referral to treatment support please contact the helpline on 0808 8020 133 or via our netline available very day from 8.00am until midnight where you can speak to an adviser.
Wishing you all the very best,
Forum Admin
Thanks for the support.
Yes it's time to get help and address the reasons why I relapsed. I'll get on the netline and see what support they can offer.
Stuart
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