Since finally admitting that i have a gambling problem and being GF for 5 days i have already felt the benefits of being able to focus my attention on the things that really matter.
I have been able to spend time with my young children and actually give them my attention without glancing at my phone every 2 minutes to check on my bets. I have also found myself a lot calmer and have loads more patience. Betting made me snap at my children and get into petty arguments with my wife over nothing , this was me taking out my gambling losses out on them and i realise now how unfair this was.
Its also made me realise how lucky i am to be blessed with a loving family, i became blind to this whilst gambling.
Im under no illusion that i have to deal with this illness forever, i will get urges and thoughts but im up for the fight.
Iv developed a hatred for betting sites/companies, having read a lot of threads on here it is soul destroying to see how many lives have been decimated by these people. I have no doubt i was at a junction in my life where i was heading for that oblivion.
Gamcare has provided me with hope and a community i can share with. Its a crutch that i am thankful for.
Thank you
