I've been GF for about a month now and I've been surprised that it hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. But the last couple of nights I've had very vivid dreams where I am gambling on the online slot that I used to regularly use. I had a search on the forum for similar experiences but from what I've seen a lot of people seem to feel relieved when they wake up and realise their gambling dreams weren't real life. This is unfortunately the opposite for me, my dreams have been enjoyable and I've been devastated when I've woken up to realise that I can't do it in real life.
Not sure if I'm looking for advice here or just a rant but I do hope these stop soon as it's definitely making it harder.
Its something you work through and keep talking about especially to your loved ones.
Dreams can be enjoyable or they can be nightmares but they are all just dreams.
The really dangerous dreams were your daydreams of delusion when you were gambling. Again you talk through a gambling session to try and make some sense of how the addiction was controlling you.
I wasn't even gambling for anything that would have made a difference. I was hooked on the will it be me drug of expectation and I was hooked on wanting something to be nice to me in my dreary grey world...it was a shot in the vein. I was hooked on getting the fix even though it was wearing very thin.
So you have to talk through what has been happening in these dreams because you cant live in a dream and it could be a sign that the brain is overcompensating for depresssion and anxiety.
What youve said does worry me as you have to focus on the reality of gambling and how slots are designed to hook you into escape gambling
Face life and learn to enjoy the simple pleasures of life
Best wishes from everyone on the forum