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SJAnon
(@sjanon)

In what feels like the blink of an eye, I'm 75 days GF and closing in on a big milestone which would be 100 days.

Feelings and thoughts come and go, but I'm able to dismiss them pretty quickly. It's almost like the gambling part of my mind is testing the water.

My wife has full financial visibility in terms of bank account and credit report so there's no way I could sneak anything by her. And the thing is, I really don't want to anymore. I've lost count of the big race days I've 'missed' - St Leger, Arc and as I type I genuinely don't know what any of the meetings are today.

So in summary, I'm still a work in progress but it's getting easier. Hopefully if you're reading this and you're only a few days in this will provide a little optimism that it can and will get better.

Last thing to say was I wouldn't be here without people taking the time to comment on this forum. As a wise person called Chris once said to me: "there's so much more to life than a bet".

Best wishes to everyone.

SJ 

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Posted : 17th October 2020 12:56 pm
Charlieboy
(@charlieboy)

Sjanon, awesome really positive progress keep going the longer you go the more fleeting the thoughts get. I find it if get a thought and immediately change what I'm doing I can forget quite easily. Chris is indeed rich in experience and has lived the life both as a compulsive gambler and in prolonged recovery. Do you go to GA ? I wasn't convinced before I went, reading what a big advocate Chris is for GA and I thought I've nothing to lose. I find it has had a really positive impact on me I look forward to the meeting ,online for us at the moment, I had to miss one week and I wasn't happy I wanted my meeting with other compulsive gamblers who I'm now getting to know I try to work things so I don't have to miss. Gambling is never the answer !! Take care keep going I'm 136 days now I never thought I would do it and I'll fight to my last breath to keep going, there is indeed much more to life

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Posted : 17th October 2020 1:41 pm
Chris.UK
(@chris-uk)

Good work @sjanon, you too @charlieboy.

Keep it going, you're both doing geat. Do you know what, I'm doing great too, same as you two, not having had a bet today.

Chris.

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Posted : 17th October 2020 5:13 pm
SJAnon
(@sjanon)

Cheers both - I see what you two do to help newbies while you're still dealing with your own issues and it's commendable. 

One day at a time is really the only way to do this, as cliche as that may sound.

Just keep moving forward.

All the best 

SJ 

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Posted : 19th October 2020 8:44 pm
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