So, I'm here.
I've been gambling for a good few years now and was involved in a scam/scheme called 'CSGO Gambling' when I was younger. I've since been gambling, pretty much daily, losing significant ammounts of money and it's really not good. I installed some software called 'GamBan' but being from a technical background, I managed to Bypass it earlier on tonight, which caused me to loose myself $100 (not GamBan's fault).
Something that hasn't happened before (I'm diagnosed with Depression, Anxiety, and "possibly" biopolar, as we're not sure on that yet) - But I picked up a computer tool that has a some-what sharp edged, and pushed it against my skin. I stopped myself before it did any damage, but It wasn't a 'reaction' that I told my hands to do... I'm not sure, I might be crazy 😀
I think overall, I need some guidance, I've re-installed Gamban and re-instated all of the bits and bobs I've removed to get onto these sites, and I really, really want to stop - but Gambling was a way of making money and enjoying myself (until I lost) so the urge gets worse and worse. Has anyone gone through a similar thing?
I would really appreciate any guidenace through this. <3
I am sorry to read you are going through a tough time at the moment. Well done for reaching out for support, it would be great if you called our Help Line to talk about your gambling. We are there 24/7, 365 days a year, an advisor will listen to what’s going on for you, and can talk you through all of the support options available. The telephone number is 0808 80 20 133. Alternatively, you can speak to us on Live Chat any time, https://www.gamcare.org.uk/get-support/talk-to-us-now.
I am glad to hear that you stopped before you hurt yourself, remember you are not alone in this. I suggest calling your GP and having a chat with them about how you are feeling.
I wish you all the best and we look forward to hearing from you.
I've gone through a vaguely similar thing in as much as I am able to consistently make profit out of horse racing gambling. Through my grandfather and father I was taught how to read form, handicap the weights, read value in prices, etc... By consistently I mean that most years I can come out in profit. And I enjoy gambling and putting the work in to try to find winners. So why am I on this forum?
Because occasionally I would go through quite a long period of losers and suddenly out of the blue start reacting in a wholly illogical manner. I would throw caution to the wind and do the absolute worst thing you can do in gambling, namely chase my losses (which is the quickest way possible to lose significant money fast).
It's deeply frustrating for me as when I am in control I can use gambling to improve my finances but after much making of excuses I have now come to realize that I just can't control the chasing. It doesn't happen frequently but it only needs to happen once in a year and it normally wipes out my profit and sends me into the red. I'm slowly coming to the realization that I don't have the mental capacity to accept losses which makes me a dangerous gambler (dangerous to myself).