I started to play the online casinos being a no deposit bonus / free spins compleat s*****r. I'd hunt all the bonus code sites for free goes on anything .Then after having won a few quid "withdraw it quick"I thought . I needed to have deposited an amount into these accounts to takeout anything ...I did so only to put it all back in ,and more ,lots more . that was it , hooked ,coulden't get enough... then I found my parteners bank card on the side and chanced regestering it for a crafty tenner .
That was the start of what has been the biggest mistake of my life. ... that was that I coulden't stop myself , for some reason I was not able to relate to the fact I was stealing money off my partener until well later when I had answer to the fact I;d rinsed around £3,000 odd from her...how stupid can one stupid dyslexic crosswired idiot be...verry! infact.
The thing is I'm a 54 year old bloke who up until two and a half years ago didn't gamble , a couple o quid on the Grand Natonal with the lads , that was it. I never thought I'd have a problem with addiction to slots tocome from a bit of fun ,not at my age .I compleatley lost . I've almost destroyed my relationship to kingdom come ,after 16 loving and happy years .
she got the money back from the bank after reporting me of fraud to the bank / police etc. .Nothing came of it convictions wise . couldn't believe it .then 3 months later I had an anurism (bloodclot in my artery ) left arm. on the 1st of March 2020 ,now it's September I have come to fine that I have rinsed her card again and there are lots of gaps in my memory but this time I did £3,000 in three months .!!! I had spent time in painkiller ,and other meds haze I realy realy can't remember most of it and with lockdown to boot.I find myself wondering what ... have I done.
I have now joined this site today to try and find some help to get a grip on myself and stop putting my loved ones through this torment , I have stolen ,lied ,.. ,and been genraly not a nice human being. two and a half years and my happienes and loves are in tatters . what a hangover .
I hope it's not too late for reconsiliation .I hope there is some help for me to sort my head out .I'm a mess and trying not to be misrable,trying!
thats about it for my story ,i already feel a bit better for getting tha off my chest as to say. thanks for being here gamcare ..
welcome and well done for sharing your story .
I can relate to your story becoming somebody I didn’t recognise and hurting those closest to me.
I am myself new to this Site and the advice I can give is please put all the blocks on your devices, register with gamstop and Gamban.
You can do this and we are all here for support
I Wish you well