It was all going so well...

Im so sorry to hear this. I f*****g hate and am disgusted by gambling. Im fed up. Totally broken med down. Ive had enough! Good luck my friend. Im here for you. I know where you are coming from.

Thanks my friend. Good luck to you too. 

Its just so so frustrating getting sucked back in. For me, it’s tough but I’m able to quit when I put my mind to it.. I just get drawn back in and end up wiping out every penny I have. 

Going to to take a day out today to just think things over and make sure I don’t do this stupid s**t again. 

Bet regret is the worst 

My advice would be to not get complacent... We need to remind ourselfs what gambling has done tp us. Once we get out of the pain and misery we feel like we can afford to punish ourselfs a bit. Its unbelieveable why we do this. Keep remining yourself. Take a video of yourself after youve lost it all and look back on it, read a book every 3 months, anything that works for you. Keep on trying. Experiment. When time passes we feel like we have changed, and therefore can try again. But it only leads to ruin again. We can never change about gambling, because it is HIGHLY addictive. Addiction cant be handled by ANYONE!

Im sick, so sick by thinking that gambling is legal... It should be banned. Gambling isnt a bit of fun for anyone. If someone say they can control it, disregard them. They talk s**t. Someone who smokes, cant control it. They remain slaves. Its what an addiction is.

it has happened to all of us

I stopped for 3 months back in june and as soon as the new football season started I got sucked back in

all we can do is break the endless cycle of losing and start again from day one

You are absolutely right - all about not getting complacent. I know that I can’t gamble again, even with small amounts, as it only heads one way. 

Funnily enough my trigger was the football season being back too. 

Well, a couple of days down and no gambling. It’s a start I suppose. Can’t get the losses off my mind. The fact it’s going to take months and months of tight living to claw back to where I was, after just a days worth of gambling, is an awful feeling. Just need to try and remember this pain in the coming weeks when the temptation starts. What a f*****g idiot I am. Thanks for the replies. 

Theonlywayisup, we have things in common. I cant also chew up my losses of my previous relapse. It hurts so d**n much... I feel my character has changed so much. O cant feel tranquility while talking to other people. I feel negative and need to hold off my negativity to others. What a horrible way to live! And the only way is by not gambling. Correct... If we only gamble even 10 pounds the trap has already clawed us back in. A vicious circle then starts. Its not about luck whether we stop or not. Key is losing the desires by unraveling the true faces of gambling and recognise what it really is! No one has ever gotten rich by playing slots etc. It all goes back because of the addiction that builds up!

Well, that’s a week gambling free. Not surprised as I don’t really have the money to anyway. Well, apart from an overdraft facility, so I suppose it’s a good thing I haven’t touched that. 

Just got to make sure I look on here whenever I’m tempted down the line to remind myself of the anger and despair in the aftermath. 

There hasn’t been a few hours go by where I haven’t thought about all the money lost. Why couldn’t I have just quit for good years ago when I realised I had a problem. 

Footballs on tonight but managing to stay strong. Still can’t believe how much of a t**t I was. Can’t stop thinking about all the thousands lost over the years... but I can soften the blow by making sure I never gamble again. 

Had a look into Gamblock but can’t actually afford it - it is an awful lot of money. 

For my future self reading this when I inevitably forget about all the heartache... don’t do it to yourself again you f*****g massive P***k!!! It’s nearly ruined your life to date and you could have given the world to your family and friends rather than been tight all these years. 

Its time to really make a change now and live life how it should be. 

Theonlywayisup

If you call Gamcare they will give you a code and you can get Gamblock for free for a year.

Good luck 

I wasn’t aware of that. Thankyou. 

Well, 2 weeks exactly since my latest f**k up. 

Club football is back on today and already I have the demons in my head telling me to just have £20 on a few bets today. I really want to just beat this for good. 

Don’t do it mate.

Take the £20 and stick it in an envelope instead. You won’t win or if you do, you’ll just lose it on the next one. You already know this before I’ve told you.

Get yourself on the 2019 challenge. If you’ve done two weeks already, you can do another two weeks and that’s the first month with no gambling, probably saved yourself a few hundred. 

Its not worth the regret watching another bet get chinned, just enjoy the football. I know the enjoyment of sport went for me, and now it’s back.

Well done on the two weeks gamble free, that’s the hardest part, keep going.

Posted by: Theonlywayisup

Footballs on tonight but managing to stay strong. Still can’t believe how much of a t**t I was. Can’t stop thinking about all the thousands lost over the years... but I can soften the blow by making sure I never gamble again. 

 

Had a look into Gamblock but can’t actually afford it - it is an awful lot of money. 

 

For my future self reading this when I inevitably forget about all the heartache... don’t do it to yourself again you f*****g massive P***k!!! It’s nearly ruined your life to date and you could have given the world to your family and friends rather than been tight all these years. 

 

Its time to really make a change now and live life how it should be. 

Hello Theonlywayisup

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Cheers for the responses guys.

I’ll make sure I get through the weekend then keep taking it a day at a time. The real problem for me is getting complacent months down the line, when the pain is forgotten. I end up going to the game and think ‘a little correct score to pay for the beers won’t hurt’

It’s the same old story of gambling to block out the real world. Crazy how a roulette session or a football bet can take me away from the pain and stress of the real world.

I was out with my partner last night. Spent £40 on a meal. Makes me sick thinking about all the nice times I could have paid for - yet I blew it gambling in a matter of minutes. 

A lot of my mates are gamblers as well which does not help at all.

Excuse the disjointed posts - think it might help somewhat me just venting my thoughts.  

Struggling at the moment. 

Very stressful couple of days coming up at work and my first thought is to have a gamble and get my head away from it for a bit. I’ve also spent a lot of money this week, which always makes me think ‘Well a bit more gambling won’t hurt’

I wont, as I need to stop this s**t for good. But by god it’s hard. 

Gambling has meant I’ve been wishing my life away for years, never living in and enjoying the moment. Always waiting until next pay day, and here we are again.