Feeling lower than ever. I've just taken out a loan last weekend to cover another loan that I'm missing payments on. I keep gambling on random sports chasing my losses. I've lost about £700 or probably more over the last week and a half.
I don't know why I gamble. I feel really sick and guilty when I go to withdraw money out the ATM. I feel even worse as soon as I hit that "place bet" button. There's times where in so focused on gambling I've walked away from the ATM with my card and forgot to pick up the cash because I'm so focused about placing a bet and having that chance of winning big.
Today it stops. I've had enough. I need to keep telling myself that all the money is lost and I need to move on. I feel like a different person when I gamble and afterwards I wonder why I'm wasting my hard earned money and taking out credit to gamble.
I've now got 2 monthly credit card bills, 2 monthly loan bills and I'm lucky if I'll have £200 leftover each month after all my bills are paid. I'm just going to have to suck it in and deal with it as it comes.
Thanks for reading
Welcome to the Forum and thank you for sharing your story.
It does seem like the consequences of gambling highly impacted your finances and you feeling guilty or even sick. I am sorry to hear that it has taken you to such a place that you are feeling this way.
At the same time, I am really glad you decided that this needs to stop and you came to the conclusion, that it does not affect you anymore. It sounds like the right time has come for you to accept what has been already lost and you feel ready to get the control back over your finances and wellbeing.
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Sorry you are feeling how you are but this is what will give you the motivation to sort your life out and become gamble free.
49 days ago I was in your shoes. Constantly depositing money I quite frankly didn't have because I needed that fix, I needed to win back money I had lost and it was a vicious circle. I joined here and I've not looked back. I gambled for 12 years daily for hours on end playing the slots, if I can do it you can too 😊.
I can see you do both online and betting shops. Your best away around this would be to put all blocks in place for online with gamstop and installing gamban on all devices and then with your bank for gambling transactions.
For the betting shops you need to self exclude, I have seen people on here who say they still manage to get in but failing this if you have family who could perhaps manage your finances for a while till your strong enough.
Make sure you pop in to live chats daily, this is what has massively helped me in my journey, there will be people there who may be able to offer other advice to what I have and the support is second to none, they are a great bunch. 8pm seems to be the best chat as more in but there is a lunch time one at 1pm
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