Hello all, this is my very first time, well first time acknowledging that I’m a gambler with a problem! Iv come clean to my wife and Iv put my family at financial risk from my actions, I’m now in 50k debt and just don’t even know where to start with that!!! I’m going to my first meeting tonight and I’m terrified, I don’t know what to expect. I don’t know how to face my friends and family! How was it for anyone else?
When I initially sdmitted being CG the first few weeks were awful, but it got alot better, people come to understand that it's not personal, it's not just you...the most important thing to do is be open and honest.
Back when I originally admitted my debts, we didn't have such great tools as fobt limits and gamstop.
I so wish we had but now, get onto gamstop it is great and limits the likelihood of any major relapses.
The road ahead isn't easy, I have relapsed, but am back now and actually have the tools in place to best this..
Stay strong and focus on the fact you win by walking away from it for good and using the money you have to pay debts and treat you family.
Also on the debts, talk to the creditors, try and get them to freeze interest and or charges....so cutting the snakes head off
I was filled with fears on walking in to the recovery program.
The recovery program will heal any person who is willing to do the work on them self.
It is not possible to heal the hurt inner child if we are still causing our self pain today.
I m a very selfish person today, my recovery comes first of all, then my family and then myself
Today I understand that my control issues were fear based.
There was a person that once said he was delighted that he was a compulsive gambler.
With the recovery program he would have never understood how vulnerable I was .
Please keep going to meetings, you will benefit from it in so many ways.
Love and peace to every one.
AKA Dave of Beckenham
I thought I was the only ones in this mess until I walked through the door of our first GA meeting, I quickly realised that there were others out there whose stories were very similar to myself.
The crucial thing it teaches you is that if you are 100% honest with friends, family, fellow compulsive gamblers you will be well on the way to recovery. We have conditioned ourselves to lie to everyone, especially ourselves. This state only feeds the addiction. If you are serious about recovery you will see this, most importantly others who know about will see it. You may have broken the trust of loved ones, but you can get it back. Trust can be lost in an instant but takes time to get it back. Your family will see the changes in you over time if you take recovery seriously.
You can do it. No more lies, no more pretending. I wish you well.