67 days, why have I just gone back to square one

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Time, access, money

its my fault, I know it is. I haven't gambled on 65 days. For some reason this evening I just got the urge. I found I had unrestricted time. I signed up to a new site, and away I went on blackjack. 2 hrs later I was up. But I didn't stop, I kept tapping away. Half an hr later I'd lost it all including my stake. Why? I Feel sick. I must get over the urges. I'm trying. Really am. So disappointed in myself. Feel like an absolute loser. Not only have I lost more money, but I'm back to square1.

I have to stop this happening for another time.

 
Posted : 20th January 2017 12:24 am
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Hi come on pick yourself up, you had a blip learn from it and put all the blocks in place. Don't dwell on it because it's gone now, concentrate on the future x

 
Posted : 20th January 2017 12:41 am
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Sorry to hear you have relapsed mate heart goes out to yer been there many times and reading this is a eye opener I am only 38 days since last bet and it's so easy to slip back into that destructive cycle I know it's hard to accept but that's gone and chasing will only dig you a deeper hole hope you can get stronger from this relaps go again

 
Posted : 20th January 2017 12:43 am
Areturntoabettertomorrow
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Hi buddy,

So what are you going to do differently this time? I had exactly the same thing happen after 67 days. Complacency set in, past experience of losses faded and the little voice saying gamble did came back. Got around my blocks and did nearly three grand in an hour. Like you I was up a decent amount but kept going.

That was almost a year ago. Someone did ask me what I would do differently, that really helped. I made it impossible to gamble with blocks but those have been lifted. My biggest change is my mindset, I hate the industry and hate the thought of gambling. I dislike being out of control and now when faced with opportunities to gamble, I don't even have an urge.

Pick yourself up, draw a line, make the changes.

All the best,

Abet

 
Posted : 20th January 2017 1:31 pm
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Hello I'm new. I've been crying today because I'm at the end of my tether. I want this all to stop. I've been gambling most my adult life. I'm 40 year old woman. Single parent with children. I work very hard and could have a nice life but when my account has money in it, I use every single penny on slot machines. When I win, I never take it out. I always gamble it all away. I'm very sad and need some strength. I took out 3 pay day loans this week to pay for bills but gambledit all

 
Posted : 20th January 2017 5:37 pm
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Iv been quitting all of 24 hours pal so Iv no rights to be giving advice really, but you've done all that time I'd give anything to be on that many days you should be super proud of yourself. Having a relapse today Will remind you how much it hurts to loose ? As said I'm no guru mate but well done for what you've done so far

 
Posted : 20th January 2017 7:31 pm
Joydivider
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HI RB

You have to take it as a learning experience that you will bypass blocks and your gadgets are not being monitored or restricted by anyone.

I have to be blunt that nobody is moving up the board of recovery without a support network and blocks that wont be bypassed.Many people relapse but the truth is they werent far from square one or still on it. Yes wanting to stop and admitting a problem is part of the battle but it must be backed up quickly with all the advice on proper steps to take

I dont term it as sliding back down to square one. I feel its more that you were in the first stage of thinking that you could handle it without cast iron blocks and monitoring.

I detest the way online gambling comes into people homes. You must focus on this loss now as it will happen time and time again if you continue to gamble. Someone else needs to set any blocker passwords and you may well need to hand your gadgets over. Im serious there! Obviously I understand that internet access is for other things like work but you have shown you are not in control

Is there anyone close you can talk to? You really need to focus now that gambling destroys you every time....you cant stop...its compulsive behaviour and you are addicted to playing for all sorts of reasons.

When you are clear about it you will gain strength...why would you do it again because you know whats happened before and you know you cant control it whatever happens. Its not for you so let it go and gather a support network. You must tell someone close. we are only as sick as our secrets as the saying goes

The next stage is what are you going to do differently this time to take the fight on and step it up?? If you dont do anything different you will relapse again and again. While you are feeling very depressed and annoyed with yourself its time to take strong action.

I like the money in my pocket. I win every day by not gambling. Can you see that?

Being gamble free is a wonderful feeling of self respect and freedom

Best wishes from everyone on the forum

 
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