Been gambling loads for months now and Friday I blew everything I had. I got to that point that most compulsive gamblers get too where I just wanted to lose and wasn’t bothered. So im on day 1 and obviously haven’t gambled because I can’t. Is this time any different? I hope so it’s tiring I’m 40 years old and still doing the same things as when I was 21. When will I learn.
So today I haven’t gambled but all I think about is money and what I’ve lost. I know it’ll get easier with time. Gonna make an effort to post every day. Support and comments are appreciated no one knows really what it is like apart from you guys who’ve been through it too.
Day 2, feeing a lot better today and making plans for the month. Been here so many times I find it extraordinary how I am able to overcome losses with everyone around me none the wiser. I hope to be able to do it, I’ve done years off gambling before and I’d love to be able to function without the temptation and need to gamble.
have a good day
My story seems similar to yours. Stopped gambling for long periods in the past, managed to sort myself out without anyone knowing anything. This time the relapse had such an impact that I had to tell my family. I am glad I did. I can't be trusted with much money at the mo so needed someone to take care of it for me. Each time I relapse I convince myself I can gamble for fun again. I can't. It has to be never again now. The only way I am getting through this so far is self exclusion, handing over my finances and GamCare's support.
Good that you are here. One day at a time.
Feeling really positive today which is day 4. Friday I felt terrible but each day is getting better. Really gonna make a conscious effort to post at least every week. Great to speak with others that are doing so well and those at similar times to me. From experience you can’t stop on your own you need the support of the people on here who understand the difficulties. Got a lot planned this month so hopefully I keep my mind occupied.
Day 10 today, the sick feeling and pain of my relapse doesn’t feel as bad so now is the time to focus. I’ve been here so many times before and know it’s the most dangerous time. I don’t get paid for another 2 and a half weeks and that really will be the key time. When that time comes I plan on ringing the helpline posting and doing as much as I can to remind myself not to gamble. I’ve really got to sustain a recovery. Good luck to everyone else in their recovery
Hi Ford, you are doing great and sounds like you are putting everything possible in place to stop you from becoming vulnerable again. There is a really nice feeling when you get through payday unscathed. It is just one day but an important one. I wish you all the best and look forward to hearing about your progress in chat and your diary.