Today was the first time I had money for a while, I didn’t even have an urge.
The first thing I did was brought my daughter a present, I can’t tell you how good I feel, live chat and my counsellor have been amazing, I tend to Check-In 1-2 times a day, it’s so reassuring knowing I can just Tell someone my inner feelings.
I’m even more determined now to beat this Demon, I know it’s early days but I’m looking forward not back for the first time in years. What money I do have I’m going to try go for a walk and draw it out (It only takes one bad thing to set me back)
I’m beginning to realise My addiction is a form of self loathing, perhaps self harm maybe.