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#1 Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 12:22

DeterminedDan

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2016-09-08

Hello old friends. I’m back here (under a new username) (Previously Moorey) to try and rescue my life once and for all.

I had recently gone 64 days without gambling until I decided to gamble on Christmas Day. In the short time I’d been gamble free, I’d built up my savings to a level where I’d not been for a while. So why I decided to undo all that hard work, I’ll never know. 

As usual my gambling started off what you’d call ‘acceptable’ (to a gambler that doesn’t have problems) but they quickly escalated and I reckon I’ve lost about £1000 since then. 

How do I feel? Sick. Pig sick. 

The only saving grace is that I still have some savings left and I didn’t go completely berserk. But that is scant consolation. 

I am a good guy as everyone who knows me would vouch for. A reliable guy. A trustworthy guy. But I am keeping one massive secret from everyone and that is my gambling problem. I’ve come to realise that I cannot do this on my own and I need to tell someone about it. I need that incentive! So I will tell one of my best friends about my gambling problem when we next meet up for a drink.

I tried to arrange counselling sessions through GamCare but I bottled it at the last moment. I suffer from anxiety and I simply couldn’t go through with it! So I need all the help and encouragement from people on here.

My life is quite an empty one, filled with struggle and difficulties. Admittedly, some are my own doing. I have very few friends after I stopped going out several years ago and my girlfriend, who I love so much, works away a lot of the time so I feel like I hardly see her. It’s complicated. So many times we’ve talked about splitting up but neither of us want that. So I guess I gamble because I’m bored and in need of some thrill. I’m losing interest in sports unless I have a bet on it. I never used to be like that. 

I expect and probably deserve criticism for my actions over the last couple of months but I’d appreciate you going easy on me for a little while at least. I’m desperate to quit and to become a success story. My life needs to turn round soon before it’s too late.

My journey for freedom starts here.....

Thanks for reading, folks

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 14:48

tara2

Joined:
2013-01-27

Yes!  great, before it gets too bad you decided to nip this gambling out of your life and get some assistance.  Having some savings is a total asset in this bizare world of compulsive gambling which takes all we have and then digs a hole of debt.  I have forseen myself going into that hole... life is hard enough and the lossess have been huge enough and the amount of years I've suffered has been enough... so enough is enough!  Good for you in reaching out my friend.  tara2

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 15:22

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thank you for your kind words, Tara. What is your situation? If you don’t mind me asking? 

Yes, having savings is good I suppose but it’s not a lot and I constantly worry about my car failing and having to fork out for repairs. I don’t have that much. I’m constantly on edge all the time and most of that is down to my gambling habits. I need to kick it into touch once and for all. I almost need to redirect my life away from sport which is going to be incredibly hard as it’s been a massive part of my life up to now. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to watch sport again without thinking about betting. 

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 17:38

Sars27

Joined:
2017-06-02

Hey hey buddy ! I know you it this time around ! Forget the past and move forward ! Maybe learn from the mistake but don’t make it a habit . I remember we started about the same time and I’m sure you’ll do great ! 

Sars

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 17:59

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

 

Sars27 wrote:

Hey hey buddy ! I know you it this time around ! Forget the past and move forward ! Maybe learn from the mistake but don’t make it a habit . I remember we started about the same time and I’m sure you’ll do great ! 

Sars

Yes, we did start around the same time if I remember rightly. Only you went on to bigger and better things! :) you’ve done really well mate. It just shows that it can be done. 

Thanks for your kind words Sars. 

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 18:48

brewster180

Joined:
2015-07-05

Hi Dan

Just read your post and I to went gamble free but came off the wagon.

The key to your recovery is to be honest and I find talking to someone close is very important. It's hard to explain to people who are not addicted to gambling but you need to keep busy and have constant reminders about the pain and hurt gambling does. I find that keeping a list of the bad things that gambling can do to Mr helps.

Keep your chin up and you will work through this.

Brewster

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 20:12

Stephen The Strong

Joined:
2017-05-10

Welcome back to the diaries my friend. 

It won't be easy, it never is, but it can be done.

I was quite fond of Moorey (aka Desperate Dan) but feel that DeterminedDan is the best man for this war. I am sure he will have some surprises in store for the addiction as he leads his troops into battle. Rumour has it he is a great tactician and strategist, a true warrior who displays great courage on the battlefield and has a flair for the unusual. 

I believe the gambling demons are going to get their backsides whopped big time. DeterminedDan is on the move and we are all with him every step of the way. Yihaaa let's rock n roll.

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 20:30

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thanks for your kind and wise words, Brewster and Stephen.

I’m trying to look at things positvely tonight....

My first attempt at quitting was 10 days. Followed by 28 days. Then 34 days and lastly (my most recent) 65 days. So I am improving. 

I remember how great it felt being gamble free, especially during those 65 days. I felt like I could walk everywhere with my head held high. I want that feeling again and I am determined to make this work. Small beginnings....

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 21:54

sjw

Joined:
2017-10-27

Welcome back to the forum Moorey/Dan. I know this isn't how you wanted to be back here but you've shown this place can help you so choosing to be back here is a good thing. You know what you need to do and you know that you can do it. It's about tightening them blocks and taking more help as and when you need it.

Don't be ashamed to ask for help. Its easier to get the help along the way than it is to keep picking yourself up after a relapse.

Wishing you all the best mate, i'll be around as previous. You can do this  =)

Posted on:
Mon, 19/02/2018 - 08:40

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thanks sjwsjw. Much appreicated.

Today is Day 1....

Off to do some shopping today. Hopefully It’ll help to clear my head and will do me some good. 

I’m still smarting from the last few days so it’ll take a while to get over it. 

Have a good day folks. Stay gamble free.

Dan

Posted on:
Mon, 19/02/2018 - 08:56

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Just keep on fighting Dan, you show determination by keep coming back and posting. Like you said you've done 65 days before and felt good so you can do it again. Just small steps especially through these first few weeks. Just keep posting and talking my friend.

Wilsy

Posted on:
Mon, 19/02/2018 - 12:15

Stephen The Strong

Joined:
2017-05-10

Holding on to the  dream ~ A gamble free life offering hope and opportunity

Dan the man has set out on his mission. Head held high and shoulders squared.

Stout hearted, iron willed and showing a steely resolve. This brave soul ventures forth with courage and hope.

 

 

Posted on:
Mon, 19/02/2018 - 16:58

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Just a quick question....

I am currently in the very early stages of my recovery and I am interested to find out what other people have done to replace the ‘buzz’ that gambling brings with it. We all know that for problem gamblers like ourselves, it inevitably leads to disaster, but the routine that comes along with gambling seems very hard to replace. 

For me, sport (both watching and playing) has played a massive part in my life. But the sad thing is I’ve nearly always watched it with some kind of a bet on it. If I haven’t got a bet on, I don’t seem to bother watching it. But because it’s been such a big part of my life, it feels like it’s too big a gap to fill with stuff that others have recommended. Running, reading etc. 

Are there any sports fans out there that have found a way to find watching sport exciting again without the need to have a bet riding on it?

The thought of ridding sport from my life upsets me slightly but what upsets me more is the fact that it was betting that I relied on so heavily to keep me interested in sport. Ironically it was online casinos and FOBTS that we’re doing 99% of the damage. But that was a result of a lost (small) bet in sport. 

I feel that it’s ‘routine’ that’s been holding me back over these last 12 months. I’ve always liked routine and always looked back to those happier times gambling. The close and dramatic wins etc! Stupidly neglecting the dark times like I’m currently experiencing right now. Then the ‘routine’ has led to not being able to cope with even small gambling losses so I’ve then gone on to chase my losses. 

I do feel like this is my breakthrough moment in my quest to become gamble free. I’m not saying I’ve mastered it. Far from it. But. I now feel like I understand my addiction a lot more and I’m hoping to find ways to tackle those urges.

Sorry I’m rambling...

Posted on:
Mon, 19/02/2018 - 21:03

Annie2016

Joined:
2016-05-01

Hi Dan - well done on all your periods gamble free. I totally understand what you mean about needing something to fill the void of gambling, when I was in my longest gamble free phase of 160 days I began reading books again which definitely helped and in reflection I haven't read any since relapsing, so I may start that again. Sadly I do turn to food too which is not good especially when I'm tired and I really feel the urge to gamble. I think though by considering your question I am going to start to read a new book  by the end of the week - exercise is great but sometimes in those 5 minutes of unplanned time when you are on your own and thoughts of gambling come exercise may not always be practical so a book - a gripping thriller maybe - might be more suited to those unexpected moments when relapse can feel imminent. Thsnks for your question as it has made me realise perhaps what helped me to succeed previously. Good luck - sure you can beat this! 

 

Posted on:
Mon, 19/02/2018 - 21:10

Julie_36

Joined:
2017-10-23

Dan, I found going walking, reading and watching Netflix helped loads. Also making time to see friends and make new ones . Good luck on your journey.

Julie x​

Posted on:
Mon, 19/02/2018 - 21:51

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thanks Annie and Julie for your messages. 

I totally agree with what you both say about reading. I simply don’t read enough. I think the last book I read was about Mr Bump falling down the stairs! Haha! 

But seriously, I’ve just completed an autobiography in 3 days. The urges I had to keep picking up that book were unreal. 

However, controversially, the book was Paul Merson’s autobiography. A former high profile footballer who battled through drink, drugs and severe gambling problems. Why did I choose to read his book? I was simply fascinated on how someone of his status, on mega money, could get drawn into gambling in the same way as any ordinary person like ourselves. 

I’m not sure if I should be reading books about people with gambling problems but I figured that it was only like reading people’s diaries on here. Only it was a celebrity that I still love and admire to this day. What disappointed me though was that he finishes the book by saying that he still gambles today (even though he’s lost about £10 million). Albeit in “a more affordable way” (Is there such thing for a compulsive gambler?.....surely not!) I was hoping for a happy ending. Interestingly, other articles that I’ve read about famous sportsmen/celebs that have had gambling problems in the past also claim to still gamble today. Jeremy Kyle being one of them. It’s quite worrying. Are they kidding themselves? Or have they really modified their ways? I certainly don’t think I’m capable of it. 

Dan

Posted on:
Tue, 20/02/2018 - 07:41

merlins

Joined:
2018-02-14

I am a lot like you l, Dan. My life is a bit empty and boring so I needed some excitement and thrill. So betting wiped out my saving in the last relapse even though I had been a very careful person on gambling and money. Now my problem is I want to put a large bet and quit betting.

Posted on:
Tue, 20/02/2018 - 11:03

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Hi Dan, i've not read the book I suppose Paul Merson just gave up trying to give up and has accepted for his own piece of mind that he is a gambler and he can't beat it. I have felt like that before, tried explaining to parents that for over 25 years I have gambled and have tried giving up numerous times but I can't. Sometimes I would relapse because of the pressure to try and succeed for my parents sake but since then I now know that I don't want to be a gambler anymore, I don't want the pain and stress it brings me. I will have to have a read of that book!

Have another good day today, continue to believe you can knock this on the head for good.

Wilsy

Posted on:
Tue, 20/02/2018 - 11:12

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

 

Thanks Wilsy! Top man. 

Yes it’s a fascinating book. A must read for any football lover and particularly those like ourselves that are battling gambling addiction. I’ve just downloaded Keith Gillespie’s book. He was another high profile sportsman who got sucked in to a gambling addiction. I think the more books like this I read, the more information I’ll gather on how their gambling started and how they’re managing it. It also provides a sense of perspective that ANYONE can fall victim to the horrible addiction. 

Have a good day too Wilsy.

Posted on:
Tue, 20/02/2018 - 12:09

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

2 days gamble free. 

Still feel those dark clouds overhead but it’s still very early days. 

Posted on:
Tue, 20/02/2018 - 13:18

burko26

Joined:
2017-06-16

Well done Dan. Great start. Good on you for finding reading as an outlet. I am trying creative writing - I have started carrying a notebook and pen round with me (a proper pen, not one of those horrible blue ones you can get in many shops on most high streets....) . I hope that you can take strength from today and yesterday and then think of that tomorrow. But for now, enjoy today, enjoy your lunch break and have a good afternoon.

Posted on:
Tue, 20/02/2018 - 15:55

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Gosh, i remember now how slowly these early stages of recovery go.... time seems to go much faster once you’ve accumulated 20 days or so gamble free. 

I just keep remembering how happy I felt within myself when I was 30,40,50,60 days gamble free. I can remember where I was for some of those milestones and it’s those memories that are keeping me going. I want to return back to those peaceful, guilt free and happy times again.

Posted on:
Tue, 20/02/2018 - 16:12

Annie2016

Joined:
2016-05-01

well done dan. You are doing great. I still haven't started my next book although I did pretend to start it a couple of months ago but was actually gambling on my phone - which was hidden by the book - so this week I will start. Sounds like you have your head screwed on and know what you want. Good luck - you can do it!

Posted on:
Wed, 21/02/2018 - 11:30

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

11:26am will not mean anything to anyone else....but it’s the time of day that I had my last relapse.

Which means I’ve just ticked over 3 days gamble free. 

I’m taking things very slowly at the moment. I realise that this first week or so is a big test. 

I’m certainly not taking things for granted at the moment. Always on my guard.

Thankfully, thanks to my last extended abstinence and the fact that I didn’t go ‘all the way’ with my last gambling bout, I still have some semblence of savings. 

I just need to carry on battling, hour by hour at the moment. 

I keep telling myself that it DOES get easier. I remember from last time. 

Dan

Posted on:
Wed, 21/02/2018 - 12:37

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

The way I try and deal with recovery, especially in the early stages, is to simply fight through until the close of play (bed time). By hook or crook, make sure you don’t gamble and put all your efforts and concentration into NOT gambling.

You can then earn your rest whilst you sleep over night. 

In the morning, you resume battle.

It doesn’t always stay like that, as the days stack up, it does get slightly easier.

I try to put as much daylight between the present and my last bout of gambling.

It may seem like you’re wishing your life away thinking like that, but it’s my way of dealing with it. 

I’m very impatient when it comes to things like that and I want to race ahead to 50 days and beyond. 

But I know that I will get there eventually. I just have to keep my mind focused on the job in hand.

Posted on:
Wed, 21/02/2018 - 13:30

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

I agree with everything you are saying above mate. Thanks for your post on my diary and keep up the good fight Dan, you are winning each day.

Wilsy

Posted on:
Wed, 21/02/2018 - 21:21

Annie2016

Joined:
2016-05-01

Well done Dan. Each minute in every hour is an accomplishment. 

Posted on:
Wed, 21/02/2018 - 21:24

2018

Joined:
2018-02-14

Dan - I could not have put that better! Every single waking minute is a huge battle and when I get into bed I think “thank f... I’ve made it through another day” and I brace myself for tomorrow. It’s a real hard slog... just hope it gets better.

Posted on:
Wed, 21/02/2018 - 21:58

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Well, I’d be lying through my teeth if I said that wasn’t a difficult day. 

I’m fighting really hard at the moment to stay positive. The whole process still feels so raw and I’m desperate to get as far away from my last bout of gambling as possible. Unfortunately, this takes time and patience. 

For now, I’m just relieved to get through today. 

The positive thing is I don’t feel like gambling and neither have I been tempted. 

I just want to race up to a big number. 

It’s all my own doing though so I’ve got nobody but myself to blame for this predicament. 

Tomorrow I live to fight another day.

Goodnight Gamcare friends x

Posted on:
Wed, 21/02/2018 - 22:01

2018

Joined:
2018-02-14

Keep fighting Dan. I’ll be following your journey. You sound like a really decent guy... and a lot of your comments are very similar to mine.

Posted on:
Wed, 21/02/2018 - 22:05

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Cheers 2018, I appreciate your kind words. I’ll always hope to be 4 days behind you in the quest for freedom. 

I’ll be following your journey too buddy! 

Another day conquered!... Let the battle commence tomorrow....

Posted on:
Thu, 22/02/2018 - 09:13

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

4 days gamble free.

Still feeling pretty down about recent events.

But for now I simply must keep busy. Which is quite difficult as I have a week off work. I’d probably rather be at work at this point. I’d certainly be a lot more occupied. 

Here starts another day....

Posted on:
Thu, 22/02/2018 - 09:26

2018

Joined:
2018-02-14

 

Your posts really perked me up last night and this morning. I feel a bit different today... don’t know why. I listened to a hypnotherapy video on YouTube last night and I’m not saying it worked but it differently left me feeling different. Really weird. I’ve not had the same urge to chase anything today.

Keep going Dan and try to stay busy!

Posted on:
Thu, 22/02/2018 - 09:51

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

I’m looking back on so many memories around Christmas time with my family when I was gamble free and had over 60 days to my name. I felt such at peace about the whole thing. I’m eyeing up those times again. 

I’m glad you’re feeling perked up mate. Keep going too! 

You’re doing great! 

Posted on:
Thu, 22/02/2018 - 10:40

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Day 5 for you my friend, nice and easy build them days up again and you'll soon have 60+ days to your name again and feel much better.

Have a great Thursday, remain positive.

Wilsy

Posted on:
Thu, 22/02/2018 - 19:30

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Another long and difficult day....

4 days and 8 hours since my last gamble. It really is a case of taking it hour by hour. 

I never thought I’d hear myself say this but I can’t wait for work next Monday. My day is often busy and full on so maybe that’ll be a welcome relief to my mindset. 

Posted on:
Fri, 23/02/2018 - 10:45

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

5 days gamble free.

My first target of a week is not too far away now. Still playing this hour by hour. 

I must admit I really struggled yesterday for motivation. 

I should have gone out for a run but I chose to stay in all day, pig out with food and watch a boxset. 

At least I’m still gamble free. 

I’ve worked out that on average, I spend £20 a day on gambling. 

So my total saved so far is £100.00. That’s how I’m going to look at it. That makes me feel slightly better.

Posted on:
Fri, 23/02/2018 - 15:02

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Pigging out and watching a box-set sounds perfect to me who rarely exercises. The Spring and Summer are around the corner, exercise then mate.

Well done on five days gamble free and £100 saved, keep doing what you are doing and maybe put five pounds away inside a savings pot and spend it at the end of the month on something you enjoy.

Have a great weekend.

Wilsy

Posted on:
Fri, 23/02/2018 - 17:32

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thanks Wilsy. 

Feeling pretty down at the moment. I’m not really sure why but it doesn’t feel good. I need to be back at work where there’s more distractions for me. 

It’s incredibly sad, but I feel that losing gambling from my life is like losing a family member. It’s what I’ve been used to. 

I need to lose that pathetic attitude and hopefully in time, I will. 

I don’t care how **** I’m feeling though, I am NOT going to gamble today. Definitely not!

I want these days to mount up. Hopefully as each day passes, the fog will begin to clear and I can become happier again. 

Dan

Posted on:
Fri, 23/02/2018 - 17:44

2018

Joined:
2018-02-14

I have similar thoughts Dan.. “oh I enjoyed picking the form etc... oh Monday morning is going to be boring without a bet on my mobile in the office”. It’s not normal though. It’s too much. As you said as well, I won’t be partaking in gambling anymore.

Posted on:
Fri, 23/02/2018 - 18:33

Emel

Joined:
2018-02-22

 

well done on 5 days Dan, day 6 is closer than ever. Have you got any plans for tonight? take your mind off gambling. As you know i have fell off the horse, so I am going to do what I should have done 2 hours ago and do some house work...boring but free!! I am thinking of trying to take up some form of excercise to try and fight these demons in my head. Im so unfit though so would need to start with a walk.

Have a good night Dan

 

 

Posted on:
Fri, 23/02/2018 - 20:03

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

No plans for me tonight other than doing some food shopping.

I’m going to get home, have a shower, put a pizza in the oven, open a bottle of wine and carry on watching some telly.

As you say, it’s free!

I was tempted to buy myself a basic £10-£15 mobile phone tonight to use as my every day phone to hopefully curb any temptation of gambling online. 

I didn’t in the end but I think I might do over the weekend. 

Dan

Posted on:
Fri, 23/02/2018 - 20:07

merlins

Joined:
2018-02-14

Hey Dan, Pizza, Wine and some tv shows sound good to me. Enjoy!

DeterminedDan wrote:

No plans for me tonight other than doing some food shopping.

I’m going to get home, have a shower, put a pizza in the oven, open a bottle of wine and carry on watching some telly.

As you say, it’s free!

I was tempted to buy myself a basic £10-£15 mobile phone tonight to use as my every day phone to hopefully curb any temptation of gambling online. 

I didn’t in the end but I think I might do over the weekend. 

Dan

Posted on:
Fri, 23/02/2018 - 20:42

Emel

Joined:
2018-02-22

 

DeterminedDan wrote:

No plans for me tonight other than doing some food shopping.

I’m going to get home, have a shower, put a pizza in the oven, open a bottle of wine and carry on watching some telly.

As you say, it’s free!

I was tempted to buy myself a basic £10-£15 mobile phone tonight to use as my every day phone to hopefully curb any temptation of gambling online. 

I didn’t in the end but I think I might do over the weekend. 

Dan

food, tv and wine sounds bliss! I was tempted to have a little beverage but it would mean a trip to the shop for some mixer. I am sitting doing some work on the laptop. I am off on holiday soon, a nice little log cabin in the middle of no where. right now it cannot come quick enough. cheapy mobile is the way to go if you feel it will help, what about a bet blocker?

 

Posted on:
Fri, 23/02/2018 - 21:05

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

 

Emel wrote:

 

DeterminedDan wrote:

No plans for me tonight other than doing some food shopping.

I’m going to get home, have a shower, put a pizza in the oven, open a bottle of wine and carry on watching some telly.

As you say, it’s free!

I was tempted to buy myself a basic £10-£15 mobile phone tonight to use as my every day phone to hopefully curb any temptation of gambling online. 

I didn’t in the end but I think I might do over the weekend. 

Dan

food, tv and wine sounds bliss! I was tempted to have a little beverage but it would mean a trip to the shop for some mixer. I am sitting doing some work on the laptop. I am off on holiday soon, a nice little log cabin in the middle of no where. right now it cannot come quick enough. cheapy mobile is the way to go if you feel it will help, what about a bet blocker?

 

I’m not sure a bet block would work. I’ve heard some negative reviews about them and I think a £10 mobile would suit me better.

Where abouts are you going for your holiday? Sounds great. 

Posted on:
Sat, 24/02/2018 - 09:23

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 6

So what does today hold in store for me?

Theoretically it should be the toughest day of the week to negotiate. I would normally be scanning my phone to look for bets to place on the football this weekend. Maybe screenshotting them and sending them across to my friends. 

But today I’m going to try and stay clear of any football until this afternoon when I’m out watching my local team.

Then tonight I’m out with my cousin. Hopefully he won’t talk much about the football from today and I can make it through to the close of play unscathed. 

Have a great Saturday folks!

Posted on:
Sat, 24/02/2018 - 09:27

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

One method I use to help me with my recovery is statistics.

I’ve just worked out that since I’ve been gambling (since my last period of abstinence), I lost about £1,250.... the 6 days that I am currently gamble free, I’ve currently saved 9.46% of that money. Meaning I’m almost 1/10th of recovering that money back. 

It’s a daft way of looking at it but it’s one of the ways that keeps me focused and determined to stay away from gambling.

Posted on:
Sat, 24/02/2018 - 10:10

Emel

Joined:
2018-02-22

 

 

Well done on day 6.

Im not actually sure what its called, a friend booked it, Its only a couple of hours away but its away from home. 

Is there anything you can do today to distract yourself until you go out? 

 

I am now focusing on clearing debts, working out what one to pay most to first. I think this will help keep me on track. Im really annoyed at myself today so i think that will keep me from playing slots.

 

 

Posted on:
Sat, 24/02/2018 - 10:20

Annie2016

Joined:
2016-05-01

Good luck today Dan. It's interesting to realise how far the net of gambling stretches - that it includes sports fans like you, people addicted to online slots and roulette like me and those who go in betting shops. And although we all have different vices and weaknesses it effects us all. I can hear football focus blaring away as my partner watching it but in a gambling way it has no effect on me - if only we could develop an immunity to our weakness. Have a wonderful Saturday. I love your statistics - I think that's really helpful in recognising progress. 

Posted on:
Sat, 24/02/2018 - 10:21

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

It sounds lovely. It’ll give you something to look forward to and to count down for :)

I’m not sure what I can do before I go out. I’ll just stick to watching some comedy on tv and making endless amounts of coffee. Haha!

Have a great Saturday, Emel!

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Sat, 24/02/2018 - 19:23

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

I’ve almost made it to the end of today. It’s been tough. The weekends were always going to be my toughest tests. But I’ve come through today and will face the fight of tomorrow after a well earned rest tonight. 

The money that I’ve saved on not gambling (based on my Quit App) stands at £126.61....

In times of difficulty, I refer to this app and enjoy watching that figure rise by the minute as it tells me I’m making progress and recovering the damage from my last episode. It helps to keep my spirits high as it doesn’t do me any good to feel down. 

Dan

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