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Posted on:
Sun, 10/06/2018 - 21:22

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

 

Mini rollcall - 10th June 2018

Good evening everyone and welcome to the latest mini-rollcall. It is sad to read that some of us have relapsed over the last week. You won’t find me being judgemental about it - I’ve relapsed many times over the years and paid the price. It’s sad, though, because three things can happen when we fall off the wagon:

  1. The first small bet quickly leads to a destructive loss. I’ve read too many times where someones stopped for a year, saved £10k then relapsed and lost that £10k and another £10k. Heartbreaking :(
  2. A ‘slow motion’ falling off the wagon, where increasingly half-hearted efforts to stop ensue. In other words, falling back into old ways. Equally heartbreaking.
  3. A quick realisation that this has happened and an immediate getting back onto the ‘gambling free’ path. This is coupled with a review of what caused the release, and what can be done about it.

I like to think that we are all minded to go for option 3 on this Challenge, but realise we are all different. Certainly, an honest approach always helps, because is shows respect to yourself and with those you share, even if it’s anonymous like on these forums.

 

 Also bear in mind the gambling triangle of opportunity, time and money. Remove one of these factors and you can’t gamble. Without opportunity (gaming site, bookies etc) you can’t gamble. Nor can you without the time. Similarly if you have no means (money). Practical steps that do the job, if you can. That are emotional steps to take too; like counselling, GA, visiting the doctors and much, much more. This site has a wealth of info as most of us know. 

Egham - thank you for checking in. 13 days - ‘unlucky’ for some, but lucky for you because you’re creating your own good luck by making the right decisions.

xangle11x - thank you for your honesty about your recent relapse and great to see you’re doing something about it. Remember - break the triangle and you can’t gamble :)

Godoicul - A very good song choice and, as always, the medium of music adds that extra emotional attachment that we sometimes need to bolster up our determination to succeed. You’re doing great.

Jeffutd - 40 days gambling free under your belt and continuing to motor, one day at a time. I’ve responded to a couple of your threads elsewhere. Keep going!

Stephen67 - keep going, my friend. It’s (irritatingly) weird how the gambling devil can sneak up on us when we least expect it. Keep trying to ensnare the little ****** !

caughtup - delighted to read that you’ve immediately recognised that dipping your toe in the gambling swimming pool is the very worst thing you can do; so you’re starting again, all the wiser. That’s good!

Tara2 - casinos appear to be your weakness; why not bite the bullet, say “to hell with it” and ban yourself from the lot  - playingsafe.org.uk will do just that :) 

Ukds69 - thank you for your kind words. And chipping in with some suggestions as to what to call these cynical, destructive gambling companies. 

boxingdayfresh - It’s difficult to deal with finances without someone with whom to entrust our money. But there are things you can do; here are a few suggestions (the third post in this thread) - http://www.gamcare.org.uk/forum/“i”-will-never-have-money-again 

Chartom3 - Great to hear from you and thank you for the kind words. Doing great on 180+ days; keep it going, my friend. Never easy, but we’re all with you here.

Bigmug - thank you for your update; keeping away from gambling temptations is an absolute minimum as you know; putting in blocks the next very big step.

Adam123 - thank you as always for your sterling support with this thread; it’s great to know that the good vibes we have are kept going with sincere support from fellow Challengers such as your good self. Also great to see you back in the gambling free ‘seat’.

Here's a poem:

 

 For years you have held me in your grasps,
taking all that me.
Destroying every bit of goodness,
that I could see.

Hour after hour,
I would sit in front of you.
Pressing spin, or upping the ante,
trying to impress who?

I've left you so many times,
but each time found myself back,
You keep close to me,
waiting for a crack.

Some days I was strong,
and you had no hold.
But you stayed close to me,
ready to welcome me back into the fold.

I've lied to everyone,
and many believe my story.
One day it wouldn't matter,
because I'd find my glory.

I'd strike it rich,
and the money would flow free.
And what a big shot,
everyone will see in me.

There once was a time,
when we were friends I'm sure.
But enjoyment and peace,
you give me no more.

You helped me escape,
from everything in life.
But it all comes back in the end,
and cuts like a knife.

I could have had everything I wanted,
without wagering a dollar.
But you took it all,
and left me in squalor.

But the battle carries on,
and eventually I'll win.
For every time you've knocked me down,
I've stood up again.

I've told my family
and I've told my friends
I admitted my wrongs,
and try to make amends.

Things have been lost,
which I cannot regain.
They stay with me in my heart,
and oft feel the pain.

I can see the true me,
when I keep you at bay.
I can keep my head high,
when I live just for today.

I'm not a perfect man,
and never will be.
But that doesn't mean,
life has no happiness for me.

For when I accept,
the problem within.
I finally see,
a game I can win.

Just for today I did not gamble(Anon, Aug 2013)    

Keep smiling everyone! 

Mixer

 

Posted on:
Sun, 10/06/2018 - 21:54

tara2

Joined:
2013-01-27

Mixer, I am in the usa so the tribal casinos do not offer the full multi destination exclusion... have to be done one by one.  I am excluded at 7 within an hour and 1/2.  I recented traveled to one that is a 2hour drive away and played then was so exhausted , put all wins and then some back into the machines .  I was so exhausted that I was happy that it was still day light and I left without excluding and just drove home.  So I am not planning on driving to those further out of the way places.  I'll have to exclude if I ever have to drive through the areas they are in for some other reason.  I have to self exclude when I travel anywhere new that is near a casino and call ahead of time and not go in by myself.  Or I have to have the strength and time in recovery to not go in at all, even without an exclusion.  Right now, I am excluded at all the local ones and I will not drive to a casino , out of the way, just for a drive and to self exclude.  There are tooooo many places in this state and beyond.  Gotta cultivate some recovery here.  tara2

Posted on:
Sun, 10/06/2018 - 22:38

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Ah.... my apologises Tara; didn’t realise you are from across the pond :) and therefore not so straightforward to ban yourself. 

My bad, and It’s clear you’ve got a strategy in place :)

Posted on:
Sun, 10/06/2018 - 22:54

tara2

Joined:
2013-01-27

No problem mixer.  :)  I appreciate any and all help and support and YOU give so much.  Thank YOU.  I've been tripping around and hopefully , by sharing and reflecting I'll be able to see myself and reveal those part of myself that are still not in alignment with full recovery.  I hope that my bad choice (s) are like medicine that help me to learn more about how my mind /subconcious tries to keep secrets and keep doors open.  How transparent and vulnerable can we be?  Really , I don't know.  I'm going through the process and learning.  I appreciate the hard edged truths about needing blocks of all kinds.  tara2

Posted on:
Mon, 11/06/2018 - 08:07

Slot Fool

Joined:
2017-09-20

Quick check in. 214 days gamble free. Hope you all have a good week.

Posted on:
Mon, 11/06/2018 - 14:02

Bigmug

Joined:
2018-05-30

13 days gf,feeling wealthier and happier.good luck all

Posted on:
Tue, 12/06/2018 - 00:54

4D

Joined:
2010-02-10

Hallo to all the challengers hope everyone is doing OK tonight.

Sorry to hear you've been under the weather Mixer but well done on cutting down on the demon drink. And a massive congrats on your 300 days!!!

To tell the truth I have been meaning to log on again here for a while, world cup coming up and this used to be my only real world / bookies temptation (everything else was online which I'm firmly excluded from). So a bit nervous about that but nor do I want to throw away my 279 hard won gf days. Think I will try and keep busy and not take too much notice of the footy and not get sucked into any sweepstakes etc.

Online is much easier to avoid now as so many blocks in place and even the ads on TV are less irritating, my main strategy is keeping busy working a lot and studying for 2 lots of exams!!! Seems to be working so I'll carry on :) take care all and keep strong . remember if you can beat this one day at a time you will develop mental toughness and be able to do so much so keep going challengers!!!

Posted on:
Tue, 12/06/2018 - 07:08

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Checking in on 30 days gamble free :)

Hope you’re doing ok, Mixer. Congratulations on bringing up your triple century. You’re edging closer to that 1 year milestone! A top effort mate. Well done!

Dan

Posted on:
Tue, 12/06/2018 - 12:17

Serendipity77

Joined:
2018-03-29

Checking in my 6th week gamble free. Still determined to keep this way and facing the urges as they come. Sometimes it’s easy and sometimes is hell but coming through the other side stronger as the days go by. It’s the evenings I fear most as I’m normally on my own but I have controls in place that make impossible for me to access gambling sites in all my electronic devices. One day at a time. Have a good week everyone!

Posted on:
Tue, 12/06/2018 - 15:48

wardal1979

Joined:
2016-11-27

Day 24 for me ... and feeling great .. much love all xxx

Posted on:
Wed, 13/06/2018 - 11:15

Jeffutd

Joined:
2015-04-04

50 days feeling fantastic!!

Posted on:
Wed, 13/06/2018 - 16:47

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Congratulations mixer on ur 300 days im back to 0 again. My daughters not too gd. My stepdad just passed away i cant get out of this hole at mo im sure i will but who knows how long it will be

Posted on:
Wed, 13/06/2018 - 20:51

adam808

Joined:
2017-08-27

Day 46. Felt close last night but thankfully the blocks I have in place make it impossible to gamble. 

Posted on:
Wed, 13/06/2018 - 21:38

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Mini catch-up - 13th June 2018

Good evening everyone. We're approaching the middle of the month. When in the throes of gambling, I would normally be skint by now and pining for payday at the end of the month. Beans on toast for 2 weeks kind-of-thing. A dulls-ville horrible feeling I never want to repeat. Much better to come home from work or wherever with a bit of money in my pocket. (Today, £1.60: what I had left out of the £5 I started with.) 

It's not easy, I know that. But we've gotta try, whatever happens, whatever the provovation.

tara2 - I'm loving your posts, as always, and loving your attitude that can accept 'hard edge truths' that we all, myself included, need to hear. You're going great guns, Tara :)

Slot Fool - Cruising past the 200 day milestone and keeping that momentum. Thank you for checkng in. Great stuff, my friend: your progress puts a smile on my face and it's motivational to me, and all of us.

Bigmug - excellent. Two weeks under your belt with a payday that will soon appear over the horizon (unless you get paid weekly or otherwise). The big test to come; let's see the 'white of your eyes'. Let's see you get past a month, one day at a time. Get those blocks ready; consider all measures necessary.

4D - Very pleased to read of your progress. Forget the World Cup in terms of betting - it truly is a lottery this time round and the odds (and overround) will be stacked in favour of the operators. Don't even bother; waste of time and money. Enjoy the football by all means - they'll be some shocks alright, but keep your money in your pocket. Your studying is your future; you're quite rightly sticking to that. Doing really well :)

Determined Dan - thank you for your kind words! I've cut right back on the drinking: 7 pints , over 3 sessions, in 19 days. (Last bad binge 27th May. Can't do it anymore - doctors orders.) You're doing fantastic with a month gambling free. It shows you care, not just for yourself but those around you who want to see you succeed. Fantastic!

Serendipity - Do I like words like this: "...I have controls in place that make impossible for me to access gambling sites in all my electronic devices." Excellent stuff. If you put in the blocks, then you insure yourself against times of weakness. Top drawer!

Wardal1979 - Great to read that you're feeling good. And why not? Being gambling free is hard ... but there's no reason why it shouldn't be fun, too. Sure, the gambling 'devil' will be biting your ankles and sulking like mad but it doesn't mean you have to be dragged down too. Keep going !

JeffUtd - Congratulations on your half century - bullseye! You're showing a serious commitment which matters, my friend. One day at a time, keep it going. Remember - you don't have to be miserable and stressed; you don't have to gamble!

Christer1 - I am sincerely saddened to read that sad events that have happened to you have sent you into gambling again. Without question, when we are impacted by what happens to our loved ones, it can be incredibly difficult. I am very sorry to hear of the passing of your stepdad and equally sorry your daughter isn't well. You are in our thoughts; you are one of the 'gang'. I hope you didn't lose too much when you relapsed and hope that, whilst in this grief and concern for your daughter, you'll be able to go gambling free. You've enough to contend with, and, as a friend - anonymous but a friend - I don't want to see you get unnecessarily in a more difficult position. Take care, Christer.

adam808 - A lovely post to finish this mini-catchup. In fact my post of the week. What you wrote, I couldn't put better myself and sums up, what, in my opinion, is the best 'way to 'go':

"Felt close last night but thankfully the blocks I have in place make it impossible to gamble."

Perfect Adam, just perfect :) 

Take care everyone - we're thinking of you Christer.

Until a few days time,

Mixer

Posted on:
Wed, 13/06/2018 - 23:52

Bigmug

Joined:
2018-05-30

Thank you mixer for you're kind words and inspiration,I will beat this I'm determined

Posted on:
Thu, 14/06/2018 - 00:16

JA72

Joined:
2018-05-08

This is really hard, it is making me miserable, but it has to be done to make me happier..Checking in at 38 days.

Had a really tough week and almost fell to temptation twice.

 

 

 

Posted on:
Thu, 14/06/2018 - 03:33

WhereIsMyMind

Joined:
2018-06-13

I will have some of this please. Im just starting day 6 without a bet and this seems a really positive part of this forum. I struggle to get past a payday without gambling and I’ve lost all hope I can beat this. But I can’t give up on giving up. This fight is incredibly hard as every time I’ve got money I seem to forget about the past and just think about how much I’m going to win. A few hours later a weeks wages will more than likely be gone. The more I win the more I want to gamble and the higher the amounts I want to gamble. I’m going to read some more threads from here as this is inspiring stuff! 

Posted on:
Thu, 14/06/2018 - 07:55

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Great post once again Mixer and thanks for your kind words.

I’m glad to hear that you’re cutting back on your drinking. Top man!

I’m sure in time you’ll feel the benefits. 

Thanks again mate. 

Dan

Posted on:
Thu, 14/06/2018 - 09:32

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Checking in for the week on day 187, still gamble free and hoping to push on through the 200 day mark.

Posted on:
Thu, 14/06/2018 - 16:57

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Thankyou for your kind words mixer

Posted on:
Fri, 15/06/2018 - 11:57

Godoicul

Joined:
2016-04-13

Checking in on day 175 gamble free. Have a great weekend everyone 

Posted on:
Fri, 15/06/2018 - 14:20

tara2

Joined:
2013-01-27

We've all probably got some details of life that have been put on hold due to gambling.  I have just not wanted to contend or deal with these details head on & for quite some time.  tara2

Posted on:
Fri, 15/06/2018 - 19:48

wardal1979

Joined:
2016-11-27

Day 27 today xx

Posted on:
Fri, 15/06/2018 - 21:25

adam808

Joined:
2017-08-27

Thank you Mixer for your kind words. My experience of trying to beat this is that you can never really trust yourself, and it's always important to have those 'procedures' in place when temptation gets too great. It's just a real shame it's taken this long to figure out how many blocks you need to put in place. But then again - you have to experience it to live and learn and rectify your mistakes.

In the past, the craving I had the other night would have led to a binge. I am still gamble free - and in fact tomorrow will be Day 50! Onwards and upwards.

Posted on:
Sat, 16/06/2018 - 01:37

Egdam

Joined:
2018-06-01

Checking in another week GF. Sorry haven’t said much other than checking in - I’ve been reading Allen Carr’s book “the easy way to quit gambling” and it really has helped. I thoroughly reccomened it to anyone, it helps take away ones desire to gamble. 

Posted on:
Sat, 16/06/2018 - 07:55

Slot Fool

Joined:
2017-09-20

Congratulations on the big 300 mixer!

Posted on:
Sat, 16/06/2018 - 07:56

Slot Fool

Joined:
2017-09-20

Checking in on day 219 of being GF and I am so happy to report that I have cleared the £5,950 of debt! Woohoo

Posted on:
Sat, 16/06/2018 - 12:04

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Checking in on 34 days gamble free.

Posted on:
Sat, 16/06/2018 - 14:05

WhereIsMyMind

Joined:
2018-06-13

Checking in on day 8 and feeling good that for the first Friday in ages I’ve not gambled. I was worried the World Cup would cause me issues, but I’m just enjoying the football for what is is and not worrying about getting a bet in. Early days for me but certainly less stressful days! 

Posted on:
Sat, 16/06/2018 - 16:07

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Im back on the recovery road my year ran out my bookies self exclusion which is why i relapsed now ive re self excluded from bookies and have gamstop in place

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 00:09

Sars27

Joined:
2017-06-02

Checking in ! 380 GF DAYS! Happy days :) thanks mixer for looking after the challenge ! I ain't planning to gamble again and I mean it ! 

Sars

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 06:39

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Good morning everyone and hoping you're enjoying the weekend.

I'll be posting a mini-update this evening; away on a mini-break with my family this weekend. Being a recovering problem gambler, day by day, not gambling, affords such pleasures. Rather than soullessly wasting money, I'm doing stuff with my loved ones. Guilt free.

I'm loving the positivity in the posts lately. It's not easy, this, but we can do it, and get used to the better life (compared to the ongoing 'dull, thudding headache' of the alternative).

As for the World Cup, let's enjoy it for what it is - an enjoyable celebration of the beautiful game.

Not worth a gamble; are we that one-dimensional everything has to revolve around a bet?

NO. We're better than that.

Have a great day everyone!

Mixer

 

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 07:48

xangel11x

Joined:
2018-02-23

Checking in on day 7, have a lovely weekend all x

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 10:16

boxingdayfresh

Joined:
2014-12-28

Checking in, 26 days. 

Been thinking less about gambling  and feels like ages since I quit but in fact it’s less than one pay day since!

Finances looking better already and not wasted down the drain at the slots. 

I just need to continue to see that this is the only way I’ll ever sort out my finances and become financially more stable. I hate being in debt and having no way to save anything significant due to such a large chunk paying off money owed every month. 

Got to do it this time ! No more back tracking .. been there many times over the past few years. This time it needs to be a permanent end to it all. Best wishes to you all for the gamble free coming week. 

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 10:17

wardal1979

Joined:
2016-11-27

Well done Mixer on 300 days ... and also well done Sars27.  Today I am 29 days GF and I also second Mixer’s words on how lovely it is to be able to spend money on pleasurable things with the family etc.  Not having to worry that there is no money left in the account for bills due to gambling.  This is the longest that I have can hand on my heart say I have been GF for xx much love all xx

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 18:36

Bigmug

Joined:
2018-05-30

19 days gf : -)

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 21:44

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

*** Sunday Catch-up ***

Good evening everyone! I hope you've had a good week and weekend. And maybe enjoying the football, if that's your thing. But not betting on it. The fact that a million accas went up in smoke with the Germany game is a moot point, because if we - as problem gamblers - win, then we keep going till we eventually lose, and then lose some more. That's why we can never enjoy a win - we don't keep it, and then lose it all and more. The definition of that is self-inflicted torture, surely!

Many experts suggest trying to block gambling out of your mind. It sounds good, in theory. The problem is, gambling is bloody everywhere. Telly, high street, devices - there's no hiding from it. So why not try this. If you do think about gambling, then do so. But think about how better things are that you're not gambling; being contented that you're making the right decision to abstain for life (my view of recovery; there are other views). Inwardly smile because you've made a consious effort to make this decision that will, in the main, make you feel relaxed, guilt free and contented.

Yes - you will feel undoubtedly feel 'cold turkey (I do, 300 days gambling free!). You will feel uncomfortable and irritable as the gambling devil 'deep within' kicks up an almighty fuss. And it will. And is. However make damn sure that the gambling devil knows it is an unwelcome tenant and you keep booting it out, to kingdom come, every time it has the temerity, the sheer cheek, the gall, the nerve, to cross your threshold. Picture that scene as you boot it into kingdom come.

Attitude of mind is key to this, in my opinion. Get the mindset in place and everything flows - getting the blocks in place and that inner focus to succeed, one day at a time. 

In other news .......... I would like to propose a change to the Guru Challenge, and that is that I dispense with the rollcall. The reason is twofold.

One, the 2018 Challenge admirably takes up that role, counting up the gambling free days. It has carried out this service, fit for purpose, for years. And two, I think a tweak of direction for our thread will improve it. Allow me to explain...

My proposal is that the Guru Challenge carries on with bi-weekly catch-ups, where everyone who posts (since the last catch-up) gets a guaranteed reply (from me, at the very least), this keeping our journeys very much alive with that guaranteed personal touch. Of course, we often post to each other on this thread and that fosters a great sense of comraderie - always unconditional, empathetic and genuinely helpul support, of course - and we're not afraid of 'tough love' either.

I hope this change of Challenge direction is helpful to everyone. There are quite a few of us now (around 30) and I've found myself spending much more time of the logistics of that, when I'd rather spend time with more personal replies. It provides a difference, and distinction from the excellent 2018 Challenge. And - if anyone does relapse (it happens..!!!) then I believe there a better chance of us 'bouncing back', instead of recoiling and disappearing because everyone knows you've hit "Day 0". We don't expect 'perfection' here - just a commitment to help ourselves help ourselves to deal with this addiction. For the avoidence of doubt, we all want to do whatever it takes to deal with this addiction; that's our indisputable aim. And we support each other unconditionally. 

Do let me know what you think. And now - on cue, let's see how we're getting on!

Bigmug - Really loving your determination and with 19 days under your belt, and a payday (if you're salaried) on the horizon we can see you hit that 30 days. It will beed blocks in place; bever be afraid to make 'em! Keep it going :)

JA72 - I've been reading your recent posts with alarm because the gambling devil within you is giving you a really **** time. The World Cup, I'm assuming, hasn't helped matters. I've written a personal message on your diary. Keep kicking that 'devil' in the shins and keep blocking. You're being tested and stepping up to the plate; recognise what's happening, and active on the Gamcare forums. You have the edge.

WhereIsMyMind - Welcome to our group. Like the name - we've all asked the same question, many times. Remember, our willpower is no help; we use it to sneakily start up gambling again; it works against us! Hence why we need other countermeasures, practical and mental (counselling, GA etc). Have you read this, might set off a few thoughts - http://www.gamcare.org.uk/forum/want-do-something-read (first post).

Determind Dan - thank you for your kind words. I've only had 10 pints in 21 days averaged over 4 sessions. Have dramatically reduced the booze. When the doctor says 'cut back' and provides evidence that even I can see (made me go white), then it really focuses the mind somewhat! I'm delighted to see you've chalked up 35 days gambling free (30 days+ means your serious) and that's fantastic, my friend.

Chartom3 - thank you for checking in and resolutely, quietly, determinedly heading for 200 days. You've had your 'dry run' before and this time, with zero complacency, you're back, and back in spades. Noted and respected.

Christer1 - I hope, in light of what's been happening in your life that you're heading towards as even a keel as possible. Sometimes, certain things happen and they turn our lives sideways and it's hard to keep control. We're with you, Christer, to help 'steady the ship', Ok.

Godoicul - Excellent progress. 177 days gambling free, almost half a year (183 days). I know I haven't put a 'hex' on you reaching that milestone, because I know you're bloody determined - say no more.

Tara2 - Hi Tara. You've written that you've a few things to sort out, and you will, in your own sweet time. Going gambling free affords us an element of control to make these decisions. One of the multitudinous advantages of being gambling-free is - more control. You start to dictate the pace, rather than let events run you - its no fun, forever 'chasing our tails'. All good, Tara :) !

Wardal1979 - I'm really genuinely pleased to see you appraoch 30 days; as I've said, this is the milestone that proves intent because within 30 days of a relapse, it's inevitable they'll be an element of 'free spend' to try and tempt us again. You see the benefits, and are happier. That 's what it's all about. Keep going, choose the better life all round!

Sars27 - thank you for checking and hope that everything is just fine for your and your lovely family. Your posts reassert your commitment with a healthy 'freshness' that symbolises both your spirit and inner steel. Superb!

xangel11 - I hope you had a good weekend, too! You're back, reaffirming your commitment to go gambling free and we can't ask for more than that. Keep blocking, and keep going - you know it makes sense !!!

Boxingdayfresh - When having to pay debts due to gambling, doing so can be demoralising. But ... there is always an end date, a time when the debts are cleared. Very motivational. Don't forget Stepchange or MoneySavingExpert to limit the interest charges. A 'quick win' that even Gamcare would approve of. You can engineer your own success, and how better things will be as that light at the end of the tunnel gets bigger. And there a better life to lead right now; some things are priceless and transend money. Like your loved ones, friends and family getting the real 'you' back!

Let's keep strong, keep blocking, and keep smiling, everybody!

Till next time,

Mixer

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 21:45

Fireboy83

Joined:
2018-06-16

Hello.

I've decided to start my journey today. Day 1.

Posted on:
Sun, 17/06/2018 - 21:45

wardal1979

Joined:
2016-11-27

Is anyone else finding that they are getting loads of text messages from sites you have never been on before ... trying to entice you ?  I am registered with GamStop and have GamBan installed ... but it is annoying ! 

Posted on:
Mon, 18/06/2018 - 12:08

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Thankyou mixer my family actually think me as a person actually cope with everthing well but its nice toget your advise

Posted on:
Mon, 18/06/2018 - 15:42

WhereIsMyMind

Joined:
2018-06-13

Thanks for the update Mixer, it felt good to read it and be part of the group. Thanks for the link you put in the update, it was really useful. I plan to start a recovery diary today and do plenty more reading on here. I'm on day 10 and feeling good!

Posted on:
Tue, 19/06/2018 - 07:29

Godoicul

Joined:
2016-04-13

Wow what a day yesterday was. Now that’s how I like to feel emotion when watching a game of football, not the sick feeling that you’ve done your ******** in again .I must say I’m really enjoying this World Cup so far. Took 2 week off to watch all the games. 0 temptation to place a bet which is how it should be.

Cheers for the update Mixer have a great week everyone

Posted on:
Tue, 19/06/2018 - 07:32

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

EXACTLY right, Godoicul!

 

Posted on:
Tue, 19/06/2018 - 09:52

Dmpowell81

Joined:
2018-05-01

Day 60! 40 to go to my target first milestone, yeah baby!!!

Posted on:
Tue, 19/06/2018 - 18:03

Jeffutd

Joined:
2015-04-04

Can’t believe it let myself down today been doing so well and I feel sick with absolute guilt and also loss of money back to square one 

Posted on:
Wed, 20/06/2018 - 01:10

tara2

Joined:
2013-01-27

Thx. Mixer and congrats.  I have alot going on right now , such is life.  tara

Posted on:
Wed, 20/06/2018 - 15:37

Stephen The Strong

Joined:
2017-05-10

Mixer the fixer's a gamcare elixir who gave us a worthy quest

Through tragic tears or beaming smiles we strive to do our best

Emboldened anew with hearts of oak and blessed with a hopeful soul

We're all gathered here together and ready to rock n roll

 

 

 

 

 

 

Posted on:
Wed, 20/06/2018 - 18:12

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Nice one, Stephen. My considered riposte :) ...

It isn't easy, Stephen, I'll be the first to admit

Subconsiously seeking hit after hit

But with preparation and sincere application

We can so exceed our expectations!

All the best Stephen, as always mate.

Mixer

Posted on:
Wed, 20/06/2018 - 19:34

tara2

Joined:
2013-01-27

Honesty~Honestly

Is the Key

The Breadth and Depth of it All...

Honesty is evolutionary in that we ourselves get closer to it by trying to live and express ourselves this way.

It's evolutionary, it's ever changing and words do not do honesty justice.

We feel and we transmit from an honest vulnerable heart space "something on the vibrational level" that others trust.

Honesty is an inside job at the core of our existance~a continuous exploration 

Raw, real, vulnerable

Yet, as well stated in Buddist Theology wisdom stories... it's not wise to be unprotected.

 

Posted on:
Wed, 20/06/2018 - 20:07

adam123

Joined:
2015-06-09

Hi peeps ive gone thru a difficult patch, one where i succumbed to gambling and proposed starting poker again on mondays to family and friends.  Once decided i was going again the devil was on my shoulder tempting me to play poker and go on fruit machines every day at every turn.  I wouldnt rest till id played and would continue untill id lost lots of money and felt suitable regret enough to warrent stopping again.  I went to a pub and put 6 pounds in a fruit machine, then went round a friends and watched football and looked at the odds on the world cup games, then went and played poker on the saturday night.  All this to feel the adrenalin the endorphins i once felt every night..... and i did feel good that day.  i played poker from 8pm till 3am and luckily i played pretty catiously and only took forty quid with me.  I came out of poker evens and only gambled six pounds that day......then went back home and felt suitably hungover the next day....Now a month ago i hadnt gambled since december and now im struggling majorly to get to grips with the most simplest of decisions..... that itch is now scratched and ive come to my senses and decided to play golf and football every week instead of going to poker.....im adam and i am a compulsive gambler and i havent gambled since saturday....

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