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Posted on:
Thu, 05/04/2018 - 11:41

Self Sufficient...

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2017-05-10

Thank you for the posts on my diary which are greatly appreciated. It is 36 days since I last gambled and the support of gamcare friends has been a tremendous help.

Back home after my Easter holiday visiting relatives. I had a great time and no gambling though I sat through a football match on telly on which my nephews and one of their sons had placed a bet on their team. I was pleased to see their bets win but cautioned the younger one (18) about the danger of gambling getting out of control. 

I am returning bank card to friend when I see her on Sunday and repaying the money she lent me last month. In the meantime I will browse the diaries and attend GA tomorrow night. I don't feel threatened but am constantly aware of the danger which is forever lurking in the background.

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Sat, 07/04/2018 - 08:13

sjw

Joined:
2017-10-27

Hello Stephen,

Been a while since i posted here. Glad you had a good time with the family. Had a busy week myself and today is my sisters birthday. Im helping my mum move closer (from 30miles away to a 2 minute walk!) on Monday.

Have a good weekend mate.

All the best.

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Sat, 07/04/2018 - 22:44

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you for posting my diary sjwsjw, as always the support is greatly appreciated. Very impressed with your gamble free progress and also your positive approach to life in general.

Hope everyone had fun celebrating your sisters birthday (that is enjoying life in a good way) and wishing you well as you help your mother to move house on  Monday. Your heart is obviously in the right place and I hope you find the happiness which you rightly deserve.

Hello Diary. Everything ship-shape and bristol fashion as I cruise towards 39 days gamble free.

Yesterday I signed up for a funeral plan with the Cooperative. Not fair that others should have to pay for my journey to the other side. Enjoyed a gamblers anonymous meeting last night. Went for a swim today and pottered around, did a bit of shopping.

No urges to gamble. Tomorrow I will repay most of the money I loaned off my friend and give her back my bank card for safe keeping. 

I have my thoughts firmly fixed on a gamble free year and I fully intend to live up to it. I will be following in the footsteps of good friends who have blazed a trail and shown that recovery is there for the taking.

 

Posted on:
Sun, 08/04/2018 - 22:03

Little miss lost

Joined:
2016-05-24

Now then Stephen the laureate!
Sat there with your feather in your hat and quill in hand.
I think you summed my day up quite nicely thank you!
The days are ticking by nicely for you. Loving the optimism, I have every faith in you to succeed!
All good wishes x

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Mon, 09/04/2018 - 00:53

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you Little Miss Meritorious. Your posts are always a pleasure to read. They show you are well informed with good insight. Your gentleness and compassion brings warmth, understanding and humour to the diaries.

Hello Diary. I am feeling on top of the world because I just moseyed in to 40 Days Gamble Free ~ Yihaaaa.

My bank card is back with my friend for safe keeping. I have deposited on my Asda gift card for groceries and I have sufficient cash for a bit of socialising etc. Every weekend I will get sufficient for the following week. It is very sad in a way because I am 67 years old and have to be given pocket money each week. However, the alternative is far sadder than that.

Good news is I am on a mission.

Firmly entrenched on the gamble free highway and forging ahead with my fellow travellers.

Up ahead the gamcare mountain rises up to the sky and I am relishing the climb.

Posted on:
Mon, 09/04/2018 - 15:38

Ineffable

Joined:
2015-02-21

Stephen, thank you for the kind and generous post in my diary - as I mentioned it is the start of a new chapter for me but it is going to be difficult but the rewards are worth the effort - I want my reality to match a realistic and compelling vision of myself or I will always be at odds with myself.  That is my focus for the next 100.  

Posted on:
Mon, 09/04/2018 - 16:30

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Well done you. i like what your doing whith your bank card sounds a good way keep up the good work

Posted on:
Mon, 09/04/2018 - 20:27

Bamb84

Joined:
2018-02-13

Hi stephen thank you as always for your support it does feel wonderful to just be boring and normal and not be stressed out worrying about money . Dont get me wrong still have my debts but can now afford to pay them as long as i dont gamble . Well done to you 40 days gf keep doing what your doing and dont turn back . Take care Bambi x

Posted on:
Mon, 09/04/2018 - 21:14

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Hi Stephen, it's not sad what you're doing with your bank card, it's peace of mind for you with a sprinkle of damage control. Just shows you're doing everything to stay GF, and who care what it takes?  I agree with Bamb, everyday normality is great not living on the edge. Super proud of you on 40 days Sx

Posted on:
Mon, 09/04/2018 - 21:45

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Well done on reaching 40 days gamble free Stephen, good to see you in a positive frame of mind and up for the fight .... you know the drill and you have set a good foundation for yourself to build a better future, there will be hard times ahead  but  the added measures you have in place and the support of your gamcare friends will see you in good stead ... keep up the good work you are doing great. 

Posted on:
Tue, 10/04/2018 - 00:00

Emptyp2

Joined:
2018-03-11

 Just dropped by to say thank you for being you. 

p.s congrats on the GF days! 

p.p.s We got this in the bag :-) softly, softly catchee monkey 

 

 

Posted on:
Tue, 10/04/2018 - 23:58

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you for the posts on my diary which are greatly appreciated.

Almost six weeks since my last bet and no great urges to gamble.

Went swimming this afternoon and salsa dancing tonight. Life's a breeze really, being retired means every day is a holiday. I would have been having a right jolly old time were it not for the gambling. 

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Fri, 13/04/2018 - 11:57

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Hello Diary. 44 days since my last bet. 

Feeling a bit disgruntled because it is 11 months since I joined the diaries but I was foolish and returned to gambling a few times.

I see I am not alone in having setbacks even after good periods of abstinence but it's stupid. After 50 or a hundred days the hard work is done and there is usually light at the end if the tunnel. 

I have been getting thoughts of gambling but fortunately my friend is holding on to my bank card and giving me pocket money. She has been very supportive and I will not betray that trust and friendship.

This afternoon I am visiting a friend in hospital, afterwards I will go for a swim, than tonight I will be heading off to the GA meeting. 

Friends on the diaries have battled on with courage and have achieved long periods of abstinence. I try to use that as my inspiration and picture them up ahead showing me the way. 

Stephen - on a mission and ready to rock n roll. (Well most of the time anyway).

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Sat, 14/04/2018 - 22:29

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Hello Diary. Quiet night on my sofa chilling out. A bit annoyed with myself as I just pigged out on sweet stuff, biscuits and cakes sort of ganged up on me so I ate them.

45 days on the gamble free highway. No problems and reasonably content. 

Posted on:
Sun, 15/04/2018 - 11:26

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Hi Stephen ..... thank for your kind post on my diary, not doubt i would not currenty still be gamble free without the the support of gamcare friends like yourself ... wow 46 days gf today that time has really went in quickly and just goes to show how fast our gf days can rack up when we keep making the right choices, i know like myself you have fell of the wagon a few times in the past but really good to see you do something different this time in giving your friend your bankcard for safe keeping which seems to be working which is great, i believe you have gone around 6 months without a bet in the past so you know you are more than capable of abstaining.There will be hard days ahead but because of past experinces we are better equiped to deal with them and gradually the good days will outnumber the bad ones.Have a good Sunday and i look forward to following your journey .....ps nothing wrong with pigging out on sweet stuff every now and again :)

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Sun, 15/04/2018 - 22:16

sjw

Joined:
2017-10-27

Hello Stephen,

Thanks for posting on my diary, sorry i've not had the chance to reply/supports others the last couple of weeks. Really busy but for good reasons. Lots of change in my life happened/happening. Hope you have a good weekend, well done for giving the card back. Piece of mind is priceless.

All the best.

Posted on:
Tue, 17/04/2018 - 07:52

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you for the posts on my diary, which are greatly appreciated. Good to see you both progressing well on your gamble free journeys. 

chartom ~129 days GF. As you rightly point out,  we are, through experience,  better equipped to deal with the challenges we will face and as we move further away from the last bet we will gain in confidence.

sjw ~ 203 days GF. Moving steadily forward with a good mindset. You show positive intent, are willing to embrace change and seem determined to free yourself from the insidious gambling addiction.

Hello Diary. 48 days since I last had a bet. No intention of gambling. The thoughts do enter my head but I don't feel unduly threatened. My goal is to achieve one complete year gamble free and I will take it from there. Every gamble free day is another step in the right direction.

After breakfast going for a stroll to the pier/marina and a nostalgic nosey around the Maritime Museum. In the gym later for a swim and Salsa dancing tonight. 

On a mission to remain gamble free. Shoulder to shoulder with my friends and fellow gamcare adventurers. Ready to go forward and do what has to be done. 

 

 

Posted on:
Wed, 18/04/2018 - 11:34

Matt 24

Joined:
2012-04-25

Hi Stephen,

Been a while but thought I would pop by your diary and I am pleased to see you are nearly at the half century gamble free. You don't need me to tell you well done but keep going mate, your doing good. Keep going forward and reap the rewards.

Matt

Posted on:
Wed, 18/04/2018 - 15:08

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Hi Stephen,

I've noticed - as you are well aware - that you are one day from hitting the magic 50 days gambling free! I know you've been here before and I know you keep it honest and real, for which I have the fullest of respect to you. Your inherent good nature and personality are what draws so many to your diary; we care about you, Stephen in the same way you so evidently care about us.

We're with you, Stephen. Not only because of this journey, a better path for you, and us all. But also because we're friends :)

Mixer

Posted on:
Wed, 18/04/2018 - 16:33

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Thankyou for your post im glad your nearing the 50 mark keep it going. My daughter moved hospitals last week as she needed a better one for the care she needs. She still refusing to eat so hopefully they will get her to somehow the new hosp

Posted on:
Thu, 19/04/2018 - 02:01

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you for the posts on my diary which are very much appreciated.

Matt.. 563 days since your last bet. It is heartwarming to see your quality of life improving. Your recovery is in itself an inspiration and sends out a positive message - "By not gambling our lives can be so much better."

Mixer...251 days since your last bet and you have remained positive, focussed and resilient. I greatly appreciate the encouragement and support you have given me plus all the effort you put into running the Guru Challenge.for your fellow travellers. I am on a mission to gain Guru status of 300 days gamble free and will do my utmost to achieve that goal.

Christer..Good to see you 18 days into your recovery. Prior to that little setback you had a lengthy period without gambling and you have shown courage and commitment whilst coping with personal issues. When life is sad than we can easily be drawn back into gambling and than everything just gets even worse. You have shown a lot of strength in saying no to the addiction.

Hello Diary...50 days since my last bet. That stupid episode on the 28th February when my monthly works pension went in the bank and I drew it all out and gave it to the bookies. Well they're not getting any more because i'm on a mission and determined to travel the gamble-free highway all the way up the GamCare mountain.

Posted on:
Thu, 19/04/2018 - 12:52

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Hi Stephen hope you are enjoying this beautiful day and celebrating ticking off 50 days. Am continuing to be in awe of your kindness, enthusiasm and determination S x 

Posted on:
Thu, 19/04/2018 - 12:57

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Hi Stephen..... congrats on reaching the half century of gamble free days a good strong foundation on which to build a better future, keep up the good work your doing great.

Posted on:
Thu, 19/04/2018 - 17:59

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you for the posts on my diary. I have felt a massive sense of relief today at reaching the 50 day gamble free mark. It's put a good distance berween me and the last bet and it also shows that I mean business. I'm not here to make up the numbers, i'm here on a mission to become gamble free. Urges are only in my head and they can't drag me into the betting shop.

Sharon...You are an absolute treasure and such a wonderful example to myself and others. Tomorrow will be a big cause for celebration as you celebrate 400 days gamble free. I know from your diaries that you have faced many challenges along the way but you have stayed strong. Your courage, determination and humour have always shone through.

Chartom... Great to see you forging ahead. You are very determined and seem to have a good understanding of the dangers you might face and the challenges you will need to overcome. I can relate to your posts  and enjoy following your gamble free journey. 

Hello Diary... Feeling a definite sense if achievement on reaching 50 days gamble free. The sun is shining, the birds are singing and I am feeling on top of the world.

Posted on:
Thu, 19/04/2018 - 21:44

sjw

Joined:
2017-10-27

Well done on 50 days Stephen. What a lovely couple of days we've had! You can feel how much more positive everyone around is with the sun out, i've missed it. The best things in life might just be free huh?

Take care =)

All the best.

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Fri, 20/04/2018 - 06:40

Little miss lost

Joined:
2016-05-24

Just got a minute to say well done Stephen - 50 days! Super duper achievement - even the sun has made an appearance to shine down on you! Haha! 100 days will be here before you know it! X

Posted on:
Fri, 20/04/2018 - 10:27

RSmith39

Joined:
2017-12-24

Hi Stephen,

Well done mate, great going.  Delighted to log back in and see you clocking up the days.  It really seems to be working with your friend having the card .. might seem a bit strange having to get your own money handed out to you, but looks like it's working for you, so keep cracking on.  I've currently switched my compulsive behaviour to playing Pokemon Go with/for my 8 year old ... realised with my personality I have to be obssessed by something but this is much healthier than gambling both financially and in general health (currently walked nearly 900km in the last 7 months .. it keeps track using google maps and you can't cheat and drive as it cuts out if you go over 10 miles an hour).  Keep doing great. Rich

 

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Sat, 21/04/2018 - 15:09

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Well I certainly feel humbled to have 3 gamcare legends visit my diary. Thank you for taking the time and trouble to give me that support....

sjw ~ 207 days since you last gambled. Positive, determined and you have a very good understanding of the challenges we face.

Little Miss Finding Herself ~ 199 days without a bet and sometimes your hanging on for dear life.  You have certainly been to hell and back and still the addiction is trying to drag you back into it's demented and cruel domain. But remember, every time you said no to the urges you weakened the influence that gambling had over you. I love reading your posts, you have a lovely way of expressing yourself in a way that the reader can identify with. Despite your trials and tribulations you have stayed strong, kept your sense of humour and never given up the fight.

Rich...119 days on the gamble free road and forging ahead relentlessly. I imagine your the kind of person who enjoys a challenge and who will stand by his decision to stop gambling. Pleased to see you back safe and sound after your enjoyable family holiday. You brought a smile to my face recounting your Pokemon adventures with your young son. What a wonderful way to share time, have some good adventures and keep fit. 

Hello Diary... Fifty two days ne're had a bet ~ Still a bit skint and paying off debt ~ Days come and go and times knocking on ~ Here's Stephen the Stoic and he's still rocking on.

Posted on:
Sun, 22/04/2018 - 17:58

Bamb84

Joined:
2018-02-13

Hi Stephen thanks for your messsge really helps when getting these stupid urges . Im doing ok today . Well done to you too your clocking up those days really feels good when you can start hitting milestones heres to the next 50 gf Take care Bambi x

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Sun, 22/04/2018 - 20:45

Annie2016

Joined:
2016-05-01

Hi Stephen. Great to see how many days you have stayed gamble free. Really fantastic. I haven't been on here for a while but very much appreciate your previous posts. Take care - you are doing great x

Posted on:
Mon, 23/04/2018 - 12:09

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you for the posts on my diary Bambi and Annie. 

Good day yesterday, met my friend and had a walk around Queens Gardens and the Marina. Withdrew my weeks allowance from the cash machine. Visited the cinema ( Film: The Guernsey Literary and Potato Peel Pie Society) which we both enjoyed. Back to her house for pizza and watched tv. 

54 days gamble free today and in a reflective mood. I read in the news earlier that 700,000 children are badly affected by their parents alcohol addiction. I imagine that most people in addiction love their families dearly and it is just so sad to think of the trauma and misery that people go through for no sane reason. Wishing everyone on the diaries a good gamble free week. Let's all strive to be free from gambling and find peace, contentment and happiness.

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Tue, 24/04/2018 - 15:37

Hazard2myself

Joined:
2018-01-28

Hi Stephen,

I hope you're doing well. Just wanted to say a huge congratulations on your 50+ gamble free days. I'm glad you had a good day yesterday with your friend. I hope you have a great week ahead. Take care.

Pras 

Posted on:
Wed, 25/04/2018 - 10:43

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you for posting on my diary Pras.

Thoughts of gambling come into my head but I distract them by keeping my mind occupied on other things. Yesterday was good, I went for a walk, visited the gym for a swim and in the evening went Salsa dancing.

I have set myself 3 goals: 1/ I won't gamble today. 2/ I will endeavour to become a Guru on The Guru Challenge with 300 gamble free days. 3/ A full year of not having a bet will be the icing on my gamble free cake. 

No more the fool ~ I'm gonna be cool

My mind is set and I will not bet

Giving money to the bookies is a total farce so gambling demons can kiss my ... contributions goodbye

Posted on:
Wed, 25/04/2018 - 10:47

Sharon41

Joined:
2017-03-16

Hi Stephen glad you had a super Sunday, it'S the little pleasures in life isn't it? Which become more apparent when we're not gambling. I think you should be official wordsmith for the site! Haven't posted until mnow as have been working stacks but Happy Wednesday Sx

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Wed, 25/04/2018 - 19:15

Lulubobs1966

Joined:
2015-07-19

Hi Stephen just wanted to thank you so much for your lovely words on my diary I’ve replied there but also wanted to post here and see how your getting on. Glad you had nice weekend too. 56 days I missed your 50 days! Wow where’s that gone? To think we wasted so much time as well of course money. I hate gambling now and like you think it’s awful how they prey on vulnerable ppl. Your doing so well Stephen and keep going life is so much better isn’t it even with our different issues etc not gambling brings amazing peace. Wishing you many many days of happiness and peace too Stephen thanks again for your lovely words. Bestest wishes x Lulu x

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Thu, 26/04/2018 - 23:10

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you Sharon & Lulu for the posts on my diary.

There has been posts/threads advising that GamStop is now operating, whereby one can self exclude from all uk online casinos in the uk. So I have done that. Advice on how to do so is posted in a thread on the Overcoming Problem Gambling section of the forum.

I started an experiment yesterday to see if meditation will help to strengthen my resolve, relax my mind and give me more clarity. Morning and night I don my headphones and join in the Green Tara Mantra on You Tube for about  20 minutes. Enjoying it so far and finding it relaxing. I have started a thread on the overcoming problem gambling section. It would be interesting to read the views of anyone who has tried meditation.

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Fri, 27/04/2018 - 08:06

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

Hi Stephen, firstly thanks for writing on my diary the other day. Much appreciated mate. I’m really going through the mill at the moment and I appreciate your support. 

Well done on reaching 58 days yourself. You’re doing great.

You had a wobbly period at the end of February but you’ve come through that and you’re well on your way to a happier, more fulfilling life. Keep up the good work pal! 

Dan

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Sat, 28/04/2018 - 08:57

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you Dan, I sincerely hope this is the time you can get it all together. I don't know if your aware but GamStop is now in operation whereby we can self exclude from all uk registered online bookmakers. Info can be found on the forum and Mixer covered it in a recent post on the Guru Challenge.

Morning Diary. Everything looking rosy. I met a friend yesterday for lunch, haven't seen her for a while so it was good to catch up. We strolled around town and ducked into the Art Gallery and the Minster (shelter from the rain with a bit of culture.) Last night attended GA meeting which was quite thought provoking.

Almost 2 months since I last gambled. 

Still doing my meditation twice a day which I am enjoying. It is a mantra so if i'm sat on the bus I can do it in my head for 10 minutes and have a little relax during the journey.

Before I was stressing and down on my knees

But now i'm progressing and life is a breeze

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Sat, 28/04/2018 - 16:23

Smashed

Joined:
2017-08-13

You seem in a good place Steven, which is good to see, and adopting new methods as you have had enough. Heads up for the Gamstop going live, I registered straight away and looked at all the companies I used to gamble with, I signed up for the full 5 years and took a huge sigh of relief, we're all getting there. Love the life you live so you can live the life you love.

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Sun, 29/04/2018 - 11:45

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you Smashed. I follow your journey with admiration and respect your courage and commitment.

Morning Diary - feeling very jolly today. Going for a swim later than to my friends house tonight for a Vegetarian Chilli (Very Tasty) and watch telly.

Happy as a lark ~ Stephen the Stoic

Reflective, calm ~ feeling euphoric

Gamble free 60 days ~ striving to do his best

With faith, hope and a smiley face he ventures on his quest

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Mon, 30/04/2018 - 00:44

Emptyp2

Joined:
2018-03-11

Your doing so well Stephen and keep going.

I love your thread title of Friend has my bank card - dont know why it just warms me i think it's the the raw honesty of the title.

Sending you thoughts of success and I just get this feeling we are going to be just fine. :p

 

 

 

Posted on:
Mon, 30/04/2018 - 15:49

RSmith39

Joined:
2017-12-24

Hi Stephen,

Forgot to log in to the 2018 challenge so just been on it, and for some reason the post that popped up was you apologizing for going on an FOBT ... I nearly had a heart attack!  I then calmed down and realised it was one from January ... I really think (and hope) that you seem to be in a great place at the moment, and it really cheers me up.  Your last post was great ... not sure I've managed to reach euphoria in my quest for abstinence yet, but here's hoping! Rich

Posted on:
Mon, 30/04/2018 - 23:41

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you Sammy and Rich for your kind words on my diary.

I gambled today. I had got the bank card off my friend to make some payments but ended up in the betting shop.

It doesn't make any sense but it never does. This month I will be struggling now,  plus I've let my friend down.

I don't really know what went through my mind as I had been feeling quite positive and enjoying life.

I am taking a break from the diaries but will be back after a while. Best wishes to everyone..stephen 

Posted on:
Tue, 01/05/2018 - 06:44

DeterminedDan

Joined:
2016-09-08

I’m sorry to hear about your relapse, Stephen. 

Is this something that you could see or feel coming? Or did it come out of the blue? 

Don’t give up though mate. You’ve had a good run and have had a slip up. Hopefully those slip ups will occur less and less as time goes on. 

Keep battling mate. We’re all in this together. 

Dan

Posted on:
Tue, 01/05/2018 - 09:09

chartom3

Joined:
2015-03-11

Sorry to hear of your troubles Stephen, as hard as it may seem try and stay positive, you are a big presence on here and a great help to me and many others,take time to regroup and hope to here from you again soon.

Posted on:
Tue, 01/05/2018 - 11:35

Self Sufficient...

Joined:
2017-05-10

Thank you Dan and Chartom for your support and encouragement.

I was feeling confident about my recovery but I was weak.

Fortunately I kept enough to pay the bills so I will get by and I didn't borrow any more.

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