I did so well Oct 14th till Dec 26 th , gambled because a plumber ripped me off , i was so angry i tried to claw back £150 , in that time i carried cash with me as a dare , ok it totally went against the principles of means , time and opportunity , but i was going well . i did mention i drink , I'm not like propping up a bar , and obese , I'm 55 years of age and have never ran a 10k under 40 mins ,, but my lapses have been when ive had a few as I've said always recently in the pub machines never bookies , tonight £200 . I've hardly worked this year . i have nobody to give my cash too , i live on my own . but my " lapse ' is becoming a relapse . i really do not want this . i really felt good weeks ago . now i feel terrible . since dec 26th it must be £1000 . all my hard work wasted . i could not even afford to see my counsellor , i had three more meetings . i really feel I've let myself down , but its only when i binge drink , obviously that is my main issue , I'm depressed , and find solace every now and again , then do silly things .
tonight i literally have wiped myself out until fri . when i earn i do ok but its sporadic atm . I've beaten the bookies . i really must sort myself out .
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Hi all at sea, try not to beat yourself up, we all seem so good at that, but what's done is done, and now you can only move forward.
Are you recieving any support or on any medication for your depression, if not I highly recommend you go see your gp and get some support, maybe whilst your there you could mention the drinking. I've not drank alcohol now since December, and it really has helped with my depression, ok it's not a cure , and some days are stil a huge struggle but I'm coping better with not drinking.
About the counselling, have you spoke to your counsellor, explain money's been tight and that's why you've been unable to see them and see if you can finish your last sessions when you do get money.
Stay strong and take care
Stace
I did so well Oct 14th till Dec 26 th , gambled because a plumber ripped me off , i was so angry i tried to claw back £150 , in that time i carried cash with me as a dare , ok it totally went against the principles of means , time and opportunity , but i was going well . i did mention i drink , I'm not like propping up a bar , and obese , I'm 55 years of age and have never ran a 10k under 40 mins ,, but my lapses have been when ive had a few as I've said always recently in the pub machines never bookies , tonight £200 . I've hardly worked this year . i have nobody to give my cash too , i live on my own . but my " lapse ' is becoming a relapse . i really do not want this . i really felt good weeks ago . now i feel terrible . since dec 26th it must be £1000 . all my hard work wasted . i could not even afford to see my counsellor , i had three more meetings . i really feel I've let myself down , but its only when i binge drink , obviously that is my main issue , I'm depressed , and find solace every now and again , then do silly things .
tonight i literally have wiped myself out until fri . when i earn i do ok but its sporadic atm . I've beaten the bookies . i really must sort myself out .
Hey all at Sea. I’m sorry to hear of your relapse. It’s never easy, I’ve been a GA for 8 years.
The best £10 I ever spent in that 8 years, was 4 weeks ago when I bought Allen Carr’s ‘how to stop gambling’. Like a typical gambler I debated spending the £10, despite thinking nothing of feeding thousands into a slot machine. I’m so glad I did.
This book has totally changed my thinking, my thought process and any urge to gamble. In the last 8 years I have never had a period when I have felt this able to manage my addiction, this free of any urge whatsoever to gamble.
Whilst I know this book may not work for everyone, it’s certainly worth a go.
It may just be the best £10 you will ever spend.
Once you have overcome this, everything else will fall into place, you will find pleasure in hobbies, socialising actually living.
You can do it. Good luck x
Hi all-at-sea
The worse thing you can do when you are mentally ill is drink and its also a depressant. It also lowers your self control so the result in your gambling again.
Totally agree that a trip to GP would help get you started on medication which while not for everyone is worth a try - that along with counselling.
I also took 'boredom' from your post - find, or refind, something you love which will focus your attention.
Good luck mate, and keep in touch with us all.
I did so well Oct 14th till Dec 26 th , gambled because a plumber ripped me off , i was so angry i tried to claw back £150 , in that time i carried cash with me as a dare , ok it totally went against the principles of means , time and opportunity , but i was going well . i did mention i drink , I'm not like propping up a bar , and obese , I'm 55 years of age and have never ran a 10k under 40 mins ,, but my lapses have been when ive had a few as I've said always recently in the pub machines never bookies , tonight £200 . I've hardly worked this year . i have nobody to give my cash too , i live on my own . but my " lapse ' is becoming a relapse . i really do not want this . i really felt good weeks ago . now i feel terrible . since dec 26th it must be £1000 . all my hard work wasted . i could not even afford to see my counsellor , i had three more meetings . i really feel I've let myself down , but its only when i binge drink , obviously that is my main issue , I'm depressed , and find solace every now and again , then do silly things .
tonight i literally have wiped myself out until fri . when i earn i do ok but its sporadic atm . I've beaten the bookies . i really must sort myself out .
Hey all at Sea. I’m sorry to hear of your relapse. It’s never easy, I’ve been a GA for 8 years.
The best £10 I ever spent in that 8 years, was 4 weeks ago when I bought Allen Carr’s ‘how to stop gambling’. Like a typical gambler I debated spending the £10, despite thinking nothing of feeding thousands into a slot machine. I’m so glad I did.
This book has totally changed my thinking, my thought process and any urge to gamble. In the last 8 years I have never had a period when I have felt this able to manage my addiction, this free of any urge whatsoever to gamble.
Whilst I know this book may not work for everyone, it’s certainly worth a go.
It may just be the best £10 you will ever spend.
Once you have overcome this, everything else will fall into place, you will find pleasure in hobbies, socialising actually living.
You can do it. Good luck x
I totally agree with this, the book change my mindset and removed all desire to gamble, it’s just brilliant!
Hi All At Sea,
Sorry to hear about your relapse. Your story about the plumber is a good example of how i was. As soon as i was given his price i'd be thinking about trying to win the repair bill. I once dropped my phone & was quoted £70 to replace the screen. Instead of paying it i decided to try and win the money and of course i'm sure you can guess the end result. I lost enough money to buy myself a new iphone and ended up with the same phone with a damaged screen for months. If my car needed a repair same old story.
All you can do is try again it's never too late ( i'm 64 ) and clean for 552 days now. Whatever problems we have in life i now know gambling doesn't solve them it only makes them worse. All i can say is if you can start the day by saying " Just For Today I Won't Gamble " achieving that is the foundation stone for the next gamble free day. I never think about tomorrow or next week until it arrives.
Best Wishes
AL
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