I’ve been gambling free now for 38 days after to many long years of gambling, this is the longest I’ve stopped for and I really feel like this is my time to change my life.
I’ve passed my first payday without gambling which in the lead up to payday that was my biggest worry, payday will come around and I’ll fall back into that gambling trap so I’m full of hope this is the end.
The bit that really seems to have changed is my personality towards my girlfriend. I’ve been with her now for about 2 years she knew I gambled but she has no clue about how bad it’s been for the last 4/5 years. I feel like I’ve become really snappy about everything even the tiniest little thing and I want to spend less time with her which was never the case before I stopped gambling when I gambled I couldn’t wait to be with her now I’m not really to fussed.
I’ve lay awake over the last few nights feeling more powerful than I ever have before I don’t know if this is all because of power to overcome this addiction.
Has anyone else felt similar?
I'm on day 62 but early days I felt very snappy no patience with anyone was sharp with everyone for no reason felt a bit lonely and like I had lost my best friend full of grief for no reason didn't no we're I belonged but also felt proud of my self it got a lot easier then on day 50 gf felt like for a couple of days really had the urge to gamble but I didn't now I'm on day 62 feel better than ever keep going it's normal I felt the same
Well am on day 27. Its my payday. Am waiting for my money to go in. If it goes in soon I can get the bus to work. If it doesn't go in untill 6 a.m or something then am walking 5 miles to work whatever the weather. This is the reality of addiction.
I use to go for long periods gamble free. Longest stretch was more than a thousand days but for the last 3 and a half years I haven't gone a single pay day without messing up within a week of being paid. Sad but true. Tonight I cannot sleep because I am worried about money. I will have to function at work on next to no sleep. I don't think about this when am chasing a feature on some slot game do I ? Just for today....
Yes the feeling of control will increase as your mind heals. Its a NICE Feeling!
Its the serenity to realise they were offering you nothing and you can walk on by calmly. They were offering you nothing but an addiction which suits them. I can see it clearly now for what it is.....Scandalous actually!
The focus is a pure clarity...like the world opens up again with new eyes. Its a relief to be getting over it but also a complete realisation that its all on your terms now with no room for complacency.
You will realise there was something inside that was vunerable to it. You will learn about the addiction so you can see how it gets in
You were already a winner in so many ways. You have your health and money in your pocket. The answers are within you.
I still feel that most problem gamblers were seeking escape like any drug. Nobody can honestly say that it was any real form of entertainment or income scheme.
Very slow to reply here I haven’t been on as of late haven’t felt the need to.
But what you have said makes total sense I have regained so much, energy, desire and self belief.
Now when I have the time to reflect back I can totally see that it was just an escape from reality, my gambling become so bad after my little boy arrived in the world it was my way of escaping how challenging life had become.