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#1 Posted on:
Wed, 10/04/2013 - 11:00

Neveragain121016

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2011-10-04

Hi there. I've been here many times, with varying degrees of success. I'm not gonna go into a back story as I've said it to many times and enough a enough. I need the help if this site. I don't believe I can do it on my own. I don't need a bet. I can enjoy sports a lot more without it. So that's that. I'm sick of losing my dosh even in times of "responsible gaming". I haven't seen friends family because I'm broke but I can find £50 for some gambling (and sometimes a lot more). I mention the £50 and £20 because I think they're starting to hurt just as much as the hundreds because I'm not willing to spend the same on my mrs or nights out with the boys. Anyway I'm big gonna ramble to much. I'll try to be about the site I'm not really sure what I'm doing at the mo so bare with me. But I know this is the way forward - to many good things in life to waste time gambling. I'm gonna do a daily count and try to post daily if I can but I won't start that till next Monday - font want to go into specifics but have some masters bets and don't think I should put day 1/2etc if I'm still looking out for results. Thanks again good to be back, new name brw as wanted fresh start and looking back on old stuff and think I put to much personal stuff down and don't really wanna be "identified" happy to be anonymous. Atleast for now. Tasks care all. Over the coming days will look out for a few names I remember but my best to you all stay off this gambling lark not worth the time, money or emotional investment.

Posted on:
Wed, 10/04/2013 - 12:56

Frozen

Joined:
2010-11-22

Hi

I was in your exact place last year. Why not start today nobody here cares if the bet was place before today and you have not had a bet today well thats one day off. It will also put you in a good frame of mind. One day off gambling is a success so why not start now.

Michael

Posted on:
Wed, 10/04/2013 - 13:10

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Thanks michael. I think your right. Day 1. I need to be focused as I know what in like. I'll be doing in running and all hell will break loose. So day one. Sod this gambling game. I don't need it.

Posted on:
Wed, 10/04/2013 - 13:18

Paddy1961

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Before 2009

The marathon starts with taking the first step, wish you well on the journey :o)

Posted on:
Thu, 11/04/2013 - 14:20

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Thanks *****. Day 2 gonna be tough to stay away from the golf with some inplay bets but must stay strong and leave it alone.

Posted on:
Thu, 11/04/2013 - 16:49

castle2

Joined:
2012-01-30

Great idea starting a new diary , drawing a line on the past and starting afresh , with 3 relapses under my belt its something iv often thought of and other in the past its worked for them

Be better for u when the golf bets are done , stay strong on that one esp if u win dont let the mind trick u as I know its so easy to do

Wish u all the best

Castle2

Posted on:
Fri, 12/04/2013 - 11:45

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Thanks castle. Day 3. I will not gamble today.

Posted on:
Mon, 15/04/2013 - 15:20

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Right golf over. Proper start on this new road. Day 1. Need to commit. So goals - one week bet free. Two weeks. One month. Two months. Three months. There the immediate goals. One day at a time. I must prove others wrong and prove to myself I can do this. It's the only way forward and I will get there. In other news I've sign up to a half marathon today and it was something I was meant to be training for since feb but combination of bad weather and being locked in the gambling cycle/coma I have done no training. 5 months ish left. My life is about to change.

Posted on:
Tue, 16/04/2013 - 00:21

Frozen

Joined:
2010-11-22

Well done last year I backed Westwood in the Golf and the difference between this year and last for the Masters was unreal. I just really enjoyed the masters for what it was. I can say I loved it.

Michael

Posted on:
Tue, 16/04/2013 - 06:44

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Thanks michael yeah it was a good masters, roll on next year. Day 2 now. Very tired. Got a 10 hour shift today and only got 3 hours sleep not good. Atleast I'll be to tired to have a bet!!

Posted on:
Wed, 17/04/2013 - 06:33

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Day 3. I will not gamble today.

Posted on:
Wed, 17/04/2013 - 16:18

Frozen

Joined:
2010-11-22

Hi

Well done keep it up

Michael

Posted on:
Thu, 18/04/2013 - 10:31

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Day 4. I will not gamble today. I need to keep this going and not ruin my life through gambling it really isn't worth it. I feel like a weight has been lifted already. Urges are there but I know the right things to do.

Posted on:
Thu, 18/04/2013 - 12:52

Flagg

Joined:
2012-04-10

Hi Buddy,

Just wanted to say a massive well done for coming back here and giving this another go. Now the golf has come and gone you can really knuckle down and move forward. Yes the urges will be there in the early days but these are almost the better days with something to fight.

My advice as always is be on guard most when those urges dissipate. Keep posting and keep trying you know it's more than worth it.

Flagg

Posted on:
Fri, 19/04/2013 - 09:25

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Day 5. Thanks Flagg. I'm trying to post every morning as I want to start the day with the thought of not gambling today. I don't get alot of chance to reply to the messages that you guys put on my diary - they do mean alot the fact I have a bit of support is getting me through - yesterday was tough, tough not to have my usually darts bet on a thursday night. Got through it though thanks to this site. Closing in on week one. I'm gonna keep going. Oh back to what I said about replying to messages I will make sure one day a week I reply to everyone and maybe seek out a few other diaries to show my support to. All in time - I'm not in a rush - I plan to be here for a long time!

Posted on:
Fri, 19/04/2013 - 10:46

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Just had a bit of a posting marathan and it felt great. A little catch up on some old friends. It feels great to be back with this site. I forgot how good it felt to belong and to have this support network. I feel a whole lot better now, this has got to be it for me now. Ive told a few people im stopping. Ive had enough of the lies and the shame. I must stay strong. First up is get to that first week. I really want this.

Posted on:
Fri, 19/04/2013 - 13:05

judy

Joined:
2012-07-23

Hi D999,
That's right! Jump in with both feet. We are all here for the very same reason(s) and we are all here to support eachother. 1 day 1000 days it does not matter. TOday is the only day that matters. It was great hearing from you and I will be rooting for you! -joanxxxx

Posted on:
Sat, 20/04/2013 - 08:44

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Day 6. Almost at that week. Was thinking of having a bet today and its only 830. Must stay strong today.

I decided to have a look for my old diaries. Now as I've said I'm new in name only but what I didn't realise is if you change your username it changes your username on old diaries aswell so there goes my new name start theory. So might aswell reveal my secret identity lol I was dave999 (i think). That probably won't mean a lot to anyone but if ya fancy a read of my old diaries and want my back story then search for D999. I know that during the 6 months or whatever it was that I was gamble free I was so much happier and my head so much clearer.

So I'm guessing I don't need to say how I've been, obviously my time away was not well spent but the way my mind was at the time nothing was gonna stop me. But forgot that onwards to the next chapter, day 6 and determined once again. Done it before, will do it again.

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Sun, 21/04/2013 - 08:05

castle2

Joined:
2012-01-30

Mornin Dave

Well done on the week , mines at 2 now since my last relapse , the 1st week was the hardest the 2nd was a bit easier so take heart and hang in there

I picked up on the line u said bout head been clearer and happier whilst not gambling and its so true , 9 months last year without a bet and it felt great and thats where we both need to get back to

Keep posting ur doin brill

Castle2

Posted on:
Sun, 21/04/2013 - 09:22

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Thanks castle. Day 7. One week down many to go. Will think of little rewards for each month. For now tho will not gamble today and drive on to the two week mark. Yesterday wasn't easy. Scottish national. Footy and nba playoffs starting. All things I could get involved in but thankfully didn't. The sunshine is here life is getting better.

Posted on:
Sun, 21/04/2013 - 20:05

Frozen

Joined:
2010-11-22

Well done on getting the week

Posted on:
Mon, 22/04/2013 - 06:44

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Thanks Michael. Day 8 and tired!! Didn't sleep to well last night. Anyway same motto will not gamble today. Onwards to week 2.

Posted on:
Mon, 22/04/2013 - 07:26

Charlottex

Joined:
2011-12-10

Hi,

Thank u 4 ur post on my diary :)

Well done for coming back here, that takes a lot of strength!

U can do this I believe in u :)

Stay strong and keep going :)

Posted on:
Tue, 23/04/2013 - 07:39

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Thanks charl. Day 9. Double figures approaching. Feel like I'm achieving something. I will keep this going.

Posted on:
Tue, 23/04/2013 - 20:20

Chicagoguy

Joined:
2013-01-24

Hey D999,
Stay strong, your doing great! You are achieving !
Chicagoguy

Posted on:
Wed, 24/04/2013 - 09:17

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Thanks chicagoguy.

Day 10. Moving on nicely. Urges still there and still kick myself when something I would've bet on wins. Even tho I know any winnings would be just spent on more gambling anyway so what's the point.

Posted on:
Thu, 25/04/2013 - 12:03

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Day 11. Same again for me. No betting today. One day at a time.

Posted on:
Fri, 26/04/2013 - 06:41

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Day 12. Feels good being away from it. Telling people I've stopped. Long may that feeling last.

Posted on:
Sat, 27/04/2013 - 06:55

Neveragain121016

Joined:
2011-10-04

Day 13. Work today off tomorrow roll on clocking off time!! Have a good weekend everyone.