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#1 Posted on:
Thu, 10/05/2018 - 11:10

Hardly27

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So last night around 5pm after I had blown 170 odd pounds that I didn't have on bingo and slots I decided to type online "gambling is ruining my life" and here I am.

170 pounds that's a ridiculous amount not the most I've ever spent I admit. Where did I find the money from to even gamble? Because I can barely afford food never mind spending that amount online. My money wasn't money on there it was just a fund I feel like I've lost control of money amounts like 170 pounds it's a lot if money but it somehow feels minimal? I dont know... I have lost all self worth and confidence I am a recluse because of this horrible addiction.

It really has ruined me I'm in a ridiculous amount of debt probably upwards of 12 thousand. For what? Chasing a win that never comes and if a little win did come it would all go back in to the sites.

I feel like such a failure.

I've contacted a debt management company to see if i can get control of this mess I've put myself in genuinely feels like I'm never going to be able to get out of this without gambling to bring in some extra money.

I've attempted to stop before only lasting two days max before I'm pulled back in. Things need to change. I need to change. I'm posting on here in hope that I can track and manage myself on here with support of others.

Can I do this? I really hope so... I'm only on day 1 I need to do this

Posted on:
Thu, 10/05/2018 - 11:21

Hardly27

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Maybe the best thing to do is to post on here and try keep myself busy. I feel so lost and bored. Its been a massive part of my life since I was 20 I feel empty like I have nothing to do with my time now. What can I do? What did I use to do before this took hold of me? I've no idea... I need a way to keep busy. Anything
I dont need this anymore I'm 27 years old and my life is horrid all because of my selfishness to try win win win

Posted on:
Thu, 10/05/2018 - 11:43

LoveBug23

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Have you spoken to anyone close to you about your gambling problem. I know its hard as its so easy to just hide it. You have control of the bank account you use and the phone or device you use to partake in it. I know for a fact I would never walk into a casino and blow 100's of £'s in a day people would see me do it. The horror! I to have suffered for many years albeit progressively and my debt has accumulated to roughly £7000. I had my Mum watching my bank account......it worked for a while as I couldnt deal with the thought of her catching me at it. Then I got paid and woops I popped a sneaky £10 in one website (being a problem gambler I have limited myself on numerous accounts oh and self excluded but never manage not to find a new one) another £20 in another through paypal, thinking she will never know what I have spent that on afterall. Then the guilt hit me and I messaged her to say what I had gone n done. Then went on to one of the sites to self exclude myself and it directed me to the website GAMSTOP and yes I finally feel a bit of control. Well its not really control but I can't gamble online anymore thats for sure and day by day I feel my impulse getting that bit less.

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Thu, 10/05/2018 - 13:51

Hardly27

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My partner knows and I've spoken to him about it he's known for a year or so but not how bad it actually was until yesterday when I broke down to him. He's been amazing he was annoyed but he knows it's an addiction and is willing to work with me. Already made sure I've transferred every last penny I have (Not much but anyway) in to his bank account and he's taken the card to work with him today and low and behold I need money! not for gambling but for basics from the shop :( I feel like a child I've handed everything over to him because I can't be trusted
I've also been on gamstop this morning after seeing multiple posts on here saying how highly recommended it is. I've done it (phew!) Put my details and email addresses in and hit the submit button so I'm hoping this will help me by taking away temptation
Your situation sounds very similar to mine. How long have you been gf? Thanks for replying

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Thu, 10/05/2018 - 16:27

Hardly27

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Ive reached my first 24 hours gambling free. It feels good knowing I haven't added more money problems. Giving my partner control of my money has given me no option but to not gamble that along side with setting up GAMSTOP time to kick this on its head!

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Thu, 10/05/2018 - 17:52

Redbar

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Wd Hartley 24 hours may seem small but if you really want this, 24 days will soon rack up, and so on.

I to have handed control over to my forgiving partner and yes at 1st you feel untrusted (which we are to be fair) but with an allowance for your essentials you soon get used to it.

If after 40 years on and off Ive managed just over a year gf. Yes it's hard but trust me there's more to life than pressing a button and waiting for a win.

Trust in yourself be open and honest with everyone. Be proud when you hit a week gf and so on. We on here have walked in your shoes and then found a better pair

Good luck

Xredx

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Thu, 10/05/2018 - 19:16

LoveBug23

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Hardly 27

For me it has been over a month although I feel much differently this time round thanks to GAMSTOP and being brave enough to truly admit to those close to me how bad I actually was.
You clearly have a man that that wholly understands and cares about your situation. Let the future be gamble free. 24hrs at a time. I will be doing the same.

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Thu, 10/05/2018 - 20:18

Hardly27

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Absolutely. thanks for the caring words guys means a lot knowing there is a way to get through it. I wholly agree 24 hours at a time. My husband is so supportive and understanding i am blessed to have him in my life so thats a huge positive. well done for getting to where you are with your journeys. I find night times the hardest my fingers are twitching with boredom but I'm finding things to read and catch up on that I've missed over the years and months I've wasted gambling

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Thu, 10/05/2018 - 20:23

Cazzydee

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I have managed not to gamble now for 3 days. I’ve closed my online accounts and feel liberated and free from this monster. I’m worried tho that when I get paid at the end of the month I will be tempted. I’m really determined to change but it’s easy when you have no cash but what about when you do? 

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Thu, 10/05/2018 - 21:39

LoveBug23

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Cazzydee sign up to GAMSTOP the option will not be there when payday comes as you will be excluded from online websites.

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Fri, 11/05/2018 - 09:13

Hardly27

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Cazzydee wrote:

I have managed not to gamble now for 3 days. I’ve closed my online accounts and feel liberated and free from this monster. I’m worried tho that when I get paid at the end of the month I will be tempted. I’m really determined to change but it’s easy when you have no cash but what about when you do? 

Well done cazzy for getting to day 3! I definitely have to recommend GAMSTOP too it's the only way to take complete control and stop the temptation from becoming a deposit and inevitably a loss. Best of luck to you

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Fri, 11/05/2018 - 09:22

Hardly27

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So it's day 2.... the very beginning of day two and it feels like rubbish today. No one who is close to me understands how I feel.
I'm so angry and I don't have anyone else to talk to as my husband is at work and I'm sat at home on my own feeling like This

The only positive I have is the fact I can't get in to any site to spend money because I've used GAMSTOP

Really hope the day gets better

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Fri, 11/05/2018 - 10:02

LoveBug23

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I can understand your anger. An insensitive thing to do but sometimes they just aren't as understanding or realise the complexities of such an addiction. You should maybe let her know how this has made you feel given your situation. I mean you can congratulate her on her win but make her understand at the same time how its made you feel. One can only hope that a big sum win doesn't send your friend down the same path, as lets face it none of us ever started out gambling with the intention of becoming so addicted. I know I felt in control at first until I got to the stage I would win over a £1000 and managed to spend it in the matter of hrs rather than withdrawing. Sickens me just thinking about it.
Stay positive Hardly27, your financial situation will only improve in the long term by kicking this habit. Even if it does not seem like it right now.

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Fri, 11/05/2018 - 10:11

Hardly27

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Thank you lovebug great advice. I absolutely agree winning 1000 was the same thing that spiralled me in to well if I can win this then I can win more attitude. I think I'll have to talk to her and explain how I'm feeling as it's really hurt me but I can't help but feel jealous and angry at her I think the only way I can get over this hurdle is just to be honest with her and try and offer advice so she doesn't end up in the same situation as us. Our story is so similar it gives me strength to know there's people going through the same things as me and managing to get through it

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Fri, 11/05/2018 - 10:23

LoveBug23

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Chances are it will not. I remember telling my friend half heartedly a yr or so ago. Laughing off how bad I was and how I was going to change. Decided she would give it a bash lost £10 and couldn't deal with it. That was the end of her gambling. If only I had the same restraint. Damn it. We can't beat ourselves up about it though just have to draw a line accept what has happened and what we have lost and look forward. Every day is a new day gf ;-)

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Fri, 11/05/2018 - 10:26

GirlJ

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Hi hardly27. I’m in a similar position to you. I’m 25 been gambling for around 4/5 years now and had a really good stretch of getting my life together and had savings of £1000. Lately split up with my ex and lost it all and currently have £0. I self excluded from everything last night and also signed up to Gamstop not sure how effective it is but heard about it last night and jumped at the chance! Also asked my phone provider to start blocking phone transactions as I’d started doing that. 12 hours gamble free I’ve done it before I’ll do it again. We can get through this together :) I feel so badly like I could just fall apart right now but instead I’m fighting every fibre of those thoughts and focusing on the fact that I’ve made al the right steps in moving forward gamble free :). X

Posted on:
Fri, 11/05/2018 - 14:40

Hardly27

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2018-05-09

LoveBug23 wrote:
Chances are it will not. I remember telling my friend half heartedly a yr or so ago. Laughing off how bad I was and how I was going to change. Decided she would give it a bash lost £10 and couldn't deal with it. That was the end of her gambling. If only I had the same restraint. Damn it. We can't beat ourselves up about it though just have to draw a line accept what has happened and what we have lost and look forward. Every day is a new day gf ;-)

I have no self control that is my major issue! If only I'd ever lost 10 pounds too I wouldn't be where I am now. But like you said we can not dwell on the past only try and improve the way we have been living. I've spoken to my friend this morning and she's been completely understanding and said she's sorry for coming across as selfish but it wasn't her intention. I completely understood and said it wasn't selfishness persay just not really thinking of how it may effect me but she's been super supportive during everything I'm so greatful to have such a wonderful support network x

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Fri, 11/05/2018 - 14:44

Hardly27

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2018-05-09

GirlJ wrote:

Hi hardly27. I’m in a similar position to you. I’m 25 been gambling for around 4/5 years now and had a really good stretch of getting my life together and had savings of £1000. Lately split up with my ex and lost it all and currently have £0. I self excluded from everything last night and also signed up to Gamstop not sure how effective it is but heard about it last night and jumped at the chance! Also asked my phone provider to start blocking phone transactions as I’d started doing that. 12 hours gamble free I’ve done it before I’ll do it again. We can get through this together :) I feel so badly like I could just fall apart right now but instead I’m fighting every fibre of those thoughts and focusing on the fact that I’ve made al the right steps in moving forward gamble free :). X

Hi girlJ
Thanks for reading my thread!
Massive praise for you getting through those first few hours it's a huge achievement and you should be very proud of yourself. We can not think about what we've lost only how we can improve from where we are now. You have to draw a line and move up from here.
You are doing everything right like the blocking software and contacting your phone provider. Well done you honestly you are doing great. That 12 hours will soon be 12 days then 12 months ect. We can do this through support and cutting ourselves off from those online demons. Admitting it is the first step so you've come so far already x

Posted on:
Fri, 11/05/2018 - 15:24

GirlJ

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Thanks Hardly I’m sorry I forgot to congratulate you on gf time so far. You’re right. Every hour, minute, second GF is something we should be proud of. I will only feel properly happy with my efforts when I have money in my account and then I don’t gamble. As although I’ve put all the things in place to block, I don’t have the money anyway so it is almost by default at the moment. I’ve had no urges today as I’m in the ‘sick of myself, sick of gambling’ phase at the moment. There is more to life and we deserve so much more than to waste away mindlessly pressing buttons on a computer screen watching numbers rise and fall. And of course they always fall as we don’t stop. Here to a happy positive gamble free weekend. Hope you have a good one. While I’m here does anybody know any free iPhone gam blocks I can put in place please? Many thanks. Xx

Posted on:
Fri, 11/05/2018 - 16:36

Hardly27

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I've made it to the end of day 2! Not even attempted to get on a site to gamble. Not that I can anyway because I have no money control of my account as my partner has taken it all. Rightly so. I dont feel any better or any worse than I did before i stopped gambling but I'm sure that will come in time.

In reply to your comment girl thank you for praising my efforts it means a lot it's hard but hopefully it will get easier as time goes along . Although im not in denile i truly believe i will always have those voices trying to convince me to gamble just 10 pounds but i wont!
I feel exactly the same as you I have minus figures at the moment so can't see any positives other than I don't have more debt to try handle at the end of another day.

In regards to blocking software
I have used GAMSTOP as a lot of others on the site have. it's a wonderful self exclusion site that is available to use if you're from the UK it's put a block on all the sites I was registered on including any sister sites I did it yesterday and can honestly say it has worked and seems to be active for the 5 year term I've set it up for. It's a hard step to take knowing you will never be able to wither away your money on boring days but we are all here for the same reason. We are at rock bottom and trying to pull ourselves up and if 100% self exclusion is going to help me then so be it I can't do this any more I want to be set free from this horrible addiction and get me back x

Posted on:
Fri, 11/05/2018 - 19:13

GirlJ

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2015-03-05

Yes I’m at the end of first day gamble free and also feel no better or worse. Just happy that I’ve made steps that I won’t gsmble. I’ve signed upto the gamstop first thing after self excluding last night too. I haven’t wanted to try to log in to any to test if it’s worked but I will give it a go in a second as I have no money anyway and will be thrilled if it’s active and blocking them already. Have a great gamble free weekend x

Posted on:
Fri, 11/05/2018 - 20:38

Joydivider

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2015-03-11

Hi Hardly27.

Recovery should not be seen as the scary part of this. The scary part was when we were like zombies feeding money into the damned things and risking everything

The scary part was not realising an addiction had us in its full grip. I didnt understand the addiction when I was gambling and I completely ignored the odds. Time and time again I gambled to extinction  as if it was my aim to lose everything. Win or lose I didnt care as I was playing. I certainly cared when I was walking home with dark thoughts....I desperately cared about the money when faced with a spoonful of cheap mayonaise and nothing left to pawn. Thats how absolutely dangerous the addiction is 

You see we would have lost the ten pounds or what we went in with. As compulsive addicted gamblers that would not have been our stopping point  nobody like losing and the dopamine is flowing. What we were playing for would not have filled our souls and it was never enough. The odds on the top prize are thousands to one on a machine and the RTP percentage means nothing per session.

It was a self destruct button because I couldnt face the real issues in my life. I have been deluding myself for forty years and that all comes out in counselling or talking it through properly. Forty years I have been running from life and gambling was what I ran to. I cant really call it escape because it just left a trail of destruction. The addicted mind does not and will not see gambling clearly.

Being gamble free is a much better feeling as the mind heals. Im not saying life becomes euphoric every day but you can focus on why you were putting off joing things and hobbies. Life needs to be faced while gamble free

I do see it as a born again moment because you have to throw everything into a new you. There is no room for half measures and the addiction needs to be feared and treated with the respect it deserves. Its complex and much of it was within me as a person. I had all the excuses why life was boring without gambling but they were false excuses.

Stress, anxiety and depression were major triggers but all gambling did was drag me down further. The gambling dens know its a tax on the bored, poor and hopeless. Its a shot in the vein for the desperate and disenfranchised. It also affects well paid footballers and top lawyers so its a nasty and complex addiction

When you have something better to do with a healthy mind (and there is always something better to do) gambling will fade from your life. It does need the proper support and blocks. Gamstop has been a long time coming but is very welcome. Its not just that though...you need a new pride in your life while telling the gambling dens that you want nothing to do with them

Best wishes from everyone on the forum

 

Posted on:
Sat, 12/05/2018 - 18:58

Hardly27

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Joydivider wrote:

Hi Hardly27.

Recovery should not be seen as the scary part of this. The scary part was when we were like zombies feeding money into the damned things and risking everything

The scary part was not realising an addiction had us in its full grip. I didnt understand the addiction when I was gambling and I completely ignored the odds. Time and time again I gambled to extinction  as if it was my aim to lose everything. Win or lose I didnt care as I was playing. I certainly cared when I was walking home with dark thoughts....I desperately cared about the money when faced with a spoonful of cheap mayonaise and nothing left to pawn. Thats how absolutely dangerous the addiction is 

You see we would have lost the ten pounds or what we went in with. As compulsive addicted gamblers that would not have been our stopping point  nobody like losing and the dopamine is flowing. What we were playing for would not have filled our souls and it was never enough. The odds on the top prize are thousands to one on a machine and the RTP percentage means nothing per session.

It was a self destruct button because I couldnt face the real issues in my life. I have been deluding myself for forty years and that all comes out in counselling or talking it through properly. Forty years I have been running from life and gambling was what I ran to. I cant really call it escape because it just left a trail of destruction. The addicted mind does not and will not see gambling clearly.

Being gamble free is a much better feeling as the mind heals. Im not saying life becomes euphoric every day but you can focus on why you were putting off joing things and hobbies. Life needs to be faced while gamble free

I do see it as a born again moment because you have to throw everything into a new you. There is no room for half measures and the addiction needs to be feared and treated with the respect it deserves. Its complex and much of it was within me as a person. I had all the excuses why life was boring without gambling but they were false excuses.

Stress, anxiety and depression were major triggers but all gambling did was drag me down further. The gambling dens know its a tax on the bored, poor and hopeless. Its a shot in the vein for the desperate and disenfranchised. It also affects well paid footballers and top lawyers so its a nasty and complex addiction

When you have something better to do with a healthy mind (and there is always something better to do) gambling will fade from your life. It does need the proper support and blocks. Gamstop has been a long time coming but is very welcome. Its not just that though...you need a new pride in your life while telling the gambling dens that you want nothing to do with them

Best wishes from everyone on the forum

 

What a great post. So insightful and I couldn't agree more with what you've said it was an escape from a "boring" life I had nothing better to do and it became my kryptonite I'm thankful after 6 years I've realised the destruction it causes as it could have gone on much longer. For that I'm thankful I don't fear the escape I fear the problems I now have to face which I've ignored because I was sure I could resolve them by just one more win... it never came. Thanks for reading and leaving such an insightful comment on my post best wishes to you on your journey and recovery x

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Sat, 12/05/2018 - 19:05

Hardly27

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2018-05-09

I've made it to then end of day 3. Today I've been out to a family birthday party which I would have made any excuse to not go to before as I couldn't face everyone knowing they were happy and I was miserable. A selfish view as by just sitting and being involved in convosations I've found that I'm not alone we all have our own problems but I was too wrapped up in my own problems to care or think about them. Today has been a massive thing for me as my anxiety also stops me from coersing with people, but strangely it wasn't as bad today. Maybe because I wasn't constantly thinking of the next win or how I wanted to get away to gamble. I sat I talked I listened and best of all I enjoyed myself I already feel like I'm changing as a person even after such a small amount of time

Posted on:
Sat, 12/05/2018 - 23:56

Hardly27

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2018-05-09

Serious urges tonight. I know I can't get on to the sites but that's making me more frustrated and irritable :( I hate this feeling

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Sun, 13/05/2018 - 08:52

Plumdoll

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Morning hardly27 hope you made it though the night. Have you tried taking on a hobby? I find when I’m not just sat doing nothing i last not gambling. I’m only on day 2 as I relapsed but lasted 9 months last time and I put that down to doing stuff in my spare time, reading, colouring in, sewing. I even tried to learn to crochet but that went badly and just made me angry lol

Good luck and stay strong

Plumdoll 

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Sun, 13/05/2018 - 13:33

Hardly27

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Plumdoll wrote:

Morning hardly27 hope you made it though the night. Have you tried taking on a hobby? I find when I’m not just sat doing nothing i last not gambling. I’m only on day 2 as I relapsed but lasted 9 months last time and I put that down to doing stuff in my spare time, reading, colouring in, sewing. I even tried to learn to crochet but that went badly and just made me angry lol

Good luck and stay strong

Plumdoll 


Thanks plum I've made it to day four and resisted thus far I'm still trying to think of things to keep me busy so far ive just been playing games on my phone but I feel like I need some more excitement. Hard at the minute as I have no money at all but trying to think positively as I might have lost my money but I'm trying to build up again from scratch thanks for replying x

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Sun, 13/05/2018 - 13:58

Plumdoll

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If you like reading I’ve found a site called bookbub they send you regular updates of cheap and free books available on different platforms. I had lots of free reads off there x

Posted on:
Sun, 13/05/2018 - 17:38

Hardly27

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I love reading thanks for the info I'm going to have a look :) xx

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Sun, 13/05/2018 - 20:24

Hardly27

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I've made it to the end of day four... dont remember the last time I went this long without being on a site. Went shopping with my mum today and she bought me a new outfit and shoes. Such a long time since I've had a physical treat from anywhere it felt great to have something that I could see and feel. In a way I reflected over how bad my mind set had got as a few days ago 10 pounds in my bank felt like nothing and today I found myself looking at the prices on clothes imagining all the stuff I could have got over the years with the money I've dwindelled away on these sites.my full outfit cost under 20 pounds and that felt like a lot to me especially seeing it as cash in hand rather than credits for these online slots and bingo. I've wasted so much of my life and money on a virtual world that I've neglected my home and myself and even my beautiful children (relying on others to buy their clothes and scrimping and scraping by for food) I've been an awful mum and haven't even put my kids before gambling. I'm so glad I went out today as It was a real eye opener

Feeling positive tonight although full of regret and hurt I can't get past this feeling... I hope

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Mon, 14/05/2018 - 16:49

Hardly27

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Day 5 gf! Yay me

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Mon, 14/05/2018 - 22:21

GirlJ

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Well done on day 5 gf hardly! I had to reset my counter as I went on the lotto site argh. But no point in not being honest. I’m wondering how I was allowed and why the gamstop isn’t working for me when it said I’d signed up successfully :( never mind day 1 starts tomorrow and I’m feeling positive again. Glad you had a weekend of eye openers it helps to keep you on the gf path. X

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Wed, 16/05/2018 - 23:03

Hardly27

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GirlJ wrote:

Well done on day 5 gf hardly! I had to reset my counter as I went on the lotto site argh. But no point in not being honest. I’m wondering how I was allowed and why the gamstop isn’t working for me when it said I’d signed up successfully :( never mind day 1 starts tomorrow and I’m feeling positive again. Glad you had a weekend of eye openers it helps to keep you on the gf path. X

Ah I'm sorry to hear that girlj GAMSTOP only works on sites that are registered with them and the lottery is a charity so not sure if that's why best of luck on staying gamble free xx

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Wed, 16/05/2018 - 23:05

Hardly27

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So today marks day 7!! Woohoo a full week of being gambling free might not seen massive to some but it's a huge achievement for me I'm so proud of myself. Yes I've missed it when the boredom strikes but I've pulled myself through it and haven't even tried to get on any of the sites. Here's to a long lasting gambling free future xx

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Thu, 17/05/2018 - 13:29

GirlJ

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Well done on 1 week hardly!! Such a big feat. Isn’t it lovely knowing when you go to bed each night that you haven’t disappointed yourself and wasted anymore money on those sites. I’m in loads of debt which still gives me anxiety but the thought of not getting in deeper brings somewhat content feelings. Day 3 gamble free for me I feel good also. Xxx

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Thu, 17/05/2018 - 21:41

Hardly27

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Absolutely it does girl and thanks so much! I feel the exact same the debts are a constant worry in my mind and the fact I can no longer bury my head in the sand and I have to face it terrifys me but today marks day 8 and I feel content knowing I haven't dwindelled away anymore money and made the debts any worse. Tomorrow I'm seeing a debt advisor who's coming to my house so day 9 is going to be a struggle but I'm winning so far! Well done for getting back on track you're doing brilliantly xx

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Fri, 18/05/2018 - 13:41

Hardly27

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Day 9! Can't believe I'm at day 9 already. Today I have faced my biggest fear and faced all those debt letters ive been hoarding and avoiding... the debt wasn't as massive as I thought it was thankfully currently at 5 and half thousand which is huge but not the 11 thousand I thought it was! but still a way to go to get my finances in order. My next step is seeing my citizens advisor on the 25th of may to get myself set up on the best debt management plan and go from there

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Sat, 19/05/2018 - 00:17

Hardly27

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2018-05-09

I'm so thankful my willpower is maintaining thus far. all I can say is I'm thankful for gamstop it's a blessing especially when you're lying in bed thinking of what you can do to waste time if you can't sleep. Like now I have major urges from boredom more than anything. they haven't gone away. But knowing I haven't got access to money or the sites is the only way I get through these moments and It's worked so far Fingers crossed for a clear head in the morning when I finally manage to switch off

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Sat, 19/05/2018 - 09:11

silee70

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2018-05-18

Hey, sounds like you're doing really well. I'm nearly 4 months without gambling and I can honestly say it doesn't bother but that's probably largely due to the fact that I'd self excluded from the sites I used and have recently signed up with gamstop for 5 years.    Just like gambling options were there and you were drawn to the habit, the fact they are no longer there will change your habits (for the better!) and your way of thinking. Keep it up!!

Posted on:
Sat, 19/05/2018 - 14:59

Hardly27

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2018-05-09

Thank you silee it doesn't bother me most of the day until I end up thinking about debts. But yes I have GAMSTOP in place also. Wonderful software and dont think I would be managing as well without it. Well done on your progress you sound like you've got it managed well!

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Sat, 19/05/2018 - 18:37

Forum admin

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Hello Hardly27

Well done on 9 days gamble free and on taking the important step to get your debts sorted out. I hope it's helping that you are posting regularly in the GamCare forum. 

Now that you are updating this thread frequently, how about starting a diary over in the 'Recovery Diaries' section? Just go to Recovery Diaries and click 'New topic'.

Best wishes and keep posting,

Deirdre
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