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#1 Posted on:
Wed, 21/12/2016 - 09:52

Moorey631986

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Hello, I am new to this forum, but felt the need to join something to gain strength in my battle to recover from gambling. 

I have lost a lot of money over the last 12 months in what has been the worst time possible, having moved into my first house. I lost £200 this morning on online roulette and decided that enough was enough.

I reckon I've lost about £6,000 in the last 12 months. It's time to end this farce. Day 1 starts as from now.

I've been inspired by some of the success stories that I have read on here and I want to be one of them. 

My gambling history isn't too severe. I've gambled for the last 12 years but only in the last 12 months has it become out of control. Prior to that I was only betting what I could afford.

I was enjoying my gambling, but not anymore. That's why it has to stop.

Predictably, like many, it's roulette that has been my downfall. 

I have a good job with a decent wage so it's time I started to build my savings up again. Starting from now....

Here's to Day one and many more after that. 

 

Posted on:
Wed, 21/12/2016 - 10:42

Tom_2015

Joined:
2015-12-22

Good on you for recognising your issue. It's a progressive addiction and before you know it you'll end up a quivering mess still depositing and chasing. When the compulsion grabs you it's difficult to stop, with many stopping only because they have nothing left to gamble with.

I don't want to make light of your situation but if you stop now and stay stopped you'd have got off relatively unscathed. I can say this as I had the chance to stop at £1k, £6k then £10k but I let it back in and eventually stopped at £60k - £70k. Don't be that guy, learn from everyone here, that's why you're here anyway right? To learn how to stop. I wish you well.

Posted on:
Wed, 21/12/2016 - 12:07

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

 

Thanks Tom! 

Yes I'm aware after reading some of these stories that I aren't quite in the same league as others. 

However, I have probably felt just as bad as you and anyone else.

I have betrayed so many people who have given me money which I have used to fund my addiction.

I've hated myself for doing it but couldn't find a way to stop. Despite several attempts.

I've downloaded a cool app which tells me, minute by minute, how much I've saved in gambling thus far. I've only been gf for 3 hours but I'm already up to £1.50 saved. I'll look forward to checking it and seeing that money grow and grow. To me, that in itself will feel like money in the bank. I'm very excited by all this. Though I'm not stupid enough to think this will be easy.

For so many years, Saturdays and Sundays have always been about the football and gambling on the football. It's what I used to love about the weekend. I would bet on matches and then sit watching them in excitement. I'm going to find it extremely difficult to stop that. That's when the real test begins.

My biggest fear is how will I ever watch sport again with the same excitement? What will I replace such a big part of my life with at the weekends? I do love sport, though it has probably become apparent that it was the betting I loved rather than the sport itself. 

My other biggest fear is that EVERYONE I know has a flutter from time to time and openly talk about it. That has been what has dragged me back in before. 

I don't like feeling left out. 

Sad, but true.

But I'll cross that bridge when I come to it. Still a long way to go until then....

Posted on:
Wed, 21/12/2016 - 12:24

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Hi Morrey,

Interesting point you've raised about your love of sport. You are exactly right; it's the betting you wanted, not the sport. But here's the funny thing. I love watching football. The question is, can you enjoy watching it without a bet?

And here's the strange answer. It's yes. When you gamble on a game, you don't really watch the game, you watch the SCORE. When you don't bet, you watch the GAME, and learn more about the joys of the game itself - the players, the teams, the skills, the tactics, the spirit and the atmosphere. Without the irritation of a one-dimensional, cold and (frankly) dull bet, you can actually enjoy the game itself. And if you'd've won if you'd've backed the result, well - so what. Fact is, you'd lose overall so what's the point anyway. It's time for you to fall in love with the GAME again (whatever sport, that is, you like).

As regards the roulette, well you can knock that one the head right now. Sticking money into a computer program that's stacked against you? Naaaa, no thanks. Just stop. The cashiers behind the counter sniggering at you (and they ARE) and hoping you do your nuts to help boost their bonuses? Not any more.

And don't worry about being 'left out'. Just say you're not betting any more to your mates and family. They'll understand. And secretly respect you, too. Be strong! Are you a leader or a *****...? (You know the answer to that!)

If you are serious about stopping for good, from TODAY, then why not join a challenge with like-minded determined souls on here. There are the 2016 and 2107 challenges, in the 'Overcoming Gambling' section of the forum. Or, the 100 day challenge wherever EVERYONE in the group has to stop for 100 days - else the 'team' day counter resets back to 0.

Keep Gambling Free - time to get off the train to hell and choose life over certain misery. Good news - you're getting off the train in time - but only just; you know that.

Posted on:
Wed, 21/12/2016 - 12:36

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thanks Mixer!

You are spot on with everything you say! You're right, I do need to fall back in love with my sports. 

As with everything else in my life too, my girlfriend, my friends, my family and the rest.

I'll definitely check out those challenges you've mentioned. It may be just the thing I need to help spur me on! 

Posted on:
Wed, 21/12/2016 - 14:52

Tom_2015

Joined:
2015-12-22

Amazingly well written there Mixer.

Great insight which will help others.

Posted on:
Wed, 21/12/2016 - 17:08

P_K

Joined:
2015-08-12

Hi Moorey, your second post took me back.  My problems manifested themselves with football betting.  A game I'd loved for as long as I could remember and which I played for almost 30 years.  The excitement sitting watching Jeff and the boys on Sky Sports....made even better when in a pub with some mates.....then eventually I didn't have to go to a pub there was just a seemingly non-stop run of football on my own television and then when even that wasn't enough I found myself lying in bed at 3 a.m watching live matches from South America on a tiny 5in x 4 in computer window.  Rarely but occasionally I'd have a 'punch the air' moment but I didn't fullly appreciate that all I was celebrating was some more funds to bet with.

As ridiculous as it sounds I found it hard to contemplate a normal day to day life without live football matches on a regular basis BUT in an attempt to control my addiction I effectively cut myself off from professional football for close to a year.

I didn't watch live matches, I didn't watch highlights, I'd ignore sports news websites and although it was hard at first...coupled with adapting to a new lifestyle with no betting...It got easier.

I accepted an invitation to watch the CL final in the May after stopping the previous August and it was okay (I was still nervous beforehand) but I spent so much time just gassing with friends I didn't really notice the football. 

I then started going to watch my local team which was a completely different kettle of fish from the slick Premiership model shown on cable tv.   I got a season ticket in August and thoroughly enjoy it with absolutely no thoughts of gambling on the result, the number of corners, number of bookings, etc.

I do now feel able to scan the results on a Sunday or watch live matches without any temptation to bet but still tend to restrict it to big matches.

I'm still acutely aware of how helpless I felt when I arrived at this site and of the comfort I took from people who had the same illness and who had managed to take some positive steps.  Hopefully my recent experiences can do the same for you or others.

Posted on:
Wed, 21/12/2016 - 17:25

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Cheers PK!

Yes, keeping away from the football and the cricket will be incredibly difficult. I remember the days when I used to watch the games for fun, but now I can't do so unless I'm supporting a team to win or hoping for over x amount of corners etc...

I do hope that genuine love for sport does return for me. 

I'm a season ticket holder for my local team too, and I found myself betting against them and secretly hoping they'd lose in the hope of winning some money. That's not right!!!

I'm trying to keep away from sport on the television.

Posted on:
Wed, 21/12/2016 - 20:39

Rich2016

Joined:
2016-09-03

 

does get easier as the days go by, day 1 will soon be day 50, at the beginning just make sure all the blocks are in place, what worked for me was not carrying my debit card with me, taking out enought to get me through the month then putting in a drawer 

It is possible to enjoy watching sport without having a bet maybe at the early stage just concentrate on getting through the days but you'll soon be able to enjoy it without having a bet

I could write a book on some of my idiotic sports bets, used to bet on corners, the games flew by & was so gut wrenching when a blatant corner was given as a goal kick, was even once when my team was challenging for the title I was disappointed when the keeper palmed the ball into the net, I wanted a corner, that's what it does you messes with your mind

I eventually moved off sports bets onto blackjack & roulette which are equally doomed to failure

Took me long enough to realise but stopping gambling is best thing I've done in a while, your life will be better without it, the stress & anxiety it brings is not worth it, so many better things to spend our hard earned money on

Good luck

 

 

 

 

 

 

Posted on:
Thu, 22/12/2016 - 10:30

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

 

Day 2

No major urges to gamble so far, but I'm constantly clock watching to see how long it's been. That can't be a good sign?

I can only hope that as the days tick by, that will dissappear.

Surprisingly, having read alot of diaries on here, I've not been dwelling too much on the money that I've lost. Though I'm aware that could be because I'm not in any kind of debt. 

I am anxious to build up my savings as quickly as possible though because I think my parents think that I have around 3k in the bank. When in reality, I have about £200. They're constantly asking me why I'm not buying certain things for my new house. 

I want to build up a steady savings before they twig! 

Anyway, on with my day. Hopefully another GF day...

Thanks again for all your replies. They mean so much in times like this!

Posted on:
Thu, 22/12/2016 - 20:12

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Good man, Moorey. I can clearly see you're sincere and serious about this. Roll on more GF days, one at a time. I'm confiident you can get control of this, actually.

Posted on:
Thu, 22/12/2016 - 20:26

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thanks Mixer! 

Yes, I've never been more serious about giving up. I've tried in the past, but with no real game plan.

I've been very unsettled today but it's not because I've wanted to gamble. It's bizarre!

It's like a big part of my life has been taken away and I'm struggling to find something to replace it with. It makes it even harder the fact that I'm off work for the next couple of weeks. 

But I've never wanted to gamble less than I do right now. 

This whole experience has been a massive wake up call. 

I'm not sure what my motive was to gamble, but I desperately want to build my savings up. 

I'm treating each hour that passes by as a win for me. The equivalent of winning a bet, but in a way where I feel like I've worked hard for it and not cheated my way to a quick (lucky) buck. 

If that makes sense?

Posted on:
Thu, 22/12/2016 - 22:48

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Hi Moorey,

It does make sense and here are a few pointers that you might find useful...

When you are classed as having a compulsive gambler mindset (which you have, and so do I, incidentally), every betting cycle has the same pattern, which is: 1. You may win. 2. You may lose. 3. If you win, then eventually you'll lose more than you win.    (In other words, you always lose eventually).

That understood, you know you can't win.

Next, motivation to stop. You want to stop wasting your time/money/reputation on this disastrous course (as you know it will be). You also need to rebuild your savings. Here's what to do. Let your cash build up in your current account.  It will, because you're not gambling it. Your 'free spend' will increase quite nicely. Enjoy looking at your bank statements from time to time. When, and only when, it's hit what you need (you talked about £3k?) transfer it into your savings. Meantime, quietly, build up the balance.

And there you have it! I'm taking the time to write this to you, btw, because you're going to do this. The deal is: I'm not wasting my time and you are not going to waste your life - anymore :)

Posted on:
Thu, 22/12/2016 - 23:38

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thanks again Mixer for taking the time to write those very useful tips and logic. 

I'm looking forward to reaching my 7 day target as I've not gone that long without betting for about 10 years!

The future excites me because of this. I'm so envious of all my mates who seem to have far more money than I do for holidays, nights out etc. The truth is my holiday/night out money is being fed into the roulette wheel and various other sporting bets. 

I could have had so many more great experiences in my life. 

Thankfully I'm still young enough to claw those opportunities back.

This has been/is the hardest battle I've had to face. 

Posted on:
Thu, 22/12/2016 - 23:53

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Congratulations Moorey, because your gambling-free future has started; in fact, it started 7 days ago. You are never going to gamble ever again. You are giving yourself the key to the door of a gambling free future, and you unlocked it a week ago.

You are going to make some realisations over the last few days, weeks and months. This is an entirely natural part of the process. You may feel profound regret, and even understand what lead you to gambling in the first place. Don't worry, though, again, these feelings are natural. You will come out stronger the other side. You may feel that counselling helps, or meetings, or phoning Gamcare, or reading and writing on these forums. You may feel like sharing your feelings and issues with your loved ones, but only 'when and if' you think that is the best thing to do.

I have just given you a potted history of the next few stages to help you prepare. Meantime, keep gambling free, day to day, every day.

Importantly, your loved ones and friends will look at you with a new sense of respect. (They really will.)

You'll feel better, act better, look better and be better. Enjoy this epithany and a much better future. It will be hard work, but so, so, worth it. You've stopped, and every day, remind yourself that you are in the gambling-free world. You have chosen life over misery.

Why have I written this in a 'matter of fact' style to you Moorey? Simple. Because you are never going to gamble again!

Posted on:
Fri, 23/12/2016 - 08:45

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 3 of no gambling.

So far, so good.

I'm not going to lie, I've had no real urges or temptations to go and place a bet/gamble, but the thought is forever on my mind. 

I've too much time on my hands at the moment and I need to fill ny days better. 

However, I've made it to day 3 and that's all that counts right now.

Posted on:
Fri, 23/12/2016 - 08:56

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Hi  Moorey,

Day 3 under your belt; good man!

 

Now, whilst it's clear you are never gambling again, no one said it would be easy.

You will find ways to better manage your time.

Let's see what you're made of here. Let's see your true character , Moorey.

As they say in the army: "If we were out on the battlefield, would you have my back?".

Defining moments ahead, Moorey.

Posted on:
Fri, 23/12/2016 - 11:15

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Up for the challenge Mixer!

Thankfully, I'm a pretty stubborn person when it comes to determination to succeeding.

It's time to kick this disgusting habit into touch for good! 

Posted on:
Fri, 23/12/2016 - 11:35

ScottM

Joined:
2011-07-06

Hey Moorey,

Good to see you here, it's the best place for people like us. The encouragement you get here from people who know exactly the anguish you're going through is invaluable. I was in your position 5 years ago and I've come through it mostly unscathed. 

Like you, I had gambled for many years before it became a "problem" as such. Acknowledgment of that is a huge part of recovery, as is the determination you are already showing. It's going to be a long journey, but it's one worth making. Keep up with the updates on this diary, it will help you to focus on why you are doing this.

Good luck, my friend. One day at a time.  

 

Posted on:
Fri, 23/12/2016 - 12:17

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Cheers Scott! 

Yes, this site is proving to be an invaluable tool to my very early success. It's great to hear from so many people like yourself, who've been through the mill and come out the other side. It shows that it can be done!

It helps to know that it's not just me that is facing these difficulties. That's how it felt before I came across this site. I felt trapped and alone. Now I have genuine hope and belief!

Posted on:
Sat, 24/12/2016 - 10:17

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

On to Day 4 gamble free.

Still no major urge to gamble which is positive. I'm really looking forward to next pay day so I can see the benefits that not gambling will have had. Unfortunately that''s another 4 and a half weeks away so I have to stay patient. 

I've been so much happier within myself these last few days.

Long may it continue!

Posted on:
Sat, 24/12/2016 - 10:51

ScottM

Joined:
2011-07-06

Nice one, Moorey. One day at a time is how it works for me. Temptation is never far away.

Just a note of caution, that feeling of not gambling can feel great. It's when that initial buzz of being GF goes that you need to be on guard for. You can do this mate, but it's a battle we fight every day. Keep up the diary, every GF update is a win. I actually got competitive about it, I just wanted to keep the streak going.

Posted on:
Sat, 24/12/2016 - 16:54

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Thanks Scott, I'll take note of that and prepare myself for it. 

I'm starting to feel like I want to gamble again - on sports rather than the roulette - but I know my stubborness won't let me. 

I'm very competitive and this has become a battle between me and gambling. I refuse to lose! 

It would hurt me so much to give in. So I won't/can't let that happen. 

It's a matter of pride. I'm too proud and stubborn a person to give up.

Finally, my bad personality traits are coming in handy....haha!

Posted on:
Sun, 25/12/2016 - 07:53

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Merry Christmas people! 

What better way to spend it than it being a gamble free day! 

Day 5 for me. Slow and steady progress...

Have a great day everyone!

Posted on:
Sun, 25/12/2016 - 22:02

ScottM

Joined:
2011-07-06

Slow and steady is good. 5 days is excellent. Keep it going. Baby steps.

Posted on:
Mon, 26/12/2016 - 09:32

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 6 - still gamble free and feeling amazing for it. I've not gone this long gf for about 10 years. It's a massive struggle at the moment, don't get me wrong. 

Even more so today because of all the boxing day sport.

But I keep reminding myself of where I want to be in 6 months time and where I could be with my finances. That's what is driving me on. 

Keep fighting boys and girls! 

Stay strong and stay gamble free. 

Hope you all had a lovely Christmas Day. 

Posted on:
Mon, 26/12/2016 - 10:10

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Good stuff Moorey, you are showing us what you are made of. Sensibly, intelligently and proactively you are choosing LIFE rather than abject misery. Keep going, one day at a time. I knew you'd be up for this. DO NOT let yourself down.

P.S. Happy Boxing Day :)

 

Posted on:
Mon, 26/12/2016 - 10:15

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Happy Boxing Day Mix!

Cheers for your support. It means a lot.

Posted on:
Tue, 27/12/2016 - 09:56

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

6 full days complete, gamble free.

Today is the start of Day 7. 

I'm beginning to miss the sports betting but I'm determined to build up my savings and not have to start again at Day 0.

Yesterday was very tough but came through it.

I'll be a lot better once I'm back at work in the New Year. 

Here's to another gamble free day!

Posted on:
Tue, 27/12/2016 - 10:59

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Hi Moorey, 

Well done for showing strength of character to swerve sports betting yesterday. Believe me, one day you'll look back, and think - my god, I might have won a few but I lost far more. And whilst my non-gambling friends were streaking ahead in life, here I was getting nowhere fast!

Now you are with the pack, Moorey and have every chance. Never again with the sad, pitiful donkeys at the back of the field. And how easy is it, really. No more gambling today. And tomorrow; repeat. We are blessed with brains and nous. Let's not waste this gift.

Posted on:
Tue, 27/12/2016 - 11:31

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Excellently put Mixer, thanks!

Posted on:
Wed, 28/12/2016 - 09:44

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

One full week complete gambling free! Next target - double figures.

Setting myself small targets for the time being. 

Posted on:
Wed, 28/12/2016 - 22:32

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Small targets is best: one day at a time. The way I look at it, at the end of each day, I mentally prepare for the next. I sow the seed of thought that, no matter what the provocation, no matter what slings and arrows the day may bring, I will NOT gamble. 

All the best and congratulations on getting a week GF under your belt.

Posted on:
Thu, 29/12/2016 - 07:40

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

8 days gamble free!

Needing to update this diary on a daily basis at the moment to see my progress. I'm sure as time goes on I won't need to. 

I can't believe it's been 8 whole days though so far. 

I've had a few urges along the way, including some major ones last night. But I kept telling myself that I've done the hardest part of completing a week. Why throw that all away now!

This forum has helped big time though!!!!!

Without it, I may have caved.

Posted on:
Thu, 29/12/2016 - 07:58

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Moorey, just pop back when you need to. And keep counting, day by day. Keep on your guard. Remember, we are never 'cured'; we have to keep on top of it, day by day, forever. My suggestion, pop back once a week! If you feel weak, post anytime. Or seek other support. All the best. 

Posted on:
Thu, 29/12/2016 - 13:43

ScottM

Joined:
2011-07-06

Can't agree more with mixer on the 'cured' thing. Left to our own devices, we would gamble till the cows come home. I've been mostly gamble free for 5 years, but I'm now back to day 2. So keep going, Moorey. You're in the right place.

Posted on:
Fri, 30/12/2016 - 11:05

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

9 day gamble free!

It's been one hell of a battle so far. I'm hoping that this '21 days' gamble free helps me to stop thinking about it as much as I do currently. It'l help massively when I'm back at work next Tuesday. Being off for these last 9 days has given me every excuse to cave, but so far so good! 

Posted on:
Fri, 30/12/2016 - 17:26

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Having loads of urges tonight to have a bet on the football! 

But trying to distract myself from it all.

I've chosen the worst possible time to quit, in amongst having 2 weeks off work. Ha! 

Roll on next Tuesday.

Posted on:
Sat, 31/12/2016 - 19:35

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Fell of the wagon this afternoon.

Made the fatal mistake of thinking that I could play some online roulette as I was 'cured'. 

Never the case! As so many people have said on here!

Thankfully, I only lost £100. Not the end of the world. But a kick in the backside to remind me where I'm at my most happiest. Not gambling! 

So, back to Day 0....

I'm feeling positive, strangely, because I know I can do it. 

I guess curiosity was my downfall. But I'm much happier not gambling. These last 10 days have felt like a breath of fresh air. 

Bring on 2017!!! 

A no gambling year! 

Happy New Year folks. 

Posted on:
Sat, 31/12/2016 - 19:50

Mixer

Joined:
2016-12-03

Look at your 'blip' as a dress rehearsal, Moorey. From tonight, it's the real deal. One day at a time. 

Posted on:
Sun, 01/01/2017 - 10:04

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Right, Day 1 starts today!

No more blips.

A new year, a new me! 

This time next year I'm going to be in a much better position financially. I'm in total control of that.

Posted on:
Sun, 01/01/2017 - 10:10

Rhoda

Joined:
2016-12-06

Naaahhh you didn't really think you were 'cured'. You knew what would happen, be honest with yourself. You chose to gamble. How about getting blocks on your computer/ phone so that removes that source of temptation. New Year, new start....get blocks in place today.

Posted on:
Sun, 01/01/2017 - 10:16

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

I only use my phone as a source to gamble. Maybe I do need to get blockers for it. 

I didn't even enjoy gambling yesterday. I felt so hollow and dirty doing it. 

There was no buzz or excitement. I felt like I was cheating. That if I'd won, I'd still have been annoyed and angry with myself. 

I was just curious to see if I could get the old spark back again from about 5 years ago. I used to love gambling because I had total control of it. I could let losses go and bet again a few days later on sports that genuinely took my interest. But not now.

I have to realise that. 

I will realise that. 

Posted on:
Mon, 02/01/2017 - 13:22

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

Day 2 - gamble free. 

Need to clock up some serious numbers now. 

In cricketing terms, it's time to go big and score a daddy hundred!

Posted on:
Mon, 02/01/2017 - 16:46

Skyblueblue

Joined:
2016-10-06

Moorey631986 wrote:

Day 2 - gamble free. 

Need to clock up some serious numbers now. 

In cricketing terms, it's time to go big and score a daddy hundred!

Hi mate - Nice to see your honesty and returning to try again, however do you really want this ?

You are still thinking and talking like someone who is not there yet.

What do you want to give up for ? Who do you want to give up for ? How do you want to feel ? What do you want do be able to do instead ?

Stop thinking about all the sport and starting at the wrong time and take responsibility to fix this once and for all.

I want you hitting that big daddy hundred, so dont take your eye off the ball !

Sbb

 

Posted on:
Mon, 02/01/2017 - 23:27

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

You're right ssb, I'm not sure I want to give up the football betting if I'm totally honest. It's been the online roulette that's triggered my addiction over the last 12 months...

But I have got to the point where I think placing an innocent £4 bet on the football just leads to the online roulette if my bet doesn't come in. So that's why I have to shut off all betting avenues. 

I'm in a fairly stable financial position (no debt, my own house etc..) but I'm sliding into what could be a horrible mess if I'm not careful. I have money to gamble this month, over £400 in fact, but I really don't want to! My blip a few days ago made me feel pathetic and weak. I don't want to repeat that again. 

Actions speak louder than words so the only way I can prove to you, myself and others are to clock up the gf days. 

I want this for me! Life without gambling and money worries is far better than the stresses that come with gambling and losing. 

Thanks for your post sbb

Posted on:
Tue, 03/01/2017 - 07:52

Skyblueblue

Joined:
2016-10-06

Moorey631986 wrote:

You're right ssb, I'm not sure I want to give up the football betting if I'm totally honest. It's been the online roulette that's triggered my addiction over the last 12 months...

But I have got to the point where I think placing an innocent £4 bet on the football just leads to the online roulette if my bet doesn't come in. So that's why I have to shut off all betting avenues. 

I'm in a fairly stable financial position (no debt, my own house etc..) but I'm sliding into what could be a horrible mess if I'm not careful. I have money to gamble this month, over £400 in fact, but I really don't want to! My blip a few days ago made me feel pathetic and weak. I don't want to repeat that again. 

Actions speak louder than words so the only way I can prove to you, myself and others are to clock up the gf days. 

I want this for me! Life without gambling and money worries is far better than the stresses that come with gambling and losing. 

Thanks for your post sbb

A £4 innocent bet WILL take you closer and closer to a life of total misery. Fact - you cannot and will not either win or somehow dodge the inevitable.

You say you have £400 for gambling, what you are really saying is you have £400 you are going to throw away (which will happen), before looking at financial sources to try to win it back.....its madness to think that way.

What about £400 towards a holiday instead ? Something you can enjoy and remember.

I want you to succeed but there are no half measures, you cant pick and choose what you gamble on.......you need to stop completely and forever.

Sbb

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Tue, 03/01/2017 - 08:02

Cynical wife

Joined:
2015-06-23

Is what you're doing (no blocks, no external support, isolation, gambling being a substitute for relationships), is all of that the road to recovery or the continuing spiral downwards to become what a "real" addict looks like?

The compulsion's there but you don't have to let it take you over. Your life and your happiness depend on your choices. 

CW

Posted on:
Tue, 03/01/2017 - 18:05

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

72 hours now complete. No urges to gamble. But actions speak louder than words. I'm keeping busy all the time. This is it for me! I know the life that I want. 

That £400 is going nowhere other than my savings.

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Wed, 04/01/2017 - 17:10

Moorey631986

Joined:
2016-09-08

4 complete days gamble free.

It's not much but it's a start.

Determined to win once and for all this time though.

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Wed, 04/01/2017 - 17:27

Skyblueblue

Joined:
2016-10-06

Moorey631986 wrote:

4 complete days gamble free.

It's not much but it's a start.

Determined to win once and for all this time though.

You can only win by accepting you never can mate !

Do this for you and your family, every day is a step away from the hell and despair that is gambling.

Sbb 

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