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Posted on:
Mon, 04/12/2017 - 06:34

Little miss lost

Joined:
2016-05-24

Super post above scrambling.
Just goes to show, when the gambling haze lifts there is a world out there!!!
Makes me want to say . . . Looking forward to reading about 'the adventures of scrambling!' (Only the oldies will probably understand this, scrambling instead of tin tin!) Sorry if it's gibberish to you. It made me smile so's not all bad!
Keep counting up the days. It sounds like you're doing great! X

Posted on:
Tue, 05/12/2017 - 22:10

Scambling

Joined:
2012-06-21

 

Day 118,

Hello Little miss lost, yes there is a whole world out there waiting to be discovered! 

Long weekend is over and it was fairly relaxing. Starting to get this guitar thing down now, which is cool. Just need to keep practising! The run up to xmas is on and I still need to get the presents wrapped. Plenty of time yet, I just keep finding better things to do :)

As 2018 approaches I am looking forward to a fresh start in life, making the most of my mistakes by not forgetting, but learning from them.

Scambling

Posted on:
Wed, 06/12/2017 - 01:01

Crossintheroad

Joined:
2017-11-03

You're doing so well. Teaching yourself in your spare time is great. Motivation is something I am a little lacking in so really well done on it. Keep it up.

Posted on:
Thu, 07/12/2017 - 01:25

Scambling

Joined:
2012-06-21

Day 120,

4 months in, a long way to go, but still determined!

Scambling

Posted on:
Sun, 10/12/2017 - 21:55

Scambling

Joined:
2012-06-21

 

Day 123,

Had a horrible dream last night that I lost all the money I had managed to pay off land being back to where I was 4 months ago. I was so disappointed in myself. It felt very real, however it was not real and my march continues for a better life.

I have been enjoying my own time lately. Have been a bit lazy to be honest, but I think it was needed. Just as long as it doesn't become a habit! My goals remains still very much on developing and creating myself and that's not going to happen sitting in front of the laptop all day.

I keep up to date with my credit score and this month my score for the first time has changed from 'poor' to 'stable'. Another reminder that I am doing all things right. As its xmas soon, like most people I get paid early. It's going to be cool to pay off more of my debt as my xmas shopping is already done! 

However positive I am I can't say I am enjoying life at the moment because of recent personal events, however I know with time and staying away from gambling I can one day find peace and happiness. One day I shall be content :)

Be careful during the holiday season everybody. I know the pressure of xmas, buying gifts and going out for parties can urge you to try and make more money. I've been there, done it many times. It never works. It really never does.

Take care,

SCAMbling

Posted on:
Wed, 13/12/2017 - 01:18

Scambling

Joined:
2012-06-21

Day 126,

I read today that Broadway Gaming (operator of several online casinos) just received a fine of £100000 for breaching social responsibility regulations between June 16 - June 17. Funnily enough having done a bit of research this company operates one of the online casinos I used early this year losing rather a lot of money as my credit report shows a search by Broadway gaming for money laundering regulations. (Which they did not ask permission for). I thought about writing to the gambling commission with deposit history in an attempt to possibly claim back some money, however when I logged into the online casino to retrieve my transaction history I found that there were no transactions. My bank statements show otherwise. Bit fishy if you ask me. Not for a second was I tempted to browse any games or deposit so no worries there!

I started wrapping my xmas presents today. I forgot how long it takes. Yes I'm that guy who loses the end of the selotape everytime I put it down. Hahah...

Still dancing and picking up the guitar. Hit a bit of a wall with it, as I've learnt, but just need to constantly practice now. 

Also caught a cold and it's bloody freezing!! Bring on spring!! Brrrr

Scambling

Posted on:
Wed, 13/12/2017 - 09:35

Muststop123

Joined:
2017-10-03

Hi Scambling

Just thought I would pop in and say well done on 126 days GF, it is a tremedous achievement.

Have fun with the Christmas preparations and keep up the fight against gambling. I hate selotape but not as much as giving money to online casinos.

Muststop123

Posted on:
Fri, 22/12/2017 - 07:14

Scambling

Joined:
2012-06-21

Day 135,

Hi Muststop123, you too have a Merry Christmas and enjoy it without thr stress of gambling. 

I have been very busy, hence it's been a while since my last post. That's no excuse though, I'm sure I could have found 5 minutes in the day to post here. Must try harder! Payday came early this month. After paying what I can my debt has kow reduced to £10800. Almost down to just 4 figures! A lot better off than the £15300 I started with 135 days ago :)

Christmas will be here soon, so going to try and enjoy it as much as I can. 

Stay safe and Merry Christmas to you all!

SCAMbling

Posted on:
Sun, 24/12/2017 - 14:15

Scambling

Joined:
2012-06-21

Day 137,

I keep a close on on my finances, in fact it's all on a spreadsheet. Today whilst looking at it I realised I am 1/3 of the way to a debt free life. 5 paydays out of 15 have already passed! I'm looking forward to getting over the halfway mark. That will bring me to a debt level that I haved lived with for many years and am comfortable with. Slowly but surely I will get there as long as I stay GF!

No shortage of gamblers in the casino this time of year. Looking at  their miserable faces, I can sympathise. It's a difficult time of year going to go through a bad binge. I am happy I am not there anymore. Whilst I sympathise It's our responsibility to do something about it. We are typically known for blaming others for our actions. That's part of a gambling addict's nature, but unless we make the decision to stop or change or behaviour then continue down the same path of destruction we will.

Merry Christmas to one and who have had the courage to come here an admit your problem with the intention of doing something about it. Stay strong this time of year. It's hard financially on all of is, but remember February is a short month! :)

SCAMbling

Posted on:
Tue, 26/12/2017 - 17:55

Scambling

Joined:
2012-06-21

Day 139,

Feeling very down and depressed again. Can't seem to shake it and be myself. Again all down to women and my feelings. I'm clearly still hurting inside. The pain is far greater than any gambling loss I've ever experienced. Just feel emotionless. Have no mood to do anything, go anywhere... Just lay in bed all day trying to find energy to get up and eat. My confidence is shattered, My heart broken...I'm trying so hard to remain positive, to do the right things. Just feel I'm being left behind... forgotten about... Unloved... I wish I had some friends :'(

I believe this is depression I am experiencing. My God do I feel alone...

Posted on:
Tue, 26/12/2017 - 19:29

ODAAT

Joined:
2014-11-10

Hi Scambling, it’s a terrible time of year for loneliness :-(  It certainly does sound like depression & a trip to your GP may be a good idea but you also need to find a way to stop isolating.  I understand that this is easier said than done when you have zero energy & zero inclination but you have to make these changes somehow.  Try a meeting, gym class, volunteering, anything that means you aren’t alone with your thoughts & feelings!  As addicts, we can be lonely in a room full of people but @ least then, we’re not actually alone.

Great work on your day count, time to find some love now, starting with you & yourself - ODAAT 

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