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#1 Posted on:
Mon, 06/11/2017 - 08:58

gamblerjames

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2013-05-15

Hi all,

This isn't the first diary unfortunately, I have been here several times. The longest I have gone in the last 12 years of gambling is 18 months and I owe that success to posting on here.

Started in the usual way with fruit machines etc and then to now, where i will gamble on everything. My main vice is slots, FOBTs or online. I'm just addicted to the spinning reels. 

This latest episode of gambling actually saw me win something for once, I use the term loosley though as it is impossible for me to win and not want to give the money straight back. No winning is the worst thing that can happen, it just flicks a switch in my brain to hit it harder than ever. 

So the last week draining. I can't stop, I sneak out to gamble at the bookies on the FOBTs, I gamble on my phone all the time and stay up late to carry on gambling. I've reached a point now that I want to stop, not just because of the wasted money, but also the wasted time. Hence the title, I feel like i am a prisoner to gambling. I can't go shopping as I know I'll waste a load of money, I can't do normal things.

I have self excluded the casinos I was signed up to and the usual blocks have now been put in place.

Just need to keep focussed, nobody is forcing me to gamble, this has to come from my own strength and desire to want to end this misery.

Thanks for reading

Day 1 today

James

Posted on:
Mon, 06/11/2017 - 12:47

WhatsWrong

Joined:
2017-10-26

James, well done on rejoining and reposting. Reading your story is like a mirror image of my own, resonates like crazy. I'm only 11 days in to my GF life and like you have managed much longer stints GF. Keep posting and best of luck...

Posted on:
Tue, 07/11/2017 - 11:37

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 2

Thanks gor the kind words of support Whatswrong, it is greatly appreciated! Well done on 11 days, the first couple of weeks is the hardest in my opinion.

Decided to brave going in to town today as I needed to get my haircut and a few other errands. A haircut normally costs around £300 for me as I would slip off in to the bookies. So today, I planned not to take my card and just take enough money for the haircut. However, I couldn't do this as I also needed a new battery installing in my phone, a new watch battery and the haircut so didn't know how much it would all cost. I kept telling myself, don't go in the bookies, they're evil! It worked this time and I feel like this is the first of many moral victories. I have to accept that they beat me time and time again and the fight is over.

So for the first time since I can remember, I actually enjoyed going in to town as a 'normal' human being. The new battery in my phone was a fraction of what i thought it would be so I treated myself to a book. I got Russell Brands new book about addiction and I'm looking forward to reading and hopefully learning from it.

Here's to another gamble free day

Thanks for reading

James

Posted on:
Tue, 07/11/2017 - 23:13

Crossintheroad

Joined:
2017-11-03

James very similar to me I've had a few £1000 t shirts and jeans and haircuts over the years, you've got to laugh about it. I won £800 last week then tried to win another £50 for a sports bet and lost in all. Left the bookies sweating and wanted to cry. What's the point in gambling at all? Keep it up im on day 4 so will regularly check in on your diary

Posted on:
Sat, 11/11/2017 - 23:07

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 2

Sad to report that I gambled on Thursday, I don't know what came over me. It just came out of the blue, I didn't intend to gamble. I walked in to a bookies and spent the cash i had on me. This wasn't enough to feed the habit and felt like I'd already let myself down so there was 'no point in stopping'. I lost £300 in total. The daft thing is, I recovered at one point and could have walked away evens. This again shows that i cannot win because I cannot stop. Some people call it greed but I feel like its more to do with feeding the buzz in my brain. I just didn't want to stop and wasn't ready to leave when I got myself back to where I started. 

That was two days ago. I'm annoyed at myself but I'm back gleaming some positivity out of a rubbish situation. I have started reading Russell Brands book 'Recovery' and its helping me understand and change my approach to this addiction. 

Onwards and upwards

Thanks for reading

James

Posted on:
Sun, 12/11/2017 - 01:50

Christer1

Joined:
2016-02-29

Reading your diary sounds similar to me the one one way I stopped in bookies is doing the multi self exclude that just stops all temptation and I've been bout 6month gfree from high street bookies units just online ones are my issues now

Posted on:
Mon, 13/11/2017 - 16:16

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 4

Thanks for the post Christer1, how does that work then? Do they just upload your photo to a database? How do they enforce that contrywide, bet there is loads of people on it. Does sound good though, something that would help me.

No real major urges to gamble as I have no money. Pay day is in two days and have to be on my guard. Trying to fill my time as much as possible mainly doing exercise. 

Still tempted to gamble and have even been watching youtube videos of streamers which I know is bad and I am trying to stop this as this could easier trigger me to gamble when I have the money to do so.

Onwards and upwards

James

Posted on:
Thu, 21/12/2017 - 21:01

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Had another relapse over the last couple of weeks and feel the lowest i've felt for a long time. I'm starting to think that i'll always be a gambler, i'm weak and out of control. I'm back here because I don't want to be known as a gambler, i don't want that to define who I am. 

I was doing really well and had no intentions of going in to a bookies but whilst on route to get my haircut, I sneaked in to a bookies while my wife was shopping. I ended up losing £400 in the space of an hour. 

Since then, I have managed to set up another account on my phone for an online casino and lost around £2000. I can't even believe I'm writing that figure as its an insane amount of money and something that will take around a year to replace.

I've self excluded my account as i do with every account after a gambling binge. Having to look at ways to get through to payday. 

I'm really sick of everything gambling has done to me. I need to break the cycle of being able to quit for a few weeks then go back to it. 

Heads all over the place tonight, will hope to have a clearer head tomorrow so I can tackle this properly.

Regards

James

Posted on:
Fri, 22/12/2017 - 07:47

Merry go round

Joined:
2017-06-08

Hi James you've been here a long time. Probably had loads of advice. I'm wife of cg. Does your wife know? The best thing to do is hand over the finance, bank accounts, cards. You say you want to stop but you are still carrying cards and cash. If you want to stop you will do anything. Go to GA. Stop the cycle. Stop the excuses.

Posted on:
Sat, 23/12/2017 - 21:20

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Hi Merry go round,

You're right, i've had some good advice over the last couple of years and very grateful for it and also the support has been fantastic. 

My wife doesn't know, I know there is never a good time to tell her, but she is going through a bad time at the moment and couldn't bare to put this on her yet. I will definitely be telling her, I know this sounds like an excuse, I just can't put it on her at the moment. In fact I've been really wanting to tell her for the first time, I've been scared in the past, but I now know its the only way I will truly tackle this problem.

The finances get put in to one pot at the moment and we both have our own accounts that we transfer money in to for the month and the main account pays the bills etc. When I tell the wife I will be providing her with my login details. 

I do still carry my bank cards but this is also stopping, I will only carry my joint account card for any emergency purchases. My wife can see these transactions so I would never gamble with it. The plan will be to just take enough cash with me for whatever I need which should put an end to the £300 haircuts! 

I've self excluded from all sites and will be buying blocking software when I can afford it. 

It's been a bad year, I cannot make next year another bad year as I'm getting older and missing out on more and more opportunities. I've had some dark thoughts along the way which I have never had before so hoping to get some councilling in the New Year. 

Today has been a lot better, did a 64 mile bike ride which has cleared my head and gave me focus on how to tackle this so feeling a lot more positive.

Onwards and upwards, 

Thanks for reading

James

Posted on:
Sun, 24/12/2017 - 08:49

Slot Fool

Joined:
2017-09-20

Hi James thanks for your comment on my diary.
Well done admitting you've relapsed and reaching out. Resetting that day counter is hard to do. Well done for self excluding and planning to talk to your wife.
I think speaking to your wife is going to be key to help you conquer this once and for all. Also handing over financial control might help. I handed over all my cards to my husband but I had them back around a week later, it was not for me but I now get monthly paper statements to show him I'm on track and that I'm also clearing the debt.
You need to find and agree a plan that suits you...but talk to your wife sooner rather than later.
It's the hardest thing I ever did but after the initial reaction had passed and all had calmed down it was like a switch had been flicked and everything was so much easier to deal with. A weight had been lifted.

Sorry to read you've had a bad year, I hope 2018 is a great year for you

Posted on:
Wed, 27/12/2017 - 16:15

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 5

Thanks Slot Fool, some great advice! I agree, speaking with the wife is going to be a massive step forward for me. I can imagine this would feel like a weight being lifted as it is hard to go it alone.

I keep getting urges to watch slots videos on youtube, this is how much I miss them which is so sad because they've done nothing but destroy my life. They are bad for a recovering addict as they make you think you can win. They often but up videos of wins and rarely losses so it gives a false sense of how the slots play. 

Other than that, it's been a busy Christmas which has been good to get my mind off things and now back at work so less opportunity to gamble. 
Just need to keep dealing with the urges and get through each day

Onwards and upwards

James

Posted on:
Fri, 29/12/2017 - 17:36

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 7

A week on and feeling better for abstaining. It hasn't been easy, lots of urges but managed to stay strong. Doing my best to reduce the opportunities to gamble which is helping. Also reading books about addiction to help me understand my problems better. 

Thinking about debt a lot which is normal so early on I guess. The real test will be when I have money again but I need to prepare for this nearer the time. 

Found myself watching youtube videos of people playing FOBTs and slots. This needs to stop completely now as this will encourage urges to gamble. 
Other than that, all is good. Onwards and upwards

James

Posted on:
Tue, 02/01/2018 - 10:56

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 11

11 days in and the urges aren't as frequent at the moment, partly due to having not enough money to gamble. Not really missing it either, enjoying normal things instead of having to rely on gambling for a buzz. Really want to get through 2018 without gambling a single penny. If I manage this, there is a good change I can get rid of the majority of my gambling debt which will be a huge milestone. I have been in debt due to gambling for 10 years which is sad.

It will mean I can actually do things, fed up of turning down days out / away due to always being skint.

Enjoyed a lovely Christmas and New Year with the family, this is what is important in life, not slots and FOBTS!

Onwards and upwards

James

Posted on:
Tue, 02/01/2018 - 11:21

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

I can relate, once went in the bookies for a 'free cup of tea' - ended up costing me close to £500.

Self exclusion does work, particularly if you go into the same town all the time as there are only so many bookies there.

Shaun

Posted on:
Wed, 03/01/2018 - 07:53

Slot Fool

Joined:
2017-09-20

Hi James, you're doing good. Heading for 2 weeks now, well done. Watching those videos sounds like torture, hope you manage to stop this now?

Posted on:
Thu, 04/01/2018 - 20:25

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 13

Thanks so much for the posts Sha999 and Slot Fool. I've self excluded from every online site but could do with self excluding from betting shops in my local area. Always been dubious that they wouldn't recognise me from a photo but I suppose the embarassment of being stopped would be enough to put me off!

Watching the gambling videos on Youtube is torture. Its my way of keeping in touch with gambling without gambling and needs to stop! It is only making me think about it more. 

Had a couple of really strong urges over the last couple of days and managed them quite well. Driving home from work I had a strong urge to call in at the services to get on the slot machines. Thankfully I thought the urge through and saw myself losing £100 minimum. It was clear this would happen as I've done this countless times in the past and never walked away with any money. Being an unlucky gambler is finally paying off! 

Just need to keep treating these urges with the same respect and coming to the same conclusion, that I will just lose and increase my hefty debts. 

So onwards and upwards, nearly two weeks and feeling tonnes better mentally and physically.

Thanks for reading

James

Posted on:
Fri, 05/01/2018 - 07:38

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

Successful ex-gamblers say not giving into urges made them stronger every time.

Well done, good on you. We are winning by not gambling.

Shaun

Posted on:
Sat, 06/01/2018 - 09:48

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 15

Thanks again for the support Shaun. That's really interesting, i wonder if it has something to do with feeling like you are in control again. 2 weeks ago I was a broken man with no control, in such a short period of time i already feel stronger.

Not had any major urges since the last post. I have again thought about stopping at the services to gamble although I soon dismissed these thoughts and I suppose these strange ideas of gambling at the services on my way home will become less and less the more I keep driving past them,

Its a strange thing addiction, to the non gambling a lot of this wouldn't make sense. It's amazing the lengths you'll go to gamble and the risks you'll take. So much easier and less stress not to gamble.

Did watch a youtube video of someone on the fobts, do need to stop this. Not only is it really sad to watch videos of other people gambling, i fear it will trigger something in my brain to copy. I am always hoping they will lose to show me that you cant will on them but I really shouldn't need a video where they are likely only to put up videos of their wins and not upload the losses, to prove to me they take your money. The only times Ive took money out of them evil machines, are times when i've kept the money for 1-2 days max before putting it back in. I cannot win because I cannot stop.

Thanks for reading

James

Posted on:
Sat, 06/01/2018 - 09:52

Pwm101

Joined:
2017-01-23

Keep going James . Make it through the weekend and stay strong . Your ticking off the days nicely . It will get easier . All the best 

Posted on:
Sun, 07/01/2018 - 15:19

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

I once did 8 months gamble free and had to force myself to gamble, I know doh! During that time I hated the thought of gambling. Absetence makes it easier.

Shaun

 

Posted on:
Tue, 09/01/2018 - 16:56

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 18

Thanks PWM101 and Shaun for your support it is much appreciated!

Been having the odd urge to gamble but nothing too bad. Kept myself busy over the weekend and spent it mainly with the wife which was nice. Its good to live a normal life again, even going out for a coffee is a luxury as my cycle of gambling and then having no money means I can never do anything. 

It's probably too soon to do these activities unsupervised but when I feel up to it I will have to leave my bank card at home and just take a tenner out. I can't risk an innocent trip to town turning in to a £500 loss which is so commonly does. 

Feeling really good about getting through 2 and a half weeks, just need to keep focussed but already feeling a lot better being away from the stressful life I was living 3 weeks ago.

Onwards and upwards

Thanks for reading

James

Posted on:
Thu, 11/01/2018 - 20:38

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 20

No real urges since the last post, payday on Monday and already preparing myself for this biggest test. 

I have borrowed money on a 0% credit card to get out of my overdraft after the last bout of gambling. I borrowed too much just in case and have made an extra payment back off the card so I don’t have the temptation of gambling it. Would like to think I wouldn’t but felt good to pay some debt off and I now know I don’t have any money to gamble until monday.

Onwards and upwards, James 

Posted on:
Sat, 13/01/2018 - 10:16

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 22

Just over the 3 week mark, still having urges to gamble but no money to gamble with still. Just 2 days to payday and the real test will begin. Need to stay strong and be mentally prepared for having money in my account. Will have a think over the weekend how I can limit the amount of available money I have on me at any time. I will probably start leaving my bank card at home and just take a small amount of cash out with me. 

Onwards and upwards

James

Posted on:
Sat, 13/01/2018 - 21:29

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

Just a quickie pal, I have contacted my bank and had my debit card daily ATM reduced to £10 a day, apparently they cannot set it to £0. This way I can use my card in the shops but limits my cash to £10 per day. I know you will stay strong come pay day, you are doing great, keep going.

Shaun

Posted on:
Tue, 16/01/2018 - 09:19

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 25

Thanks Shaun, I'm just changed bank accounts so i'm going to enquire about that limit because that would really help me! 

Got paid yesterday, needed to get my haircut so went in to town. At least the last two times i've done this, I have had my haircut then veered off in to the bookies and rinsed £400 to £500 a time. My plan was to just take enough for the haircut but was in a rush and forgot to leave my card in the car. I walked past a load of bookies where I have been before and was just intent on not going in and tried to remember how angry they made me feel. So had my haircut, then treated myself to a coffee in town and it felt really good to be 'normal'.

I've always got to be aware that this can change in any moment but I do enjoy this gamble free life.

Onwards and upwards, 

Thanks for reading

James

Posted on:
Tue, 16/01/2018 - 12:17

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Well done James on walking past those shops!

Wilsy

Posted on:
Wed, 17/01/2018 - 09:39

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

The more we resist the stronger we become. Good news, next week the govt will publish its findings on FOBT's stake reduction, hopefully it is going to be £2 a spin which will help the thousands of people still playing them out there.

Shaun

Posted on:
Sat, 20/01/2018 - 14:06

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 29

Thanks Wilsy and Shaun for your support. That is great news, some sound dubious about the stake reduction from what i've read but any little helps in my opinion. If nothing else it should be a sign to the bookies that they can get away with pillaging peoples money at the rate they have been. Them fortune spins are rediculous, £50 for 5 spins that sometimes pay zero. I've have done the £20 ones but luckily stayed away from them most the time. It still didn't change the end result for me, I was going to waste hundred whether I used the fortune spins or not but for some it will definitely limit their losses. I take it roulette will still be £50 max stake?

Nothing major to report, have been leaving my bank card at home and just had £20 emergency cash on me which I've not had to use so it has been a cheap week. Cycling at least 100 miles a week at the moment which is going me wonders for my health and mentally keeping me focussed on training rather than gambling. 

Off in to town today with my friends, thinking I might take £50 cash and leave my bank card again. This will just make any urges easier to deal with. Need to always be on my guard and properly plan my outings to avoid slipping.

Onwards and upwards

James

Posted on:
Sun, 21/01/2018 - 09:26

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

I believe the the stake reduction will be on all games on FOBT's. Great news you are gamble free and at the same time looking after your health and mind.

Keep racking those days up and keep up the good work.

Shaun

Posted on:
Fri, 26/01/2018 - 10:46

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 35

Thanks again for the post Shaun, excellent news that it is on all games on FOBTs, that will definitely put a lot of people off especially those who bet big on roulette.

Still battling with the odd urge but still handling with them quite well. I have money in my account for the first time in a long while. Keep meaning to buy myself something small just as a little reward but I’m so tight with money I always talk myself out of it! 

Onwards and upwards

James

Posted on:
Mon, 29/01/2018 - 10:28

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

Nice to see you are still gamble free, well done. Over the weekend I have spent two hundred pounds on Beats Headphones as way of a treat for not gambling.

Go on, spoil yourself, you deserve it.

Shaun

Posted on:
Wed, 31/01/2018 - 17:47

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 40

Thanks again Shaun for the post, still not bought myself anything but I will this week. Looking at getting a Fitbit.

Nothing new to report thankfully, no major urges just the odd thought of nipping to the bookies but quickly talked myself out of it.

Feeling like I don’t want to gamble anymore which is really helping, things have got so much better since I stopped that I just don’t want to mess it up. 

Going to Budapest in 2 weeks for a City break and cannot wait as this will hopefully be the 50 days GF stage and so can celebrate over there.

Onwards and upwards

James

Posted on:
Sat, 03/02/2018 - 13:32

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

Well done in staying gamble free, nice to read you are going away, just think, by not gambling it probably hasn't cost you anything, or another way of looking at it is the bookies have paid for that holiday.

Shaun

Posted on:
Tue, 06/02/2018 - 17:49

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 46

Thanks Shaun, yeah that is a good way of looking at it. I can just afford to go with little spending money but hate to think what I would have done if I didn't stop when I did. 

Still getting urges to gamble but they are becoming less frequent but still need to stay on my guard. I'm still fascinated by gambling and still finding myself watching online slots on Youtube. I need to get out of this habbit. I worry that it could make me want to gamble again.

Life is so much better without gambling, in so many different way. I won't see the financial benefit for a while but I am already seeing that I am being a better person and have more time for my loved ones. Long may this continue. 

I went for a meal with the Mrs last week and walked past a fruit machine on my way to the toilet. I had change in my pocket and I had enough time to gamble without her finding out. I saw it from a distance and it took me by surprise that I was actually considering it. I had a good think whilst in the toilet and mustered up the strength to walk past and sat back down with the wife. It felt so good to do this and for the first time in a while I felt in control. Just proved that at any point a quick opportunity to gamble could take me down. 
Onwards and upwards

James

Posted on:
Thu, 08/02/2018 - 13:40

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

Well done in fighting that temptation, it will make you stronger, I promise.

One word of caution though my friend, the last relapse I had was due to me watching YouTube videos of people playing the bookies roulette machines. I would watch so many, all of them winning, I couldn't resist.

Take care, I know you won't cave into those videos.

Shaun

Posted on:
Sun, 11/02/2018 - 10:57

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 51

Thanks again Shain, you're right, they mainly put up their winning videos which makes you think its easy. I sometimes wish they lose as if to prove to me that that's what happens when you gamble, redicolous as I've gambled for 10plus years and never profitted from gambling! 

Been really busy recently so not had any urges that I can recall, as time is passing, they are getting less and less which is good. I'm not in a great place financially but much better than when I was gambling. If I can not gamble this year, I hope to clear a lot of my debt by Christmas. 

Onwards and upwards, chuffed to get over the half century mark!

thanks for reading 

James

Posted on:
Mon, 12/02/2018 - 09:59

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

The thing about those guys posting the YouTube videos is that they only sing when they are winning (a typical gambler) . Your financial position I am sure you would agree will be a lot worse if you started gambling. Keep up the good work and the gamble free days will rack up, wow! Almost debt free by Xmas, now that is an incentive.

Shaun

Posted on:
Mon, 12/02/2018 - 10:41

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Day 52 today mate, you are doing it, changing your life. Good lad

Wilsy

Posted on:
Sun, 18/02/2018 - 09:21

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

Hope all is good and rosey,  well over 50 days now, well done mate.

Shaun

Posted on:
Tue, 27/02/2018 - 13:07

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 67

Thanks Shaun and Wilsy, really appreciate the support. Still gamble free, not posted for a while as I've been busy with work and been away on a City Break with the wife. This was only possible as I have remained gamble free so was nice to see the fruits of my labour for once!

Having the occasion urge now, most of the time I just ignore them now as they aren't as strong but I can feel myself getting more complacent. For example, going in to town with money. I'm pleased to say I haven't gambled when I have had the opportunity but don't think I should be putting myself in a position where it is even possible to gamble, but this is hard to do all the time. Just need to stay on my guard. 

Nothing else to report, thanks for reading

James

Posted on:
Tue, 27/02/2018 - 13:55

Took a wrong turn

Joined:
2012-02-22

Day 67 is fantastic mate, great achiement. You post when you can buddy at least you are busy and keeping your pennies in your pocket.

Yes keep on guard and keep those urges at bay

Wilsy

Posted on:
Wed, 28/02/2018 - 08:44

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

Nice to see you are doing ok, I know what you mean, sometimes whilst going into town you have to have money on you as not everywhere accepts cards. Yes, I have reached the half century milestone, not making too much of a song and dance as I have been here before.

Hope you enjoyed your break and to think, not gambling paid for that holiday!

Shaun

Posted on:
Thu, 15/03/2018 - 16:42

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 83

Thanks again for your ongoing support Wilsy and Shaun. Still going strong and still enjoying life away from gambling. The urges are getting less and less and when I do think about gambling, I don't really feel that tempted anymore. I know this can and probably will change but compared to when I first stopped it is becoming a lot easier. In the early days I was thinking about gambling all the time. This has been my downfall in the past, being complacement but I think I am better placed to recognise it. I see why recovery is a journey, each time we fall we need to dust ourselves down and get back on the wagon. Learn from what went wrong the time before and change it. I used to be embarassed to come back on here after a relapse but like a lot of people say, it is part of the recovery process. 

Thanks for reading, keep up the fight everyone

James

Posted on:
Fri, 23/03/2018 - 09:20

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

Nice to see you are doing well, keep it up, the 100 is not far away.

Shaun

Posted on:
Sun, 01/04/2018 - 10:32

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Hi Shaun, 
Thanks for the support. It is finally here, 100 days! Not been on for a while as life has been a bit hectic, but glad to report that I am still gamble free. 

I can count on one hand the amount of times i've got over the century mark since starting gambling 12 years ago so this is a big achievement for me and something I really need to build on to make sure this is now the norm. 

The urges are few and far between but they are still there and don't expect they will ever completely go. Watched the boxing last night and all my mates were betting on it, but I didn't really have any interest. Normally I'd be up for betting on absolutely anything, it didn't matter if I was interested in it or not, nor had any knowledge. This was gambling just for the buzz.

So onwards and upwards, a big milestone that needs building on.

Thanks for reading

James

Posted on:
Wed, 04/04/2018 - 11:35

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

A massive congrats from me in reaching the 100 mark, well done.

I can relate to betting on anything, know the heads and tails game at the bookies, yep, you got it in one, I have bet on that in the past. We shouldn't laugh but once in a bookies I saw two grown men in their 50's studying the form on the cartoon races and one of them saying 'this trainers in form, let's back this one', lol!

Bad news on the FOBT's but like you said on my diary, this will motivate us even more than ever not to play on them.

Life is good without gambling, eh.

Keep up the good work, speak soon.

Posted on:
Sat, 28/04/2018 - 09:20

gamblerjames

Joined:
2013-05-15

Day 127

Thanks again Shaun for the post, its amazing what we do just to gamble, i've bet on them cartoon races myself in the past but didn't go as far as studying form lol, that is brilliant!

Not much to report, mad busy so not been on for a while. Really happy that I am still gamble free. The money situation often frustrates me, I think I should be flush with money now I am not gambling, but I feel more skint now than ever. Obviously in time this will get better but doesn't do good for your motivation when you are no better off but just need to keep strong until the debts are repaid. The main thing is I am happier in myself and not bringing unneccessary stress on myself. 

Onwards and upwards

James 

Posted on:
Tue, 15/05/2018 - 11:23

Sha999

Joined:
2017-08-29

Hi James

Not been posting much lately as my iPad is broke so only have phone and I find it hard to type and to be fair I ring gamcare once a week as it's easier. Nice to see you are still going strong and enjoying a gamble free life, we are all much better off without gambling, money wise and health wise.

Keep up the good work and stay gamble free.

Shaun